Flatline.

I know I said I'd be more active in my blog, but forgive me if I haven't. I just feel like my usual blahs are not blog-worthy, and that kaepalan lang kung i-blog ko pa. (Pwede naman na i-kain o i-tulog ko na lang, diba?)

Lately, I'm bored. (Yug totoo, matagal na akong bored. Haha!) Everything's sooo routinary. (And I am being my 2012 self again.. Ranting about my life being routinary.) Walang bago. Paulit-ulit na 'yung ginagawa mo every. single. day. Minsan ok lang, madalas itinatawid mo na lang. Kibit balikat nalang. And again I found myself thinking, hindi pa ba ko tapos sa quarter-life crisis ko?  

Flatline. Flatline. Flatline. Ano ba kasi 'yung flatline?  At bakit biglang pumasok sa isip ko 'yun?

Webster defines flatline as to be in a state of no progress or advancement. I, on the other hand, describe it as the "boring" phase of my life.

At 27, I feel like "progress" has been off my vocabulary for quiet some time now; I've become too complacent, and yes, lazy. Even if I wanted to do something (else) or try out new things, I can't. I have no means, resources, and I don't have the confidence. (Kaya nga nandito parin ako sa trabaho ko ngayon eh. Haha!) No one to blame, except for myself.

But, is it really not a good thing to be in this "flatlilne"? 

Some may fear the thought of a flatline, but I tend to see it in a different perspective. Most of the time, when the going gets tough, we should know when to stop, be still, and just let go. When we are faced with everyday struggles, we stress ourselves too much because even if in control, things still don't turn out to be in our favor. Going through a flatline can sometimes be a blessing for us, it is when we give up control of a situation and let God do His work. Cliche', but true.

Yes, I do get bored easily. Yes, I am itching for new and exciting things to come my way. Yes, I want change. But for now I have to be still, and let God decide what to give me on my plate. I lack patience and giving up FULL control has been a challenge for me, but if that's what it takes to get me out of this flatline, then so be it. May I say the things I do, and do the things I say.

  “You are what you do, not what you say you'll do.” - C.G. Jung

HELLOOOO DOWN THEEEEERE!

AT LAST! I ONCE AGAIN HAVE ACCESS TO MY EVER BELOVED BLOG. I lost my password, and because I have all the time in the world today, I managed to retrieve it.. HOORAY!

Oh wow! This is soooooo outdated. Last post was almost a year ago, and it's just a photoblog. Boo! How I wish I could write  again.. soon! (Para naman makapagpost na ulit ako ng mga sobrang habaaaaaang posts na puro typo at magamit ko na ulit yung "stuffs". Haha! Sakit sa mata! Che!)

But seriuosly, yeah, I kinda miss blogging, even if no one will read my post. I find it very uhm.. relaxing? And I can be as conyo as I want to be like this oh? Haha! (WHUUUT!)

I wish I could write again soon.. It's been a while.. and so much has happened. Am I ready to tell it all? We'll find out.

'Till here.

Scream. Shout. Let it all out.

"I wanna scream.. and shout.. and let it all out. Scream.. and shout.. and let it all out. We saying, oh wee oh wee oh wee oh wee oh. We saying, oh wee oh wee oh wee oh wee oh"

Now if you don't know what that was... it's Britney B*tch! :) (Scream and Shout - Will.I.am ft. Britney Spears)

It's been exactly 4 months since my last post.. what happened? A lot. Christmas holiday, new year's eve, new work assignment, new semester (9 units. Booyah!), new family members and a new found faith.

But after 2 hours of typing all about "what has", I decided to CTRL+A+DEL it. Haha! I'd write about "what is" instead. :)

What is #1)

After a month after my sister's (Lesley Anne) wedding.. a little bean's growing inside her tummy. Yup, she's pregnant! And I can't contain how happy I am because (1) our family's getting bigger; (2) excited to see how she will "manage" this 9-month journey of hers (because I enjoyed every single moment when my other sister (Kathryn) was going through it); and (3) babies are awesome! :) I'm gonna look forward and be excited for this all year long! :)

What is #2)

SUMMER BREAK! Booyah! After 5 months of deadlines, deadlier lines, and deadliest lines of project proposals, insight papers and cases/homeworks... it's finally over! SCHOOL'S OUT! (More blogging time for me. New layout, perhaps?) BUT...

