Rainy Days Won't Stop Me.

Minutes before I'm out of the office that I decided to make a quick post. Nothing to say in particular though. It feels like a FRIDAY because there's no work tomorrow. Yay! I get to sleep late, and wake up late! I can watch the latest episodes of the series that I've been watching [Thanks to Chasha! ♥] And I get to fix my things because they're everywhere! Hahaha.

Still not done with importing my pasts blog posts into this new one. But I am having a good time reading it over and over again. makes me laugh because the problems that I've been dealing before are still the ones that I've been encountering now, but on a higher degree of course. [I think I've mentioned these exacts words on my previous post here somewhere.]

I'm off to see my barista friends to have dinner later in Macapagal. Excited much! ♥ I only get to see them off-duty once in a while, and this will be our first time together at Dampa. BUTTERED SHRIMPS HERE I COME! I must have anti-histamine in my pocket for emergency, just in case i get out of control with those shrimps! :)

Even though its raining hard outside.. Do smile for me sunshine! Ü

Monday Whaddups..

Hello Monday! As usual, I'm in my "I'm-so-lazy-I-think-I-have-a-fever" attitude because of the weekend hangover. Luckily, I survived this day peacefully. [And without having to bang the phone when an annoying client calls.]

Anyway, I haven't got much "time" today to "fully" check my other accounts [FB, Twitter, Tumblr, Multiply, etc.] because I'm busy.. Busy importing my posts from my previous blogs into this one. Its like merging my 3 blogs into this one so I won't have to go to other blogsites whenever i want to re-read my previous posts waaaaay back 2004. [Yeah, I've been blogging since 2004, 6 years! Ü] And it makes me smile whenever I read my older posts because I can say that my view on things has somewhat "stepped-up" to the next level. And what's funny is that I always mention names of specific people [Very best example would be Raefel. Haha! Ü] without thinking twice if anybody might be able to read it. Oooohhh. Hehehe.

Also, I've borrowed my sister's book entitled "The Choice" by Nicholas Sparks. As usual, its a love story. This is my first time to be reading a novel from the noted author that's why I am excited to finish it. And my sister also said that a movie based on the novel would b made later this year or early next year. SO that's another thing to look forward to.

Another is that, there will be no work* [I was about to type 'classes' when I remembered that I'm no longer a student. Ü] on Wednesday. Plus 1-day free day for me! Time to do my Photog Assignments. And I think I would get to be with my HS Friends again. [Not sure though.]

Anyway, at least I found something to do while I'm in the boring hours of my day. Till here.

One more thing.. SMILE FOR ME! Ü

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I've never been speechless until now...

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It's been almost a week that i'd really like to write about something.. Eeerr.. Some things, but i can't seem to find the words to explain it. [Cliche'? Not!] I'm not like this, I always have something to say [That's why i have a freaking blog in the first place.] and I can definitely speak my mind because I haven't got much followers here at Blogspot, and only a few of my friends know that I still keep a blog. So there. I can't really gather my thoughts right now to compose a worth reading post, so if you think you've already wasted time, might as well stop reading NOW.

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"I'm twisted 'coz one side of me is telling me that I need to move on, but on the other side I wanna break down and cry.."

Last last week, I have made a very big decision that lead me where I am right now. I seriously, officially, ended our relationship. [From my "current" ex-boyfriend. Huh? 'Twas about time though.] And I am definitely serious about it this time. No more "confusing words, actions, gestures, etc." both for our own sake. The past year has been fun but tiring. Why? Because I don't know what I really want from our relationship. And I admit, I have already let go.. Of him, of us. I have already let go, long before I knew I wasn't holding on anymore. It wasn't an easy thing to do. It was never easy to know that you have hurt/will be hurting the person you once loved, but just like all other things, it always comes to an end. And it upsets me knowing that we didn't really end up well. Partly my choice. He said that he wants us to be friends again, back to how we used to be, best of friends. But I said not now, not right after. Because realistically/practically/in-the-right-state-of-mind speaking, that can never ever ever happen! You cannot just skip the whole "Breaking Up / Moving On" process. We've tried it several times, but we always fall short, and we end up confused, thus hurting each other more. You might disagree with what I'm saying, but this is what its like between us. Maybe because we weren't firm enough with our decisions, we were always carried away by our emotions, heart over matter. So this time, as hard and as hurtful as it seems, I have to make that decision and stand by it. I have to be strong enough not to let my emotions decide for me. I really have to think this time.

