#25ThingsImThankfulFor

This is just a consolidated post from my Twitter.. (Because sometimes you cannot compress your thoughts into just 140 characters.) 

25. NO ACCOUNTING CLASSES! - This was the first good news I received today! Reporter ako dapat for my Accounting class later and I'm not that prepared, so when I got the text from my Prof.. Hindi ko mapigilan yung ngiti ko. (Kung pwede mag-jumpshot ginawa ko na!) It's one thing to go to school (After work) on your birthday, pero yung ako pa yung magrereport? Naaaaamaaaan! Kaya buti nalang talaga di natuloy! Weeeee! GOOD VIBES!

24. MY JOB. - (Even though my entire core hates it.) My job pays for my bills, my "wants" and when I have extra, I get to treat my family and buy something for Ysabella. Its also where I get my tithe from. So simply put.. JOB = FINANCIAL BLESSINGS = THANKFUL!

23. RUNNING and BOXING. - Two of my favorite stress-busters. I started running March 2011 because I want to strengthen my knees and my lungs. Boxing was my "delayed" planned since college, so when I got the chance to visit Elorde Taft, I immediately signed-up. Though lately I'm not doing trainings because of other stuff. (Hope to get back soon...est!)

22. APPLE GADGETS. - iPod, iTouch, iPhone, iPad, MacBook Pro..etc. They're simply the coolest thing there is! From the design, technology, interface, and of course the apps on the AppStore... AWESOME!

21. THE BEAUTIFUL BEACHES OF OUR COUNTRY. - I love going to the beach.. They're very calm and relaxing. And little did we know that there's a lot of beautiful beaches here in our country.. And I wish to go to all of them someday.. *wishful thinking*

20. USHER, JORDAN KNIGHT, MAROON 5, JOHN MAYER. - For writing songs that speaks my heart.. CHAROT! I love love LOVE their songs!  

19. BBM. (BlackBerry Messenger) - Friendship knows no distance.. Whaddup BBM friends! Ang dali mag-chikahan gamit ang BBM.. From Pasay to Makati to Quezon City to Mindanao to India to Dubai.. Kala mo magkakalapit bahay lang kung mag-tsismisan! Hahaha! =) 

18. INSANITY and SHAUN T. - For pushing me to "dig deeper". Yan ang paulit-ulit na sinasabi ni Shaun T every workout. It may be insane...but it's all good. You'll thank him for your hardcore abs someday.

17. WONKA CANDIES. - Nerds, Gobstoppers, Runts, Pixy Stix, SweeTarts, Bottle Caps, etc... THEY ARE THE SWEETEST! Need I say more? 

16. MY BABY BOYS. - Josh Acosta, Batch Santero, Bagz Santero, James Umbal, Frank Lee, and of course.. JAMEEL ESCOBER. The sweetest boys I know. I love being an "Ate" to them.. Yan ang mga binabantayan ko, mahirap na.. They "might" break the hearts of SO many girls. Hahaha! =))

15. EX-BFs, FLINGS, CHORVAHS, ALMOSTS. (Whatever you want to call it.) - You've made me stronger by breaking my heart.. Yun na! HAHAHAHA! =))

14. RANDOM FRIENDS, NEW FOUND FRIENDS. - I am learning so much from you and your behavior.. (Not a bad thing.) at least I know hindi pa ako ganun ka-loner, I can still mingle with my fellow humanoids.

13. GODDAUGHTERS AND GODSONS. - And their parents as well, for trusting that I can guide their child/children in the right way. I swear, I'll do everything I can to put up with that responsibility. Thank you for the opportunity.. Pwede na yata ako maging ULIRANG NINANG AWARD sa dami ng inaanak ko.. SWEAR! Lagpas 20 na! But no worries.. I love them all!

12. THE MARIANO CLAN. -From our Grandparents to our Uncles & Aunties, down to the "apo sa tuhod".. I'm thankful for all of them. Even though we only see each other on special occasions, we still have that "close family ties". And the genes.. MY GOODNESS! Look at the family.. Ubod ng ganda't gwapo! =) LOVE YOUR OWN!

11. YOUTH CAMP 2005. - Even if its 7 years ago, I will be forever thankful for this Youth Camp because it paved the way for me to really know, accept, and declare that God is the ruler of my life. *tears* To all the Ates and Kuyas back then, who inspires the Ates and Kuyas now to guide and nurture the youth of our church; To all the lessons instilled in our hearts up until now (Hopefully); To the friendships we've formed; To Dalo, who still remained to be a close friend of mine.. amidst all that has happened; To my first ever LOVE BANQUET with my Ate Kat (That I swear halos ikamatay ko kakaiyak at di na ko makahinga.) and; To my new found sister (back-then) Ate Jojie, who shares the same sentiments regarding "daddy issues" (Na bonggang-bongga naming iniyakan din nung panahon na yun.) I can still vividly (Oo! Vividly!) remember every memory I've had in those 5-days. Basta.. I am thankful for that specific event in my life! I won't forget it...ever!