What is #3)

Though school is over, I'm not that quite free yet. Earlier in the year, Bits and I accepted the calling to become this year's Director for the KIDS CAMP. (Aside from us being involved in the YOUTH CAMP as well.) As overwhelming as it may sound, I don't mind all the "work" that entails this responsibility, simply because I know that everything will pay-off in the end. Just thinking how blessed those kids are to have this opportunity is enough for me to keep on "working" and giving my "all" for this camp. :) (Yes, I am a Martha by default. Haha!) So, to my summer getaways... you'll just have to wait for me 'till all of these is over.

What is #4)

New work assignment, new challenges, higher stress level.. this is my work life. Which I am about to give up.. eventually. Workload is fine, but there's no growth to where I am now. And thinking about it, five years from now, would I want to be stuck in this place doing the same things? NO! What I want is a work environment which fosters growth and learning, and I can find it if I leave this place. 3 of my very close co-leagues have already left to look for their "greener pastures", which made me think.. "What is my 'greener pasture'?" As early as now I am trying to look for job which can satisfy that "need" for career growth, as what my mentor told me "You're not getting any younger, so get out of here while you still can.". Yes Ma'am, noted.

What is #5)

TRYING to become a better person by simply having a time with God everyday. Yes, I maybe old, but my "faith" is "young". And even if I think I know a lot of things already, still God reveals something new everyday. Words can't really express what I am experiencing now, all I know is that everyday God is with me, and everyday I'm learning.

So yeah, that's it. Updates in a nutshell. I chose not to rant (yet) about all that's happening.. So i guess I'll just have to scream..shout..and let it all out.

Bye for now.

#25ThingsImThankfulFor

This is just a consolidated post from my Twitter.. (Because sometimes you cannot compress your thoughts into just 140 characters.) 

25. NO ACCOUNTING CLASSES! - This was the first good news I received today! Reporter ako dapat for my Accounting class later and I'm not that prepared, so when I got the text from my Prof.. Hindi ko mapigilan yung ngiti ko. (Kung pwede mag-jumpshot ginawa ko na!) It's one thing to go to school (After work) on your birthday, pero yung ako pa yung magrereport? Naaaaamaaaan! Kaya buti nalang talaga di natuloy! Weeeee! GOOD VIBES!

24. MY JOB. - (Even though my entire core hates it.) My job pays for my bills, my "wants" and when I have extra, I get to treat my family and buy something for Ysabella. Its also where I get my tithe from. So simply put.. JOB = FINANCIAL BLESSINGS = THANKFUL!

23. RUNNING and BOXING. - Two of my favorite stress-busters. I started running March 2011 because I want to strengthen my knees and my lungs. Boxing was my "delayed" planned since college, so when I got the chance to visit Elorde Taft, I immediately signed-up. Though lately I'm not doing trainings because of other stuff. (Hope to get back soon...est!)

22. APPLE GADGETS. - iPod, iTouch, iPhone, iPad, MacBook Pro..etc. They're simply the coolest thing there is! From the design, technology, interface, and of course the apps on the AppStore... AWESOME!

21. THE BEAUTIFUL BEACHES OF OUR COUNTRY. - I love going to the beach.. They're very calm and relaxing. And little did we know that there's a lot of beautiful beaches here in our country.. And I wish to go to all of them someday.. *wishful thinking*

20. USHER, JORDAN KNIGHT, MAROON 5, JOHN MAYER. - For writing songs that speaks my heart.. CHAROT! I love love LOVE their songs!  

19. BBM. (BlackBerry Messenger) - Friendship knows no distance.. Whaddup BBM friends! Ang dali mag-chikahan gamit ang BBM.. From Pasay to Makati to Quezon City to Mindanao to India to Dubai.. Kala mo magkakalapit bahay lang kung mag-tsismisan! Hahaha! =) 

18. INSANITY and SHAUN T. - For pushing me to "dig deeper". Yan ang paulit-ulit na sinasabi ni Shaun T every workout. It may be insane...but it's all good. You'll thank him for your hardcore abs someday.