Being the one who has ended the relationship doesn't mean that I have cared less or that it doesn't matter to me anymore. FOUR FREAKING YEARS! How can one judge me that I have loved less or that I haven't loved him more? Its hurting me as much as he is hurting now. But I did what I have to do. Why will I continue something that I know I'm not wholeheartedly into? Don't you think it would be unfair to him? It will just hurt him more.

I don't know why I am ranting like a kid right now. Maybe because I was hurt by what he said with me being happy with other people rather than him? In the first place, it wasn't my choice on who will I source my happiness from! It was my choice to be happy on where I am, who I am with, or whatever it is that I/we are doing. I think I've had enough drama that sometimes I just need to be happy with whatever comes along my way. Sheeeesh.

I haven't loved you less. I HAVEN'T LOVED YOU LESS! Maybe what I can give wasn't really enough for you. Maybe I'm not good enough for you. I have loved you completely, truthfully, unconditionally.. But I admit I did became weak, and did the things I did.. But that doesn't mean I have loved you less.. [Yeah! I am repeating this over and over.] After that, I thought that we were ok, but nooo! You were this "paranoid" boyfriend who've lost his trust on her [Can't blame you for that] and being doubtful on what she does, who she's with, and etc. How can I be faithful enough if you don't trust me? [Or is that proper to ask?] I don't know. I really don't.

I really don't want to point out mistakes here. I'm just trying to release this "not-so-bitter" feeling. Well, not all break-ups goes well right? How can it? At least this episode will soon be over. Soon..

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"If it makes you happy, then why the hell are you so sad."

Another thing that has been bothering me is that, when it comes to making decisions, why is it that we always take into consideration what the other person will feel if we tell it to him/her? I mean, why is it that we place the feelings of a person/people ahead of our own? Shouldn't it be the other way around? I know for a fact that we try to avoid as much as we can hurting other people. But what if its hurting you so bad? Will you still endure the pain even though you can do something about it?

We always have a choice. It either we continue to hurt ourselves [By not telling them what they really need to know, or keeping them hanging until you've made your decision] or hurt them now and tell them what it is, and give it some time, and maybe fix things after wards. At least with this, you've let out what you really feel and you've been totally honest. Yeah, it will be a lot hurtful to have hurt another person. But then it is through hurt and pain that a person learns. So it is up for the other person o how he/she will take it. This will also show how mature he/she in handling problems/situations that is beyond his/her control. He/She must learn that things will not always go the way he/she wants it.

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So, yeah, that's it. You can react violently with what I've said here, but do remember that these are just my opinion on what's currently happening. I might be right, I might be wrong. Whatever. I just have to let this out. Its been an emotional burden to me since the other week. Forgive me if I'm being unreasonable, irrational, and pessimistic. That's just me I guess.

Till here. Ciao!

What Day Is It? Its SOMEDAY! :)

Photoshoot Assignment turned out to be a Movie Date Night. I was really waiting for "Knight and Day" eversince I saw its trailer, and when it came out. I couldn't help myself not to watch it. And with all the "little things" that's been bugging my mind lately, I think I deserve a movie treat! :)

Tom Cruise is still the Classic "Action Star/Pretty Boy" of Hollywood [For me.] and Cameron Diaz has a really unique smile that will make you smile also.

My favorite scene:

Jenny [Cameron Diaz] : You're not happy to see me, Are you?
Roy [Tom Cruise]: What?
Jenny: I think you're not happy to see me, You don't look happy..
Roy: [Walks up to Jenny, leaning her against the brick wall, and then kisses her.] I am happy to see you..
Jenny: [Smiles.]

About my post title.. Watch it! Its somewhere at the end of the movie. :)

Real Friendship.

"The kisses of an enemy may be profuse, but faithful are the wounds of a friend."

- Proverbs 27:6

A friend you can trust is a priceless treasure. If you have a trustworthy friend, consider yourself wealthy, and never take the friendship for granted.