---------- SHUCKS! BREAK MUNA! NAIYAK AKO NG BONGGA! Emotional ang peg ngayong? :p ----------

10. CCS. (Commerce Cheering Squad) and Coach Ajjie Mendelebar. - All that I've learned in dancing/cheering - dance techniques, skills, hard work, teamwork, determination - you we're with me. For sharing that same passion for dancing for the Commerce Community and for the friendship that just doesn't end "on the floor" when we bring it.. From the bottom of my heart, I thank you.. I thank God for all of you. Meeting you and being on a team with you was no accident. Iba-ibang ugali, pero lahat nag-click. I'll always be a proud member of the COMMERCE CHEERING SQUAD! Thank you for making my stay in UST more meaningful and memorable!

9. EMC DANCE MINISTRY. - For having the same desire to worship, praise, honor, serve and glorify God thru our body movements, talents, skills.. thru our dance. Thank you. May we continue on with this ministry for as long as our bodies can. One heart. One dance. One GOD. EMC DANCE!

8. YCC. (Youth Coordinating Council) - The opportunity to be of service to God and to the Youth, the responsibility we have to attend to, the initiative that we have to instill in our hearts and minds to plan activities, the team that God designed to do His works.. All of these.. PRICELESS! 3-time Treasurer.. Booyah!

7. MIDWEEK FELLOWSHIP / PRAYER MEETING GROUP. - Our usual Sundays are not enough, hence, we have to have another day set aside to have our "weekly dose" of God's wisdom and teachings and to have time to pray together and be in fellowship with one another. Bonus nalang na you get to do it with your closest friends. Sana magtuloy-tuloy pa 'to.. Bits, Chasha, Jai, Jas.. *fist bump* (With the guidance of Pas Caloy and Tita Necy) (And we hope makasama pa namin ng mas madalas yung iba..)

6. BEST FRIEND-TURNED-LOVER-TURNED-SWORN ENEMY-TURNED-BEST FRIEND... - Ikaw talaga! You can be all of these at once, you know that? Haha! But seriously, 18 years of friendship?  (And counting) That's something to be really thankful for. Thank you because you "switch gears" whenever you need to.. And I know I'm a bit crazy (Especially when PMSing or birthday's coming..) but you manage to "manage" me.. Gets? All other things I wish to tell you, I'll tell it in person nalang.. (This post is about me, not about you! Chot!)

5. GRANDPARENTS. - Mr. Guillermo Mariano and Mrs. Elisa Atienza-Mariano. Ang ugat ng magandang lahi ng mga Mariano. Even though we only have one pair of grandparents, they're still the best! Hindi nagkulang! Naalagaan (Kahit paano) lahat ng apo, memorize lahat ng FULL NAMES ng mag-anak, laging "may inaabot" kahit na hindi na dapat, at laging humahalik kapag may pagkakataon. Mahal ko yan, mahal namin yan! At kahit na isang pares lang ipinagkaloob samin, sobra-sobra pa sa pagmamahal ng lolo't lola naibigay niyang mga yan saming lahat.. (Trivia: Si Grandpa ang first ever binigyan ko ng dugo dahil ako lang yata ang Type A+ sa pamilya nung time na kinailangan niya. I swear, kung pwedeng 2 bag ang punuuin ko para sa kanya, ginawa ko. Pero di ako ganun katatag, so 1 bag lang.. pero 450cc.)

4. YSABELLA SKY TABERNILLA-MARZAN. - (And to my future pamangkins as well.) For bringing joy to our hearts for the simplest things that you do. (Kahit ngumiti ka lang, I swear, bibigyan ka ng MacBook Pro ni Lolo Daddy mo! Haha!) I never knew being your Tita Ninang would be this fun! Kahit na maubusan ako ng pera, basta para sayo, ok lang! (Pero 'pag dumami na kayo, kailangan mo maintindihan na dapat pantay-pantay kayong lahat.. For now, let's concentrate on you.) Add to that, we have the same birthmonth, I get to have my mini-Grinch/Grinchette! I'll be a good Tita Ninang / Mama Lai to you.. promise! And thank you for sucking out all the bad vibes everytime I get to see you.

