$%!@*&#^ This!

$%!@*&#^ This! I hate it! I quit! AYOKO NA! AYAW! AYAW! AYAW!

Hindi ako mapili sa trabaho, alam yan ng mga magulang ko at sa mga taong matagal nang nakakakilala sakin. Hindi rin ako tatamad-tamad tulad ng sinasabi sakin dito, alam din yan ng Nanay ko, HINDI AKO TAMAD! At lalong-lalo naman na may tiyaga ako sa kung anong trabaho ang iharap mo sakin.. Pero ngayon? $%!@*&#^ This! SOBRA NA! Ayoko na! Sawang-sawa na ko sa araw-araw na dalawang libong mahigit na phone calls na kalahati pa dun ay mga bastos at walang modo [SOBRANG UNPROFESSIONAL] na clients na akala mo residential yata ang tinatawagan at kung minsan parang pay phone pa sa kung saan ang gamit! ANG EEPAL NINYONG LAHAT! [with matching turo-turo ala Assunta de Rossi in JOLOGS.]

Parang ganito lang yan eh.. HINDI AKO NAG-ARAL NG APAT NA TAON SA KOLEHIYO PARA BAGSAKAN NG TELEPONO NG ISANG WALANG MODONG [AT JOLOGS MAG-ENGLISH, TRYING HARD, FEELING SOCIALITE] CLIENTE! $%!@*&#^ This! At ano tingin niya sakin? Robot na walang "programmed" na sagot kapag nagaalburuto ang cliente? Underdog na hidni alam gagawin kapag nasigawan? Ako pa ba magpatalo? DEMMET! EH di nasigawan siya! Hahaha! Well, hindi naman yun biglaan at tipong "marketer" [Palengkera] ang dating at bigla nalang ako nag-snap ng ganun. Pang-anim [Oo, nabilang ko.] na beses niya na kong binabastos over the phone, yung hindi courteous/professional kind of bastos, ganun. Eh nabosesan ko siya. So ayun, inunahan ko na.

"MA'AM SANA PO HINDI NIYO PO BINABAGSAK YUNG TELEPONO KASI MASAKIT PO SA TENGA AT MEDYO HINDI PO MAGANDA YUNG ASAL NIYO." Tapos hindi siya nagreply. At marahan niyang binaba ang phone. Olats!

Ang nauna ay "external stress factor", iba pa yung "internal stress factor". Tao ba 'to? OO! Hayop ba 'to? Pwede. Hayop sa katamaran! $%!@*&#^ This!

Ganito yan eh, kung alam ko lang sagutin LAHAT ng tanong ng mga cliente niyo, hindi ko na ipapasa sa inyo yung tawag. Alam ko namang busy ang lahat, lalo na sa department niyo. [Oo, sensitive ako sa environment ko. Unlike you!] Pero wala akong alam sa mga processes na yan eh . [At hindi ko kasalanan na wala akong alam, I WAS NOT INFORMED!!] So talagang babagsak at babagsak sa inyo yung mga tawag... Tapos anong gagawin mo? Deadma ka lang? Muta ang phone? Kiber sa mga phone-in queries? ANO KA, BOSS? $%!@*&#^ This! Tibay ng loob niyo "boss"! Ang laki-laki ng sweldo niyo, konting effort pa jan para naman kahit paano tumugma ang pinapasahod sayo sa tinatrabaho mo. Oo judgmental siguro ako sa pagkakataon na 'to, pero "boss", last year ka pa ganyan. Dati nga lakas mo pa makareklamo sakin na pinuputakti ka ng tawag. EH ANO PA PO AKO? Lunok lang pahinga. Palit tayo, trip mo?

Tama na. Galit ako kaya kung ano-ano sinasabi ko. *In hell.. Excel..*

Anyway, ayun lang, nag-rant lang ako. Ang init ng ulo ko [Literal. Yung parang may steam. Ganun ka-init.] at ang tigas ng batok at balikat ko [Malamang ay dahil sa stress.] at wala na kong energy para magalit pa. Naubos na mula alas-otso [Oo, pagpasok na pagpasok palang, umaaribba na ang mga tawag!] ng umaga. Haaaaaaaay! $%!@*&#^ This!

J-Hunting.

