Lines.

adventure packed ang naging araw ko ngayon. masaya, kwela, nakakainit ng ulo, exciting, nakakakaba, nakakapagod at nakakaubos ng pera.

first time ko ngayong bibili ng ticket para sa isang concert/event (kasi lagi akong "complimentary" ticket eh c/o my sources! c;) at it was truly a memorable one! 9am asa araneta na kami ng mga blockmates ko dahil expected namin na maraming tao, pero pagdating dun, aba! soooooper sa dami naman! parang rally sa edsa! holy smokes! pero sa dahil desidido na kami manood fight na! 2 hours na kami nakapila, biglang sabi ng guard sold out na raw tickets kaya transfer nalang kami sa ibang gate. dun nagsimula maghisterical ang grupo. parang mga asong inagawan ng buto. eh di mega-running kami to the other side of the dome para makabili ng tickets, pagdating dun sooooper gulo ng pila. mga taga UP pa majority. akala mo talaga mga rally-ista murahan dito, murahan dun. sakit sa bangs! at yung isang guy hindi napigilan ang temper at inaway na yung guard. eh yung kups na guard napikon na kaya ayun! instant show! sapakan sila dun. palakpak lang kami sa gilid. then came the "biker boys" to the rescue, mega awat ang mga mokong. (biker boys=mga guards din ng araneta, may helmet at naka cycling shorts) tapos ang nagyari dinisolve nanaman for the second time around once more ang pila namin. aba! lokong toh! bumababa na welfare namin kakapila! so this time ginawa namin ang plan B. major singit! singit na kami sa kabilang ticket outlet, patayan sa baho ang crowd na yun, hindi ko kinaya at lumabas ako. luckily, may dumaan na taga NU at nag-offer ng ticket, eh di binili ko na. 40 pesos para sa gen ad, di na masama un! eh di 13 na LANG problema naming ticket. yung mga boys nakikipagpatayan sa pila, mga girls nanghahanting ng scalper. so another 3 hours kaming ganun! awa ni papa GOD nakabili na kaming lahat ng ticket, nung papasok na kami, ang saya ng feeling. parang ayaw ko ipapunit sa guard yung ticket ko. pero ayun na. tapos asa loob na kami. ansaya! syempre panalo UST, pero di ko feel! mas gusto ko UP! at FEU. at UE. end of story 1.

after the competition punta kami gateway. (first time ko kaya humalik ako sa lupa!) soooobrang gusto ko na mag-CR kaya yun ang una naming ginawa. pagdating dun, taka ako ang daming nakapilang girls. LINTEK! PILA NANAMAN! at sosyal ang CR sa gateway, may bayad. 10 pesos! pero i really need to go kaya di na ko nagkuripot. ayos naman ang 10 pesos, sulit! instant ayos! after nun, kain na kami. pagdating sa food court LINTEK! PILA NANAMAN! ayoko na! pero dahil gutom na gutom na ko pinilit ko nang pumila. after kumain lumibot lang kami sa buong area ng araneta. bonding moments! hehehe. tapos nung napagod na umuwi na kami. end of story 2.

pumunta na kami sa mrt station para umuwi, at pagbili pa lang ng cards LINTEK! PILA NANAMAN! hay buhay! umikot na araw ko sa pila. pero dahil kailangan nang umuwi pila parin kami. at pag-akyat sa sakayan nung train, ANLUFET! andaming tao. kala mo may extension nung competition dahil makikita mo sa mga hawak na banners ang 8 schools ng UAAP! bwiset talaga! 9pm na nun ah? pero wala na kong magagawa, pila kung pila.

pag-uwi ko, nag-internet na ko agad (buti walang pila dahil di nag-iinternet si ate kat!) tapos nag-post ng entry. tapos naalala ko TESTIMONY OF FAITH ko bukas. waaaah! kaya sige babay muna because duty calls. till here.

Drama Much.

why is this sudden feeling of sadness in me? recently i have been having the time of my teenage life, but now this? why the sudden change? what's come over me? why am i feeling this way? so many questions but the answers seem hard to find. i'm so confused. i'm trying my best to clear out my mind but all of those things keep rushing back to me. you may be wondering by now what the heck am i talking about. well honestly, i don't really know! every night, i can't help but cry myself to sleep. why? because of the things that has been happening to me lately. i can no longer pretend that everything is okay when the fact is it's not! well if you're thinking that this has got to do with my so-called love life, you're right! but it's not just about it. lately i've been hanging with my new "circle of friends" and i'm definitely enjoying it. it's so easy to be myself whenever i'm aroud them, i don't need to pretend or anything, i just have to be myself. i can comfortably talk to them about aything anytime i want. then my other friend told me that i've changed, that i no longer join them and that i've been a little cold to them. honestly, i'm not aware of what she's saying! what does she want me to do? hang with the group of "couples" and look like the odd one out? duh! i don't think so! of course i myself need a "sense of belonging". that's why lately i've been avoiding them, but not totally! that's one of my dilemmas! another is of course my "father"! i don't really know what's going on inside his head that makes him want to shout all the time. andropose? i don't think so! it's just that whenever he asks for a favor it would be in a VERY VERY annoying manner. and then he would go ballistic and shout if someone does wrong! "what a man, sarap tadyakan!" anyway, i think he would not change his attitude that's why we really have to have lots of PATIENCE and UNDERSTANDING! (how am i gonna do that?)

and the thing that really bugs me lately is of course my so-called love life! oh i mean like life. it's just that, this time it's different. i've never felt this way since "raefel" pa! i know i should never expect something, but what if his actions are telling it? but he makes it clear that we're just friends! and whenever i don't feel like talking to him, it will really bother him! i just can't get it out of my head (kylie minouge?). everytime i'm alone, all that i think about is him, us, and everything else. gosh! i feel so desperate! why? just why the heck am i like this? why is it affecting me this way? i know i sound STUPID to you, but this is me. sometimes i can be like this. (and in times like this i really don't like myself.) i don't want to fall for him cause i know that it will not be that easy, but then why am i like this? a night would never pass without me thinking about him. grrrrrr! well then, i think i should end this crap. it's going nowhere. till here.