17. WONKA CANDIES. - Nerds, Gobstoppers, Runts, Pixy Stix, SweeTarts, Bottle Caps, etc... THEY ARE THE SWEETEST! Need I say more? 

16. MY BABY BOYS. - Josh Acosta, Batch Santero, Bagz Santero, James Umbal, Frank Lee, and of course.. JAMEEL ESCOBER. The sweetest boys I know. I love being an "Ate" to them.. Yan ang mga binabantayan ko, mahirap na.. They "might" break the hearts of SO many girls. Hahaha! =))

15. EX-BFs, FLINGS, CHORVAHS, ALMOSTS. (Whatever you want to call it.) - You've made me stronger by breaking my heart.. Yun na! HAHAHAHA! =))

14. RANDOM FRIENDS, NEW FOUND FRIENDS. - I am learning so much from you and your behavior.. (Not a bad thing.) at least I know hindi pa ako ganun ka-loner, I can still mingle with my fellow humanoids.

13. GODDAUGHTERS AND GODSONS. - And their parents as well, for trusting that I can guide their child/children in the right way. I swear, I'll do everything I can to put up with that responsibility. Thank you for the opportunity.. Pwede na yata ako maging ULIRANG NINANG AWARD sa dami ng inaanak ko.. SWEAR! Lagpas 20 na! But no worries.. I love them all!

12. THE MARIANO CLAN. -From our Grandparents to our Uncles & Aunties, down to the "apo sa tuhod".. I'm thankful for all of them. Even though we only see each other on special occasions, we still have that "close family ties". And the genes.. MY GOODNESS! Look at the family.. Ubod ng ganda't gwapo! =) LOVE YOUR OWN!

11. YOUTH CAMP 2005. - Even if its 7 years ago, I will be forever thankful for this Youth Camp because it paved the way for me to really know, accept, and declare that God is the ruler of my life. *tears* To all the Ates and Kuyas back then, who inspires the Ates and Kuyas now to guide and nurture the youth of our church; To all the lessons instilled in our hearts up until now (Hopefully); To the friendships we've formed; To Dalo, who still remained to be a close friend of mine.. amidst all that has happened; To my first ever LOVE BANQUET with my Ate Kat (That I swear halos ikamatay ko kakaiyak at di na ko makahinga.) and; To my new found sister (back-then) Ate Jojie, who shares the same sentiments regarding "daddy issues" (Na bonggang-bongga naming iniyakan din nung panahon na yun.) I can still vividly (Oo! Vividly!) remember every memory I've had in those 5-days. Basta.. I am thankful for that specific event in my life! I won't forget it...ever!

---------- SHUCKS! BREAK MUNA! NAIYAK AKO NG BONGGA! Emotional ang peg ngayong? :p ----------

10. CCS. (Commerce Cheering Squad) and Coach Ajjie Mendelebar. - All that I've learned in dancing/cheering - dance techniques, skills, hard work, teamwork, determination - you we're with me. For sharing that same passion for dancing for the Commerce Community and for the friendship that just doesn't end "on the floor" when we bring it.. From the bottom of my heart, I thank you.. I thank God for all of you. Meeting you and being on a team with you was no accident. Iba-ibang ugali, pero lahat nag-click. I'll always be a proud member of the COMMERCE CHEERING SQUAD! Thank you for making my stay in UST more meaningful and memorable!

9. EMC DANCE MINISTRY. - For having the same desire to worship, praise, honor, serve and glorify God thru our body movements, talents, skills.. thru our dance. Thank you. May we continue on with this ministry for as long as our bodies can. One heart. One dance. One GOD. EMC DANCE!

8. YCC. (Youth Coordinating Council) - The opportunity to be of service to God and to the Youth, the responsibility we have to attend to, the initiative that we have to instill in our hearts and minds to plan activities, the team that God designed to do His works.. All of these.. PRICELESS! 3-time Treasurer.. Booyah!

7. MIDWEEK FELLOWSHIP / PRAYER MEETING GROUP. - Our usual Sundays are not enough, hence, we have to have another day set aside to have our "weekly dose" of God's wisdom and teachings and to have time to pray together and be in fellowship with one another. Bonus nalang na you get to do it with your closest friends. Sana magtuloy-tuloy pa 'to.. Bits, Chasha, Jai, Jas.. *fist bump* (With the guidance of Pas Caloy and Tita Necy) (And we hope makasama pa namin ng mas madalas yung iba..)