Before 2011 ended, I promised myself that if I don't get to be regularized here at the company I'm currently working, I'd find career opportunities in other companies. Why? Because I've been working here for 2 freaking years already and I'm still not on a regular status. And it's not because of my performance, I'm very well sure of that. And of course, my current job/position doesn't let me maximize my "potential" to excel and to utilize my skills. Kaya ito.. Nangangalawang na, nabobobo pa.

Rant mode: on. Of the 2 years that I've been working here:
1.) Are they properly orienting new employees [including me.] on the description/nature of the job that will be taking on? NO.
2.) Are they doing anything to contribute to the 'career growth' of the employees? NO.
3.) Are they provided enough trainings/seminars to further learning? NO.
4.) Are they prompt in giving promotions/regularization to contractual employees? HELL NO!
5.) Are they giving 'bonggang-bonggang' incentives and a competitive salary rate? HELL YEAH!
Tssss.. Panira! Che!

So, if can't do anything about my regularization, why not do something that I'm in control of? OPERATION J-HUNTING! Ü

I'll admit, it isn't easy. Not that there are no available vacancies, it's just that I feel I'm not fit for those positions or that I don't qualify in terms of the technical skills needed. [Yeah. So much for the training requests! Walang natupad kahit isa!] I'm like on entry level again/fresh graduate. And this fact is kind of depressing. REALLY.

But one thing is for sure, I won't leave until there is a replacement. I'm not that stupid/desperate! I should keep in mind that I still have 3 years of schooling that I need to pay for. *wink*

Taking Chances.

Three days before we say goodbye to 2011, and welcome the new year 2012 -- a fresh start, a new beginning, a renewed hope, a better year. Yes, this coming year will be a better one. But I don't want to talk about what is to come, but rather what has gone by -- 2011.

I'll admit, this year wasn't my "A-game"; I've had a fair share of ups and downs [And "downer", and "downest". ] but I survived. I freaking survived all of it! [I maybe over reacting, but hey, this is my blog, so hush!] And I have to thank God for E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G. For all the blessings, success, opportunities, happiness, sadness, hurt, pain, trials, rejection.. AS IN EVERYTHING! If it wasn't for Him [And his supercalifragilistic plans] none of these would be possible. He also gave me a bunch of amazing people to help me get through it all. I'd like to thank ALL OF YOU! ♥♥♥

The past year [Yes, I shall start calling it 'The Past."] has taught me a lot of lessons about love, friendship, life in general, and most importantly... chances. I've learned that chances are not only meant to be given to another person, we should also give it ourselves. A chance to be better, to go further, to start over, and to give more. I don't want to go into details, but all I know is that chances shouldn't stop at "second chance".. There should be a third.. fourth.. even a fifth chance. [When the situation calls for it.]

Taking chances also means taking risks. It's a little scary, but as what they say, "You've got to lose some to win some." You'll never know what you're missing if you don't go after what you want. Take that chance. Take the risk. And if things don't turn in your favor, charge it to experience. And while you're at it, try to have a little fun. There's no harm in trying. Neither there is in taking chances.. so go!

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST.
LIVE TO LAUGH AND TO LOVE.
AND MOST OF ALL, LIVE FOR THE GLORY OF THE LORD.

And with that.. Let's cheer to the new year that's ahead of us!

What do you say to taking chances? What do you say to jumping off the edge? Never knowing is there's solid ground below, or hand to hold, or hell to pay. What do you say?

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY! :)

Hey hey! Something 'bout this day that makes me wanna sing this song over and over and OVER again. It's been exactly a year ago.. Haaaaay.. Watch this.

Confessions [Part II]

by: Usher

These are my confessions

Just when I thought I said all I can say

My chick on the side said she got one on the way

These are my confessions

Man I'm grown and I don't know what to do

I guess I gotta give you part 2 of my confessions

If I'm gonna tell it then I gotta tell it all

Damn near cried when I got that phone call

I'm so gone and I don't know what to do

But to give you part 2 of my confessions

Now this gon' be the hardest thing I think I ever had to do

Got me talkin' to myself askin' how I'm gon' tell you

'bout that chick on part 1 I told ya'll I was creepin' with, creepin' with

Said she's 3 months pregnant and she's keepin' it

The first thing that came to mind was you

Second thing was how do I know if it's mine and is it true

Third thing was me wishin' that I never did what I did

How I ain't ready for no kid and bye bye to our relationship

These are my confessions

Just when I thought I said all I can say

My chick on the side said she got one on the way

These are my confessions

Man I'm grown and I don't know what to do

I guess I gotta give you part 2 of my confessions

If I'm gonna tell it then I gotta tell it all

Damn near cried when I got that phone call

I'm so gone and I don't know what to do

But to give you part 2 of my confessions

Sitting here stuck on stupid tryna figure out

When, what, and how I'mma let this come out of my mouth

Said it ain't gon' be easy

But I need to stop thinkin', contemplatin'