3. MY SISTERS KATHY and LESLEY. - The best of both worlds. My sworn enemies when I was still a child.. and now the best "little" sisters I have. (I used to call Ate Kat Ms. Minchin, dahil kung apihin ako parang si Sarah at Becky combined!) Feeling yata nila ako yung panganay at kung makapag-hiling ng "gifts", wagas. Haha! Don't get me wrong, I love giving them stuff, nakakatawa lang isipin minsan. Eh dati lagi nila ako inaaway at inaasar na panget, ampon, etc! Well.. Well.. Well.. LOOK AT ME NOW! (Busabos parin! Chot!) Ganito man ako, never ko na-feel na kailangan ko i-assert sa sarili ko at sa ibang tao na "kapatid nila ako", alam ko naman na talo-talo na talaga sa mukha. Mahal ko kayo, alam niyo na yun.. at alam ko rin na mahal niyo ko.. so no SLOPPY KISSES / WET KISSES on the cheeks necessary, K?

2. MY MOTHER LETICIA. - The bearer of the womb who created me and brought me into this world... (HA? ANG PANGET PAKINGGAN!) My mother, who is always there for us, who always make sure me/we have "baons", who is willing to help anytime, and who simply doesn't get tired of taking care of her "baby damulag"..me! (Trivia: I still sleep beside my mom. Yeah, ganun kami ka-sweet. Haha!)

1. 25 YEARS OF AN AWESOME ROLLER-COASTER RIDE CALLED "LIFE". -  25 blissful years.. What more could I ask for? Silver year baby! Thank you Lord, you are indeed the darling of heaven who gives life to us here on earth. I'd still be excited for the years to come. 

LET THE GOOD VIBES ROLL! Tapusin na ang curse ng
"The Birthday Grinch!"

Surrender.

6 months has gone since 2011 started, and yet I'm still here, stuck in the very same situation of not knowing where to go. "It's how you step up to the fast-changing world." I remember saying this line to a friend way [waaaaaay] back. And now, come to think of it, how do I step up from this fast-changing world? This is how, I'm gonna back down. Why? Because I'm just too damn tired to fight for what I want. At least now I've come to realize that what I want is not what destiny/life/God/etc. wants for me. This is not the road that I should be taking. [Or so it seems.] I dream of having a stable job, a masteral degree, the 'close-to-perfect' lovelife, through-thick-and-thin friendships, start investing on my own house, etc. and I've been working so hard to achieve all that.. But, its just not happening. [At least some of it doesn't.] I'm still not promoted on my job, I haven't enrolled yet to Graduate School, eeerrmm..., etc. So now, I'm just gonna wave that white flag, scream my heart out "EH DI IKAW NA!!! IKAW NA MAGPATAKBO NG BUHAY KO!!!"

Truth be told, we're only human and we, one way or another, go through this phase in our life when we just give up and surrender everything. I just hope that this time, I'd FULLY surrender everything to Him. Let Him take over my life, and help me accept wherever He leads me, whether its what I want or not. May He give me a new direction to a happier life that I know and I'm very sure of He wants for me. May I fully give my trust to Him and renew my faith in Him and continue to believe that there will be a brighter tomorrow for me, for you, and for all of us.




P.S. Oh yeah! Its my birthday today. Blah. :|

2nd - "The Morning After."

"Asan ako? Sino ako? Bakit iba na damit ko? Waaaah! Sakit ng ulo ko. Hangover!"

At habang inaalala ko kung anu nangyari nung gabi, napangiti nalang ako. ^____^

I love Sunday mornings. Peaceful. No rushing to the bathroom so you won't get late. Relaxing. Sweet. ♥ I needed this kind of rest, after all, its been a rock and rollin' week and I haven't had enough rest. I can hear my mom now saying "Wag mo abusuhin katawan mo!" Ü [Hindi mo naman maaabuso to pagtanda mo na diba? Hehehe.]

Bummed around the whole afternoon. Watched Pretty Little Liars and Glee.

Went to church for the Vesper Service. [Di kinaya sa afternoon magsimba eh.] Hangover strikes again. Fell asleep during the sermon. [sOwiE pFuoWh. JejEje.] Prayed to give thanks for 23 rock and rolling years.

Dinner at Yellow Cab then off to Central Adriatico for another birthday bash but got dissapointed because IT WAS FREAKING CLOSED! :( So we ended up in Starbucks Adriatico instead. Energy sucker! WE WANT THAT BAD TRIP REAL BAD! :( Felt frustrated, really frustrated. But I kind of enjoyed hanging out with them. Tamang "chill" lang.

My annual "Grinch" mode is kicking in already. I. AM. TIRED. And I need to go to work tomorrow. What a birthday!

3rd - "Dance. Drink. Die."