6. BEST FRIEND-TURNED-LOVER-TURNED-SWORN ENEMY-TURNED-BEST FRIEND... - Ikaw talaga! You can be all of these at once, you know that? Haha! But seriously, 18 years of friendship?  (And counting) That's something to be really thankful for. Thank you because you "switch gears" whenever you need to.. And I know I'm a bit crazy (Especially when PMSing or birthday's coming..) but you manage to "manage" me.. Gets? All other things I wish to tell you, I'll tell it in person nalang.. (This post is about me, not about you! Chot!)

5. GRANDPARENTS. - Mr. Guillermo Mariano and Mrs. Elisa Atienza-Mariano. Ang ugat ng magandang lahi ng mga Mariano. Even though we only have one pair of grandparents, they're still the best! Hindi nagkulang! Naalagaan (Kahit paano) lahat ng apo, memorize lahat ng FULL NAMES ng mag-anak, laging "may inaabot" kahit na hindi na dapat, at laging humahalik kapag may pagkakataon. Mahal ko yan, mahal namin yan! At kahit na isang pares lang ipinagkaloob samin, sobra-sobra pa sa pagmamahal ng lolo't lola naibigay niyang mga yan saming lahat.. (Trivia: Si Grandpa ang first ever binigyan ko ng dugo dahil ako lang yata ang Type A+ sa pamilya nung time na kinailangan niya. I swear, kung pwedeng 2 bag ang punuuin ko para sa kanya, ginawa ko. Pero di ako ganun katatag, so 1 bag lang.. pero 450cc.)

4. YSABELLA SKY TABERNILLA-MARZAN. - (And to my future pamangkins as well.) For bringing joy to our hearts for the simplest things that you do. (Kahit ngumiti ka lang, I swear, bibigyan ka ng MacBook Pro ni Lolo Daddy mo! Haha!) I never knew being your Tita Ninang would be this fun! Kahit na maubusan ako ng pera, basta para sayo, ok lang! (Pero 'pag dumami na kayo, kailangan mo maintindihan na dapat pantay-pantay kayong lahat.. For now, let's concentrate on you.) Add to that, we have the same birthmonth, I get to have my mini-Grinch/Grinchette! I'll be a good Tita Ninang / Mama Lai to you.. promise! And thank you for sucking out all the bad vibes everytime I get to see you.

3. MY SISTERS KATHY and LESLEY. - The best of both worlds. My sworn enemies when I was still a child.. and now the best "little" sisters I have. (I used to call Ate Kat Ms. Minchin, dahil kung apihin ako parang si Sarah at Becky combined!) Feeling yata nila ako yung panganay at kung makapag-hiling ng "gifts", wagas. Haha! Don't get me wrong, I love giving them stuff, nakakatawa lang isipin minsan. Eh dati lagi nila ako inaaway at inaasar na panget, ampon, etc! Well.. Well.. Well.. LOOK AT ME NOW! (Busabos parin! Chot!) Ganito man ako, never ko na-feel na kailangan ko i-assert sa sarili ko at sa ibang tao na "kapatid nila ako", alam ko naman na talo-talo na talaga sa mukha. Mahal ko kayo, alam niyo na yun.. at alam ko rin na mahal niyo ko.. so no SLOPPY KISSES / WET KISSES on the cheeks necessary, K?

2. MY MOTHER LETICIA. - The bearer of the womb who created me and brought me into this world... (HA? ANG PANGET PAKINGGAN!) My mother, who is always there for us, who always make sure me/we have "baons", who is willing to help anytime, and who simply doesn't get tired of taking care of her "baby damulag"..me! (Trivia: I still sleep beside my mom. Yeah, ganun kami ka-sweet. Haha!)

1. 25 YEARS OF AN AWESOME ROLLER-COASTER RIDE CALLED "LIFE". -  25 blissful years.. What more could I ask for? Silver year baby! Thank you Lord, you are indeed the darling of heaven who gives life to us here on earth. I'd still be excited for the years to come. 

LET THE GOOD VIBES ROLL! Tapusin na ang curse ng
"The Birthday Grinch!"

First John Green Book.