Be a man and get it over with (over with)

I'm ridin' in my whip

Racin' to her place

Talkin' to myself

Preparin' to tell her to her face

She open up the door and didn't want to come near me

I said one second baby

Please hear me

These are my confessions

Just when I thought I said all I can say

My chick on the side said she got one on the way

These are my confessions

Man I'm grown and I don't know what to do

I guess I gotta give you part 2 of my confessions

If I'm gonna tell it then I gotta tell it all

Damn near cried when I got that phone call

I'm so gone and I don't know what to do

But to give you part 2 of my confessions

And this by far is the hardest thing I think I've ever had to do

To tell you, the woman I love

That I'm having a baby by a woman that I barely even know

I hope you can accept the fact that I'm man enough to tell you this

And hopefully you'll give me another chance

This ain't about my career

This ain't about my life

It's about us

Please

These are my confessions

Just when I thought I said all I can say

My chick on the side said she got one on the way

These are my confessions

Man I'm grown and I don't know what to do

I guess I gotta give you part 2 of my confessions

If I'm gonna tell it then I gotta tell it all

Damn near cried when I got that phone call

I'm so gone and I don't know what to do

But to give you part 2 of my confessions

Be Careful What You Wish For..

♫♪ Christmas shines in the hearts of believers who still feel a child-like surprise. Christmas shines like a Savior who leads us, He puts fire in our hearts and hope in our eyes. ♪♫

It's 2 days 'till Christmas and everywhere you go, you'll feel *warmth* from the people around you. [Minsan init ng ulo. Haha!] All smiles, good vibes keep on coming, ♫♪ giving gifts, exchanging cards ♪♫, the feeling that "NOTHING" can go wrong and ruin this holiday season [Kahit si Sendong pa yan!] etc. Its as if right in this moment, the world is much MUCH easier to deal with. ^_______^

Making a "Wish List" has always been my thing during Christmas. But this year, its different. I'll give the wish list a rest, I wouldn't wish for material "things" that I don't have at the moment, for "circumstances" to turn in my favor, or for "people" to change for the better to make them easier to deal with. [Haha! No offense. Wala na kasi akong maisip. Eh gusto ko 3 points ko, bakit ba?] INSTEAD, I'd just wish for two things : WILLINGNESS and WISDOM. [Kung nahihingi man ito, nabibigay, o nabibili. Basta yang dalawang yan, masaya na ko.] Why? Because I have a paper due next week and I can't freakin' enjoy the holiday season because these school works, and I haven't even started yet and it's stressing the hell out of me! Gaaaaaaaah!

BOOM! Nahirapan na ko mag-English, nastress ako lalo. :p

Pero kung pipilitin niyo ko, may "wish list" parin naman ako, naka-mental note yan. Simple lang din.

1. [And only.] Shih Tzu - Lagi ko namang hiling 'to eh. I miss having a pet dog. Hindi ko na matawag sarili ko na dog lover kasi lahat halos ng dogs namin deads na. :(( Kailangan ko na ng "loyal" friend at "companion". Yung kahit anong gawin ko sa kanya hindi makukuhang magreklamo dahil tatanggapin niya lang lahat yun. [Hindi naman ako sadista sa pets.] Pero I know naman na dadating din yung time na magiging "ready" na ko ulit to have a pet dog. [Hindi biro ang 11 years na kasama namin si Leila, our beloved Shih Tzu. Rest in peace baby.] This will be the first Christmas that she wouldn't be included in our family picture. Naiiyak ako! Haha! But then again, alam ko namang madali lang mapalitan yun eh. Basta, kapag ready na ko. =) Pero hindi narin masama kung biglang may mag-abot sakin nun. ^______^


So, ayun. Walang sense yung post. Hahaha! Nagpalipas lang ako ng oras, tagal kasi ng lunch eh! Bye for now.