Still Sleepy. 5th day of my Zombie mode. 0_o

I was late for my class and miss almost half of the morning session. I still manage to jot down some notes though. We had lunch at Max's, and my classmates were pretending that it was my "Birthday Treat". [Asa!] It was also the first time that my "crush" from the class talked to me. [After that, he wasn't my crush anymore, close na kami eh! Haha! Ü] The afternoon session was a lot of fun. Our assignments were the entries for the in-class contest that has 2 categories. I don't want to go through the details but it was fun. Also, 4 of our professors were the judges so it was S-C-A-R-Y! And so that's it. Ü

After that I went home to prepare for my Pre-Birthday Bash with my friends from Starbucks. Of course, it was raining, but that didin't stop us from having a hard rockin' party that night. LAX was SUPERB! ♥ Non-stop dancing with my little black dress on. We definiely had a great time. I missed clubbing so much.. The way people dress up, the shimmering eyeshadows, the bling-blings, the loud RnB music, the flashing lights, the bumping-grinding-flirting on the dance floor.. [Not me! Ü] I MISSED EVERYTHING! It nice to just look around every once in a while. Ü

I really can't stand SanMig Strong Ice. But we have no other choice that night so I have to bear with them. Aside from the fact that I don't like it that much, It also doesn't go well with a Vodka Cruiser. 5 SM + 2 Vodka Cruiser = Sober. It was a major headache! X_X [But it was fun. The last time I was THIS drunk... Hmm... Can't remember! Hahaha! Ü] Shot till we drop!

I got home safe. But the ride home was unexplainable. I asked the driver to turn off the aircon and put the windows down for a while because I might blow up. Luckily, I didn't. As I entered the house, that's when I did it. And then I PASSED OUT. X_X

This is how you party! Happy Birthday Melai! ♥

"Patrones on the rocks and I'm ready for some shots! Let's go! Ü"

2 days to go.. ♥

4th - "Usher.. Uhhhsaaaah!"

Petiks Friday at the office. Again. A lot of people are already greeting me a "Happy Birthday". [Pfft! How can it be happy when I HAVE TO FREAKING WORK ON MY BIRTHDAY! Birthday Leave not granted.]

THIS IS IT! Its Usher's concert here in Manila, and I don't have tickets. :( I feel really really REALLY sad because I won't get to see him perform. To think that I have come to know this concert 3 months before hand, and I did plan to buy a GOLD ticket. [Yeah, that's how much I want to see him perform!] Well, I got over it actually. But then I can't help myself say 'Saaaayaaaang' and then imagine his abs! Hahaha! I also get to see his playlist for the concert, and most of my beloved Usher break-up songs aren't on the list. Oh well. I was in MOA around 9pm [To print my assingments.] and I was really really tempted to go to the concert grounds just to "hear" him perform, but just as I was walking, i turned around and decided not to. It would really break my heart [Even more.] by being there and not actually "being there". Big diferrence. Anyway, I'm just hoping that he'll be back here in Manila.. He will be back.. Please come back? [And take your shirt off if you do! Hahaha! Ü] And I swear I'll be there.. WHATEVER IT TAKES! Ü

So, there. My July 9th was just spent daydreaming about Usher's washboard abs. Ü

"I'm your girl. And you're my man. Promise to love you the best I can. ♥"

3 days to go.. ♥

5th - "Photography Is Not An Easy Task. :("

Boring day at the office. Hapontukin. Zzzzz..

I just watched the second half of the first season of Glee. Oo na, ngayon lang. Loser, I know. But anyway, at least I get to watch it continuously. And I really enjoyed it. The episodes always have a good ending. Touching. ^___^

Anyway..

Its been 3 days since I started doing my last assignment for my Photog Class and haven't got enough sleep. [And I have pimples as a proof of that!] Luckily I have a very very VERY dependable friend to help me out [Kahit may migraine. Thanks Cuz! ♥] and very very VERY patient models [Thank You Kuya Jet and Virma! ♥] that's why I'm able to do it "almost" succesfully. Ü I'm having fun taking photos for my assignments but I'm lazy to have my effort go all the way. I mean, when there's a need to change lenses to have better perspective of the photo, I would rather move around and use my "foot zoom" than to change lenses. Its silly kasi lumalabas ang pagkatamad ko, partida gusto ko na yung ginagawa ko. Hahaha! But anyway, I'm hoping to be "masipag" at it, in time. Ü For now, learning the basics and putting it into practice is what matters to me most. Naks! Ü

Tired. Sleepy. Exhausted. But loving every minute of it. ♥

Haven't got anything else to say. Till here.

4 days to go.. ♥

6th - "End Of The Line."

I am sleepy. Since I got here at the office, can't help but think of my bed and cuddle up in my pillows. Yes, I am THAT sleepy.

IT'S RAINING! I guess that's a sign that MY birthday is coming up. Well, I do hope it won't rain that hard on my birthday. [Not that I have any plans though.] Shucks! 5 more days and I'll be 23 already. :s

Randome Song Syndrome - "End of the Line" by Honeyz. I don't know when it began but I keep on singing it and humming the parts that I can't remember. I googled the lyrics and.. POOF! Isa na lang nasabi ko.. "SAKTO!" Ü

Kwento ko pa ba? Wag na! Hahaha! Ü Basta, kung pwede lang mag-associate ng isang kanta sa bawat pangyayari sa buhay, ito na yun malamang para sa episode ng buhay ko "lately". Hahaha! Joooke! Hindi ako emo. Basta. Ü

I can't find anything else to say so I'll just have to cut this short. Napansin ko lang kasi na kapag gabi dun gumaganda araw ko eh. yung tipong wala na ko sa office. Hahaha! Ü Basta, dito nalang muna.