One thing that I look into whenever I choose a book to read is the cover.. Yes, the cover; not the author, the synopsis, or how popular it is on Amazon. In fact, that is how I bought my very first fictional book, right in the "Young Adults" section of Powerbooks, where all the colorful, glittery book covers of Meg Cabot (Patricia Cabot) were placed, I grabed "All American Girl" because of its "cute" cover. (Lame. I know.) And from then on I started collecting her novels and series, and other books from Simon Pulse (Which also has cute cartoon covers..) and Sophie Kinsella. 

And so when I saw an Instagram post of this book, The Fault In Our Stars by John Green,  I instantly borrowed it from my friend. I don't know any novels of John Green, I didn't even know he's the author of this book, what caught my attention more is the comment of Jodi Picoult right above the book. Haha! So, when I got the book, I immediately started my reading.

I didn't put down the book until I've read the first five chapters of it. (I won't go into details on the story as I may be spoiling some of the parts to those who haven't read it yet or planning to read it too.) I was hooked up on the character of Hazel and her situation and wondered if people similar to her were really like that. Anyway, as I am at the middle of the book, a friend (Ate Grace) saw me holding it and she said.. "Ay? Maganda yan! Pero... Basta!" and I was like "Eeeeeehh.. Ano? Mamamatay noh? Hindi happy ending noh?" (SPOILER MUCH!) So upon hearing that, I read it as fast (I'm a busy person, and I do my "leisure" reading and "school" reading almost simultaneously..) as I can and when I reach the end of it.. I let out a sigh and felt my eyes watering.. BUT I managed to hold it back. (Kung nagkataon, unang beses ko iiyak sa pagbasa ng libro, paano na kung nagbasa ako ng Nicholas Sparks?) After finishing the book, I texted Ate Grace.. "Bittersweet ending.. Naiyak naman ako dito.." and she replied "I warned you.. :)". Yup, you did warn me. 

It was a good read. And one thing I've learned from this book is that life is unfair, and knowing that, we should be able to live it to the fullest (not recklessly of course), to live it like it was our last day, and to simply appreciate life as it is, however unfair it may seem. Also, I realized that if people like Hazel and Augustus can have a good life despite their condition, why on earth am I focusing on all the negative things that's surrounding me? :) I know I'm not a bearer of "happy jujus" and can spread it like the fairygodmothers spread pixie dust (HA? ANO? Anong pinagsasabi ko?) but it doesn't hurt to sometimes be happy and smile for no reason at all, right? 

I am no "book critic", but I recommend this book for anyone who has a time to read. :) It's so good, I think this is the first that I've ever written a blog post about a book. HAH! And I'd like to thank Ms. Paulina Piñon for lending me this book.. I really loved it dear.. Thank you. :) 

So 'till here..

Paradigm Shift.

Think of a Paradigm Shift as a change from one way of thinking to another. It's a revolution, a transformation, a sort of metamorphosis. It just does not happen, but rather it is driven by agents of change. [http://www.taketheleap.com/define.html]

A paradigm is our perception of reality, our view of the world. It is our interpretation of events based on previous teaching we have received. If our paradigm is based only on our input from the media of conventional newspapers, magazines, radio, television, Hollywood films, public education etc., may God help us, for we will only see things the way they, the elite and wealthy rulers of this world who control these sources of information, want us to see things! This is often the opposite of the Truth. A paradigm shift means to have a sudden change in perception, a sudden change in point of view, of how you see things. [http://deeptruths.com/paradigm_shift.html]

So what about "paradigm shift"? [WOW! Big word!] Lately I've been having a lot of realizations about my future. It's just a matter of two months before I turn 25 and yet I feel like I've been on the same "episodes" of my life.. Routinary. Cycle. Paulit-ulit? Unli? Something like that. [Quarter-life crisis? Di naman siguro.. But it can be. Haha!] I know this has been my "forever rant" -- to have CHANGE in my current life, any change for that matter; career/job, hobbies, school stuff, etc. Basta, anything that will change something, be it temporary or permanent, I'll jump into it. BUT of course, I need to weigh certain pros and cons before making a decision, and I need to consider a lot of factors that will affect my decision; time management, salary [Haha!], "financial damage", outcomes, sacrifices, etc.