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All alone I wait for you, as darkness fills this room; I don't know why you ain't called. Little things you used to do, they're no longer part of you; seems you left them all behind. Well I can't believe what I'm going through, this thing it just ain't right. Your selfish ways, how you carry on; some things you just can't hide.

If you want me to go, then say it. If you want me to stay, then show it. Don't be afraid to break this heart of mine. Now's the time, if I'm right, then we've come to the end of the line.

Seems like I can't do you right; all I do or say is wrong. All the smallest thing criticized. I deserve some damn respect; nothing more and nothing less. Don't pretend everything's fine. Don't hold it back if it's in your heart; stand up and be a man. Can't read your mind, so just say it aloud. I'm trying to understand.

If you want me to go, then say it. If you want me to stay, then show it. Don't be afraid to break this heart of mine. Now's the time, if I'm right, then we've come to the end of the line.

Even though you've been doing me wrong I still care. Do you think that by treating me cruel that somehow I'll disappear? I love you too much just to walk away. Don't make me hate you; you've got to be straight.

If you want me to go, then say it. If you want me to stay, then show it. Don't be afraid to break this heart of mine. Now's the time, if I'm right, then we've come to the end of the line.

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5 days to go.. ♥

7th - "Ignoring Method - A Way To Move On?"

IGNORING METHOD - Or often called SILENT TREATMENT [an aloof refusal to speak to someone you know]

What Are You Saying By Not Saying Anything At All

Probably at one time or another you have been either on the giving or receiving end of a silent treatment, otherwise known as the cold shoulder. What you probably didn’t realize is that the silent treatment is a form of ostracism. When someone is ostracized it affects the part of their brain called the anterior cingulate cortex. Do you know what the anterior cingulate cortex does?

The anterior cingulate cortex is the part of the brain that detects pain. When you give someone the silent treatment you are causing that person physical pain. Simply by ignoring someone else’s existence you can inflict pain on them. This is what the ever popular “time out” with a child is so effective. The child feels ostracized, therefore is feeling pain even though no physical pain was inflicted on them, and therefor they want to behave so they don’t have to feel that way again.

The silent treatment can be a very destructive behavior when it involves personal relationships. Let’s say with a husband and wife for instance. The silent treatment breeds bitterness on both ends and it borders on emotional abuse… I’m not making that up to be dramatic. That’s what “they” say.

Cooling Off And Ostracizing Are Two Very Different Things

Let’s not confuse the silent treatment with something known as “the cooling off period”. The cooling off period is where one person is so angry or disgusted by the other person that they just cannot deal with the situation in that state need time to calm down before they begin to speak to this person. That’s fine and actually that’s probably better than sitting and screaming at each other.

There is a big difference between taking some time to cool down and outright ignoring the existence of the other person. The silent treatment would be more along the lines of you doing something that pisses someone off, they clue you in on it (or not), and then they don’t speak to you, acknowledge you or even make eye contact with you for sometimes days. No good.

To me, this is a form of torture. Nothing positive comes from this type of behavior. What makes more sense…blowing up about something, cooling off a little and then talking about how to resolve it OR not blowing up about something, staying completely pissed and not doing anything to help resolve the situation? If you said the latter… you’re a dick.

When someone is administering the silent treatment they are trying to show that they are dominant over you. The silent treatment (when it becomes a mutual one) is a power struggle in pain tolerance…whomever the winner is, cares less.

When You Are On The Receiving End Of The Silent Treatment

It’s interesting to me that research has shown that woman and men respond to the silent treatment very differently. Woman who are on the receiving end of the silent treatment seem to try anything in their power to win back their good grace with the ostracize where men…don’t. They just deal with it.

But what exactly are the men just dealing with and the woman trying to avoid? The emotional pain associated with being ostracized. Those who have been treated to the silent treatment have reported as sense of loss, of not belonging, of lower self-esteem and a feeling of unworthiness. All of these feelings are the result of someone just not acknowledging them or ignoring them. I find that pretty interesting.


Source: http://www.kensavage.com/archives/silent-treatment/


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Just WOW. I'm so much enlightened with what I've read. [And guilty as well. Ü]

I partly agree with what the article said, about the "cold shoulder" inflicting pain to another person. Yeah! It kind of hit me right here. [Sa dibdib. Haha! Ü] I didn't know how serious this is until after reading it. Well, all I can say is.. "NEED I SAY MORE?" Hahaha! Ü Yun na lahat yun eh, may maidadagdag pa ba ko?

Waaiitt! Just a thought.. Ignoring a person is different from ignoring a feeling, right? What if that person is the one who 'triggers' the feeling that you would like to 'ignore'? Will you also ignore him/her? I don't know. I guess every situation calls for different measures.

I admit, I have been doing this "Silent Treatment" for a long time now. Actually, it became my 'defense mechanism' whenever I am mad/pissed/annoyed with someone/something. I just don't want to talk to the person right then and there because I might say something that I'll regret. And also, I try to be calm and maintain composure [Which I am not successful at times.] when 'conflict' arises. I just don't like the thought of confrontations when both sides are 'hot-headed' and not thinking straight. I just wait till the feeling shrug off, then, medyo ok na ulit ako. "Ako na yung lumalayo sa gulo para wala nang gulo." And I don't think there's anything wrong with that.. Until now.

I realized that it's a lot harder when you the 'receiving end' of this "treatment". You don't know what's going on, but you sure know that something's wrong. You just have to go along with what's happening, after all, there's nothing you can do to fix it. It just feels sad to be ignored [Although I am ignoring a lot of people right now. Sorry!] and I think that this article is an eye-opener for me.

Madami pa sana ako gusto sabihin kaya lang hindi ko na maisip kung paano isusulat eh. Napa-Tagalog na nga ako sa kakaisip eh. Haha! Ü Anyway, these are just my opinions, and you don't have to agree with it. {Pero if you agree, ayos! Ü]

So I have to cut this short already, I haven't finished reading the notes for my assignment later. Till here. :)

PS: Kaya ikaw, alam na alam ko yang ginagawa mo.. Dahil ginagawa ko rin yan.. But don't worry, you need not justify it. People just vary on ways on coping up, or in this case, moving on. One thing though, I just thought you'd be different.. That's all..

PPS: Comment ka Aica ah? :)

6 days to go.. ♥

8th - "I HATE YOU!"

10 Things I Hate About You.

I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair.

I hate the way you drive my car.

I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind.

I hate you so much it makes me sick, it even makes me rhyme.

I hate the way you're always right.

I hate it when you lie.

I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call.

But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you, not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

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I hate the feeling that I cannot truly hate the person who I must hate. Huh? Basta! Yung tipong naiinis ka, pero hindi sa tao mismo kung di dun sa ginawa nya sayo. Pero hindi mo rin maiiwasan na hindi mainis sa tao mismo dahil sya yung gumawa nun? Or sensitive lang ako? Ewan ko. Baka nga inaatake nanaman ako ng "Grinch" mode ko kasi malapit na birthday ko. Labo! Anyway, so ayun na nga. Hate. Hate. Hate. Oo alam kong masama ang mag-hate, dapat "dislike" para subtle lang. Pero hindi eh. Hate talaga dapat. At feeling ko wala nang point tong sinasabi ko.

Minsan, sa sobrang ayaw kong nagagalit sa ibang tao, tumatahimik nalang ako. Magpapasensiya. Iintindi. Ok lang na ako nalang yung umintindi kesa sa magkaron pa ng "serious talk" at makasakit pa ko ng tao diba? Pero tao lang din naman ako, minsan napupuno din. At naiinis din. Pero hidi sa tao mismo, kung di dun sa nangyayari. Ako rin ang nahihirapan kahit ako yung dapat mainis eh. Haaaay! Labo. Hirap maging mapagbigay minsan. :( Pero hindi naman masamang bagay to eh. Nag-ra-rant lang ako para may ma-blog ako. Haha! Joooke! Ü Gagawa din ako ng version ko nitong "10 things" pero I'll not limit myself to just 10, kaya ko kaya hanggang 100? Hahahaha! BITTER! Ü

All I'm saying is, I'm not used to "truly" hating a person. There might be times that I'll utter those words, but don't really mean it. And if I can just ask, how can you hate the person who ALWAYS know how to make you smile? See? Now you're smiling! ^___^

7 days to go.. ♥

9th - "Migraine. Mind Drain."

Still not done with Migraine. Still not done with the "petty fight" as well. :(

This will be one quiet yet relaxing Sunday. Almost! Of course my dad is there to ruin the silence around the house. Aaaarrrgh! My head still hurts!

I woke up, ate, took a bath and went to church near our house so that I can easily get home after the service. Since I can't do anything that will involve moving around, I decided to watch Gossip Girl instead. I ahven't had the chance to watch the other half of Season 3 that's why the timing is perfect.

Actually, Serena, Blair, Chuck, Nate, Jenny, Dan and Vanessa help me take my mind out of the things that I've been worrying lately. [ As in last night "lately".] I love watching them get caught up in their own serious problems, but what's different is that they always know they can get away with it, or that it will always be fine. I wish it could be the same with me. [Upper East Sider?] Anyway, wishful thinking lang naman yun. Ü HIndi masama mangarap! Taaaamaaaah!