Paradigm shift, as to my understanding, is a change not on the current situation but rather more on the change of perception on why certain things happen. Change of perception -- this has been a challenge for me for the past two years [Grabe, ang tagal!] -- that certain things happened and turned out to be NOT IN MY FAVOR. ANG SAKIT! Tagos sa buto! [*Angel Locsin tone* in the movie "Unofficially Yours." Bwahaha!] There were nights I kept wishing that it didn't / never happened, I even blamed myself why it happened, or why I let it happen.. But as time goes, I've come to accept that those things happened, IT JUST HAPPENED, and there's nothing more that I can do but just these three things -- ACCEPTANCE, FORGIVENESS, AND LIVE. True enough that it's easier said than done.. but that's the beauty of it.. "challenging" as it may seem, it is possible to overcome the bad with the good, rather than let yourself be consumed by evil. Change of perception. Paradigm shift. 

A friend once told me that "there can't be any change in your life unless you allow change. Parang ang dating nya eh "Walang magbabago kung wala kang babaguhin." Change is not a gust of wind [YEEEEEES! Guma-gust of wind pa! Ano nakain ko?] that will come your way and then.. poof! Changed person ka na! You also have to have effort to bring about change in your life, if your open to it, then you'll be positive on what change can bring you. Certain sacrifices must be made, it the outcomes will be for the better, why not do it, right? As hard as it is to let go of the things na nakasanayan na natin, we need to do it so that change can occur.Set your priorities well. Allow change. Paradigm shift.

Lastly, dahil sa gustong-gusto ko ng "changes" sa buhay ko, I take charge of  how to run my life. I have MY plans set already and then that's just the time that I'll turn to God to bless and guide me as I execute MY plan. I 've had my fair share of having control in my life, but it turns out I'm not so good at it.; I keep stumbling, mistake after mistake. And that's when it hit me.. I NEED TO BACK DOWN AND SURRENDER. So I guess now is the time to stop putting puzzle pieces that don't fit on the blank spaces. Let go. Let God. Paradigm shift.

So, this ends here. Au revoir! ^_____^

I'm still.. and will always be excited on God's awesome plan for me. BRING IT! :)

Yes, She Doesn't Mind.

New URL. And yes, SHE DOESN'T MIND! She. Doesn't Freaking. Mind. Ü

I first thought of 'shedoesntmind' for my new URL, but since its so common and any other girl can think of it to be their blog's URL, it wasn't available for use. And so I used my beloved first name and came up with 'melissadoesntmind'.

Why I don't mind?

First of all, I am a bit of a worry-wart. An OC planner. A workaholic mulit-tasker. [Yep, I'm that busy bee.] And I am very VERY tired already. With all the things I've been doing lately, I think I lost track of what's really important, my priorities are lost. I keep on looking at the future, but the sad truth is, my present is a mess. A really big mess. So during one of my devotions, I came across with these quote:

"In principle, we want God's wisdom. In practice, we follow our own."

It made me think for a while, and realized that it was right. That I always tend to ask for God's wisdom and knowledge when I need it, especially when making a decision, but in the end, I follow my own discernment, and trust that God will make it work in my favor. Gaaaaah! Control freak. Kainis!

But now, I have a new mantra. I won't mind. It doesn't mean that I won't care, its just that I wouldn't stress myself with the things around me to go my way. Or I would take it nicely and whole-heartedly if my desires wouldn't be given to me. [YET!] And I will try to live one day at a time. Ü I won't mind if my boss continues to reprimand me whenever/wherever she wants. I won't mind if my professors gave a lot of "last-minute" papers due next week. I won't mind if some of my friends may seem distant at times. I won't mind if people continue to lie, cheat, steal, etc.

But I will mind my judgments towards other people; my choice of words and my tone of voice when I talk to other people; my my heart to find forgiveness to others, and to myself as well.

That's all. Couldn't think of a better conclusion for this entry. I hope you don't mind. Gaaah! Get it? Ü

Nalipasan.

Dalawang araw na lang at tapos na ang pinaka-masaya at pinaka-paborito kong buwan (Asa!) ng taon.. GOODBYE FEBRUARY! ('Wag ka na muna babalik ah! Epal! Hahaha!)