Nothing else to say. Quite a boring day for me. But I like it. Till here.

My head still hurts, but I won't stop watching! Haha! Ü

8 days to go.. ♥

10th - "Good Morning.. Not So Good Night.."

Good Morning.
Woke up at 7AM with a severe hangover/headache from last night's "Badtrip Mania" @ Central, then decided to ditch my Photog Class and stay in bed until my headache subsides. I was planning to attend the afternoon session, but then I received a call; "Gusto mo manuod ng Toy Story 3?" "Ngayon na? Sakit pa ng ulo ko eh." "Eh di sige maya maya. Ay! Good Morning nga pala." No more second thoughts.. "ABSENT NA KO!" To my excitement, I quickly got up, and then I felt dizzy again. After a while, I got up again, more stable this time, then prepared my stuff and ate breakfast. "Puyat ka nanaman noh?", asked my mom. "Uhhhmm. Di naman." "Alis ako Ma ha?" "Saan ka pupunta? Sige." I was surprised by my mom's answer. "Good Mood" yata sya. Oh yes! What a great Saturday morning! Ü

Toy Story 3 in 3D Disney Digital.
I really enjoyed the movie; though I didn't like the 3D glasses. [Greenbelt Cinema.] Nothing compared to iMAX! [Haha! Yabang!] Anyway, I really really liked the movie.

Lesson #1: Letting go of something valuable to you.
Letting go doesn't mean that you want to forget it. Its just that sometimes we have to move forward, and by doing that we have to let go of the things which we cannot bring along with us. But because it is important to us, we entrust this to someone who we know will take care of them better than we can. [Oha! Naisip ko pa yun? Bwahaha!]

Lesson #2: Some "Kens" are "Barbies" also.
Hahaha! Natawa lang ako sa movie how they portrayed Ken. Lalaki nga pero sa super pagiging metro-sexual, nagiging bading na. Pero sila lang ni Barbie ang nagkakaintindihan na ang top priority nila ay "fashion". Basta watch it nalang! Baka marami maka-relate! Haha! Ü

Lesson #3: Things are not always what they seem.
Perfectly done by Lotso. [The Pink Bear that smells like Strawberries] Well, reality check. Not all who smiles at you likes you. Not all hugs says that you are welcomed. And not all who befriends you are true to you. [Pessimistic? Nah!] Narelate ko lang naman. Ü Watch it nalang kasi. I don't want to spoil the good parts of the movie.

Not So Good Night.
It all started after the movie. I felt dizzy again, this time its worse. Migraine attack I suppose. I got cranky and I was ranting to go home. I took some meds but I guess it didin't work. Had a little "petty fight" with myself involving someone, and that's when I told myself "I've just had it!". I didn't bother telling the person what the problem is, hoping that the feeling will eventually rip off. [After I get some nice sleep I guess.] An hour later, I woke up, still feeling SO dizzy; that's when I decided not to go to the Preview Party @ Republiq. [SAYAAAAANG!] I felt really bad bacuse I already have something to wear, Virma and Jeff we're already waiting for me, and I bailed on Abhie's event AGAIN. :( But I can't really do anything in my condition, not even fix my hair.

So why am I still blogging? Just wanted to update, that's all.

9 days to go.. ♥

11th - "Girls Just Wanna Have Fun."

THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY! Ü

Just a plain "petiks" Friday at the office. Calm. Quiet. Laid back. Perfect! [Or am I just excited? Ü ]

Once again, a "suppose-to-be-ALL-GIRLS-night out" became "LETS-GO-OUT" Friday night chill at Central Adriatico. Being with them [HS Friends] [for the 3rd time this week, I think?] just feels... LIGHT! I mean, nothing to worry about. We don't get to talk about work [except for Abhie because her work is sooo much fun!Ü] or other matters that can ruin the good vibes. As long as I have them, I know I'll be ok. ♥ [Naks! Kung nababasa nyo to, kapal ng mukha nyong lahat! Hahaha!] Even if we get to this EVERY WEEK, I won't get tired of it! [I'll just have to move my Saturday Class to Sunday. Haha!]

Finally, I get to tell my "friend" that I'm totally annoyed at her [Yes, its a SHE!] and her insensitivity towards other people. Well, I may not be a good judge of character, but I really have to tell her what I feel so that "backstab talks" against her would be lessened. As much as I like talking, I really hate the feeling of talking about other people behind their backs. I would rather tell them in their faces, even if they hate after, than talk and talk when they're not around. I've been burdened by this feeling for a long time now, and it feels good having to tell her the truth. I was expecting that she would ask questions about it, and may even cry. Luckily she didn't. She just listened, and I guess she kind of get it already. And I think all is well between us. At least for now. Haha! Ü

All I know is that whatever happens, one thing is for sure.. GIRLS JUST ALWAYS WANT TO HAVE FUN! ♥

So that's just it for today.