Halos buong buwan ako hindi nakapagsulat dito. At hindi dahil sa wala akong masabi o kung ano man, hindi ko lang ano uunahin ko sa dami ng mga nangyari. Yung iba nga ako mismo nakalimutan ko yung mga detalye, pero yung pakiramdam.. damang-dama ko parin! Chot! Maarte! Gusto ko sanang isa-isahin pero bukod sa wala namang interesado, tinatamad ako. Babalikan ko na naman ang bawat araw ng Pebrero sa utak ko.. NO THANK YOU!

Sobrang busy sa school. At ako naman si magaling na kung kailan kailangang magsipag eh dun pa natuto mag-"procrastinate". (Pinanganak ba ulit ako kahapon at bigla ako naging isang dakilang procrastinator?) Patapos na ang Pebrero, papasok na ang Marso.. Hindi ibig sabihin nito mas dadali ang mga araw. GALAW-GALAW! Deadlines. Final requirements. Finals. Book report. Sheeeeeeeeez! (At ang tapang ko pang mag-9 units next sem para maging qualified sa scholarship program. GOODLUCK!) Pero sabi nga nila, hirap muna bago sarap. So bago ako mag-"Summer Vacation" mode ay magsusunog muna ako ng kilay at tutunga ng mga 5 bote ng kape para makapag-comply sa mga requirements. AJA! This better be worth it!

May pinagdadaanan ako, pero 'wag kayong mag-alala, dinadaanan ko lang, at di ko balak tambayan. Kaya pasensya na sa mga "random fit" ko (Kung sino man ang mga nasampolan na, paumanhin.) at mga unreasonable at irrational (Pero hindi naman totally irrational, di niyo lang ako gets minsan. Haha!) blahs ko. Basta. Matatapos din 'to. Ako na, ako na talaga ang S-T-R-E-S-S-E-D! Wala nga akong FB account pero hindi parin ako natututo at ako parin talaga ang gumagawa ng paraan para "kumuha ng bato at ipukol sa sarili kong ulo". Haaaaaay. -- WOAH! Teka, teka, teka.. Saan galing yun? Memasingit lang? Hahaha! Che!

Isang malaking pasasalamat pala sa limang taong 'to na kahit nakakalat sa iba-ibang lugar ay wala parin kupas sa pambabasag: Mafe, Chi, Tina, Cliff, and Mary. Hahaha! Sakit ng daliri ko kaka-type at panga ko kakatawa sa mga kalokohan niyong lahat! Love you all! BBM all day everyday! ♥♥♥

Dito na lang. Ktnxbye.

Surprised? Not So Much!

WELL WELL WELL.. WHAT DO WE HAVE HERE?

Eh 'di nangyari na nga yung matagal ko nang KUTOB. SABI KO NA EH! People will attack their 'prey' when it is in its MOST VULNERABLE state? stage? phase? Basta ganun! Yung 'weakest' point nila.

Kapag ba umalis yung dalawang tao nang sila lang dalawa, DATE na agad? Di ba pwedeng KAPE muna? -- P*KY*! Ganun na rin yun! Lilinlangin niyo pa ko! Eh kung alam mong may gusto sayo yung isang tao eh, kakape-kape pa kayo ng kayong dalawa lang? Eh kung buhusan ko kayo ng "beyong boiling point" na kape, matuwa pa kaya kayo? [Hahaha! Sorry. Natawa ako sa "beyond-boiling-point" chorvah. Anuba! Galit dapat ako eh. GAME!] AT.. AT.. AT.. 'Wag ka narin magtangkang humirit pa nang linyang "Don't act like a jealous wife!" ni Sam Milby dahil ito lang masasabi ko.. "I'm not acting like a jealous wife.. I'm a woman getting even!" -- PAK! Sabay buhos ng red wine sa mukha. Sabay walk-out.. in my RED STILETTOS!

Waaaaaaah! Anuba! Kakapanuod ng mga teleserye, 'yan ang napapala eh. :p Joke lang. Naiimagine ko lang lahat 'yan.. Masaya siguro kung makikita ko yan mangyari sa totoong buhay.

Dito na muna.




P.S. Nga pala.. Regular ang boxing sessions ko.. So ingat kayo! Hahahaha! Oh no, this isn't a threat. p

Checking The Checklist.