10 Days to go.. ♥

12th - "Make Use Of Your Benefits."

Helloooooo JULY! Oh Yes! It is my birth month already. Ü It kind of makes me excited because:

1.) I have lots of friends whose birthday falls on this month, therefore, its also PARTY MONTH! Hahaha. [Lahat nalang may title?] Birthday bashes.. KEEP IT COMING! Ü

2.) Feelin ko ang special special ko pag July, kahit ako mismo yung nagpapaspecial ng sarili ko. Haha! Basta, parang month-long lagi ang celebration ko ng birthday. I don't know lang this year kung ganun pa rin. [Dami kasing set of friends.]

3.) Even though its annoying at times, I kind of enjoy the rainy season. Dapat lang laging kang handa. [Payong? Check. Traffic? Dislike.]

4.) After this month, it will be August.. Then September.. Then October.. I don't know pero parang mas bumibilis yung paglipas ng araw? before you know it, we're celebrating Christmas already! Haha! Ü

So how did I spend the first day of my favorite month? SICK LEAVE. Haha! Ü Actually, I called in sick the night before and I have a very good reason for doing so.

I was scheduled to enroll for my passport on September 17, 2010. Luckily, my mom found an open slot and it was moved to June 30th. But it was declared as a special non-working holiday, so it was moved again to this day. I arrived at the DFA office around 10am [I was planning to be there at 7AM, but I didn't wake up early.] I thought having an appointment online would mean that your application would be processed faster and ahead of time hence you will not fall in line. But I was wrong. THE LINE WAS LONG. As in freaking LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG! And because I am practicing to be patient [Haha!] I decided to fall in line. It like I'm in Araneta Coliseum falling in line to buy a ticket to the UAAP Cheering Competition [Being the Thomasian that I am, It is a big deal to watch it at the Big Dome.] Then suddenly, I remember an officemate telling me that there is a "Courtesy Lane" for government employees who will be processing their passport. So after 30 mins. [Of falling in line OUTSIDE the DFA office.] I decided to ask the guard. "Sir, may courtesy lane po ba for government employees?" "Meron, bakit? Government employee ka ba?" [Nagtataray ang jaguar!] "Oo, ito po ID ko." [Z snap!] "Ay ma'am, bat ka pa pumila jan. Dito po yung Courtesy Lane.." At hinatid nya ko sa building na may magandang pinto, malamig, at may escalator pa! Ü So umakyat ako, and followed all the booths that read "Courtesy Lane." And after 45 mins.. CHEDENG! Tapos na! Ang laki ng ngiti ko nung natapos ko na sya, kala ko kasi aabutan ako ng lunch break eh. I have the rest of the day to myself. Basta! At last, I HAVE A FREAKING PASSPORT! SG, Here we come! Ü

The whole afternoon is dedicated to mere bumming! Ü Watched Pretty Little Liars [Which is pretty good and intriguing.] Then around 6pm, I started preparing for my "Eclipse Date" with my sister at Gateway. Sobrang hassle kasi I thought 7pm yung start ng movie, and I'm wondering bakit hindi pa sya tumatawag eh wala pa ko dun. So when I arrived there, nakita ko ang haba ng pila [What is it with this day? Puro pila!] and then I texted her. She told me na 8:30pm pa pala yung movie. Tsk! Kainis lang. Pero ok lang, di naman ako na-bore maghintay sa kanya eh. Iniisip ko nalang treat naman nya to. Ü I haven't had dinner yet, buti nalang may free meal yung movie tickets namin. TACO BELL BABY! Ü Super panalo! Ang sarap ng Quesidillas! Ü Oh, the benefits of being the "youngest" sister! Hehehe.

What I really enjoy when I watch movies with Ate Kat is that pareho kaming "jumpy". I mean, yung masaydong magugulatin sa mga sounds, violence, etc. SO start pa lang ng movie napaindak na kami kay Riley! Haha! Basta! And of course we enjoyed mocking Bella; "Mapusok 'tong si Bella!" "Mga kabataan talaga ngayon!" "GANDA MO BELLA AH!". The movie was okay, I'm not a Twilight die hard fan, I just like to watch it. I haven't read the book.. YET! That's why I don't have something to compare it to. I just adore how Edward proposed to Bella. He's just to freaking sweet for a vampire! ♥

After the movie, they took me home.

And that was how I spent the first day of my favorite month. ♥

Ate Kat's line for the night: "Ayaaaaan naaaa! Ayaaaan naaaa yung mga BUMPFIRE!!" Hahaha. Ü

11 Days to go.. ♥