Earlier this year I've created a "list" of what I want to accomplish within this year.. And since I only got almost two months before 2011 ends, I need to see if I even got half of it done. If you've no idea what I'm referring to, better read this. Leggow!

THE LIST:

- Makapasyal sa labas ng bansa. (HK, SG, Macau, Malaysia, Vietnam, Korea, etc.) | DONE! Almost. I've been to SG in July, and will be going to HK & Macau this December. Buzzer beater! Ü

- Magkaron ng 'Savings Account' na 'savings' talaga at di pwede galawin. | DONE! Just recently I've opened my VERY FIRST SAVINGS ACCOUNT for my 'actual' savings na hindi pwedeng galawin kahit magkamatayan na! Ü

- MGA bagong lente para kay Keri. (or bagong body SANA!) Pwede na ang 10mm wide, 18-250mm zoom, or 35mm prime na nagaauto sa D5000. | Might drop this off the list. Lost interest na eh. 'Di na ko career sa hobby na ito..

- Maging healthy para di na sakitin. | So far so good.. Hindi na sakitin. I guess the flu shot worked! Ü

- Matupad ang pangarap na timbang: 110 lbs. | I'll get there.. I BETTER GET THERE! Hahaha! 117 lbs. now, 7 more to lose! Ü

- Magboom ang business ko. :D

- Ma-spoil ang parating kong pamangkin na si Benny! :D | a.k.a YSABELLA SKY. Ayoko nalang magsalita, basta ang masasabi ko lang, 'pag may hiniling ang Mommy para kay Sky, natutupad. Ü

- Makabili ng HD TV at Wii para sa kwarto namin. | Nakabili nga ng HD TV, hindi naman sa kwarto nilagay. Pero ako nagbabayad. :( [So carry over parin 'to sa next list!]

- Makapagpagawa ng matinong bookshelf.

- MacBook Pro 13-inch. :D | ♫♪ Pangarap ka na lang ba? O magiging katotohanan pa? ♪♫

- iTouch 4G or iPhone 4. :D | DONE! Bumili dahil sa pressure! Hahaha! Ü

- Mapasyal ang parents ko sa Bora. (Syempre kasama kaming lahat!)

- Maregular na sa trabaho.

- Maging masaya.

- Manumbalik ang kakesuhan sakin.

- Lalaking di ako iiwan at mamahalin hanggang... forever!


So ayan, I guess I'm doing fine with the list. Konti na lang makukumpleto ko na, pero yung mga natirang items yata yung mga "challenging" eh. Bahala na! Keri yan! Ü

Unfollowing.

Ilang buwan narin issue 'to sa ibang mga kaibigan ko. "Ang sama naman kasi kung i-unfollow mo diba?" Kung sabagay, mismong tayo nga, kapag may nag-unfollow satin, we can't help but wonder why, then medyo slight tampo, then unfollow back na agad kung sino yun. May mga iba nga, talagang 'tweeting-their-rage-out' dahil sa inis nila na may nag-unfollow sa kanila.

And since I'm bored, I Googled some stuff about blahs, including this Twitter unfollowing issue [Just for the sake of it. Haha! Nothing serious naman on my part.] and this is what I found.. [Yung may impact at least, and very objective/unbiased.]

"Seems like it would be easier to just unfollow them and if they wanted to know why, comment on it tell them why. I’m assuming they are doing something that annoys you, such as tweeting incessantly or talking about things that don’t interest you. Twitter is supposed to be a casual thing, without an implied obligation to follow people that don’t interest you. Unfollowing isn’t insulting in the way that refusing to accept their phone calls would be."

Source: http://websources.info/blog/2011/01/28/turn-offhide-tweets-from-someone-without-actually-unfollowing-them/

So there. Hindi naman pala insulting eh, casual lang dapat sa Twitter. Hahaha! Anu ba? Nag-blog pa ko dahil dito, lame! Yep, I am bored. That's why. :p

So guys, if you're annoyed/pissed off/irritated by my Twitter blahs/rants/raves/whines/etc. then feel free to unfollow me.. No offense will be taken.. Seriously. :) Because I'm warning you, I won't back down on my 'everything-must-be-tweeted' attitude. HAH! :p