What is a real friend like? A genuine friend is not afraid to be honest with you. He'll be kind, but he won't dish out flattery in order to hold on to the friendship. In turn, a real friend will listen to truth, spoken in love, and accept constructive criticism, even when it hurts. A true friend will be reliable. She'll not stab you in the back or spread gossip about you. The sign of an authentic friend is that she puts your interests ahead of her own. She doesn't act out selfish motives but of genuine concern for your well-being. Wouldn't it be great to have a friend like that? Wouldn't it be great to be a friend like that?

There are others who only appear to be your friend. They spend time with you for what they receive instead of what they give. They tell you what they think you want to hear instead of what you need to hear. They have ulterior motives for being your friend, motives you can' trust. These are the kinds of friends to avoid!

In all of your friendships, strive to treat the other person the way you'd like to be treated. Be the best friend you can be, and let God worry about what you'll get in return for your kindness. :)



--- Henry & Richard Blackaby

Hindi Ko Na Alam.

ang mga nakaraang araw ay parang isang malupit na "roller coaster ride."

taas. baba. paikot. mabilis. exciting. nakakahilo. at nakakawala sa ulirat. yan ang roller coaster.

bakit nanaman ba kasi may ganito? hindi ko rin alam. kaya nga ako nagtatanong eh.

kagaya ng pagtatanong ko sa isa kong kaibigan; "galit ka ba?" "hindi. mukha lang. sige kain lang ako ah?" sabihin mo nga skain, hindi ba galit yan? hinid ako insensitive para hindi maramdaman kung galit ang isang tao sakin o hindi, pero hindi naman ako assumera na kung anu yung naisip ko, yun na yun. kaya nga ako nagtatanong eh. wala namang problema kung magiging honest ka at sasabihin mo saking galit ka eh. mahirap ba yun? hindi ako manghuhula para malaman ang bawat nararamdaman mo sa bawat sitwasyon na involved ako/tayo. at ang masakit pa nun, inuuna mo yung "pride" kesa sa ayusin nalang agad ang problema. hindi ko na alam.

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ayoko nang ituloy itong post na to. galit ako eh. inis. masama loob. malungkot.

dito na lang.

Whatta Weekend.

my rundown of the long weekend that just passed.

friday [june 11, 2010]

office till 7pm. off to MOA. thunder strikes. rashguard from stoked ♥. dinner at Hai Bar and Resto. Happy Birthday Leah! ♥. Wallie Angelo Ancheta. girl talks with Virma and Abhie. left early. YCC planning at EMC. went home 2Am. sleep.

saturday [june 12, 2010]

woke up at 8am. late for photog class. photog class till 5pm. went to divi. meet up with mikel. 50 + 1 mugs. went home. off again. rob. tongue ring. dinner at jollibee. off to morato. pier one. weng-weng. melai's list of flings. :) almost guilly's. walk trip. frustrated. taxi. walk. taxi. barrakz (finally!). a glimpse of jejegimmick. :) blue bar. more cocktail drinks. strawberry margarita. tequila sunrise. RnB music. french fries. cherry knotting contest. SOBER. bill out. taxi. passed out. home. didn't make it to bed. passed out.

sunday [june 13, 2010]

woke up 8am. hangover. cold shower. formal wear. installation of officers. off to rob. rashguard from sassa. off to taytay with church friends. lunch at sm taytay. on the way to Momarco, lost. asking directions from locals jejemon style. laugh trip. more RnB music. Momarco is Paradise. raining. helped prepare for everything. after dinner migraine. feverish. sleepy. by 8Pm, knock out. major loser of the trip.

monday [june 14, 2010]

woke up 7am. frustrating photowalk. insects galore. motion blurred. shallow depth of field. Keri's first water splash. check out. off to Daranak falls. crowded. frustrated. left. off to Mang Inasal for lunch to compensate frustration. kotseng kuba game. more RnB music. iTouch 32GB. text text text. home at last. ninang lovin' with Kier and Kurt. Ytelle ♥. off to Rob. meet up with Mikel. The A-Team date. brown out. paranoid. freaking awesome movie. I ♥ BRADLEY COOPER. saw Alvir. went home. bumped my head at the taxi door. text text text. dozed off.

and that's just about it. ♥

Anger Management 101 [Facebook]

One of the biggest obstacles to personal and career success is anger. When we fail to control our anger, we suffer several blows:

* Anger impedes our ability to be happy, because anger and happiness are incompatible.

* Anger sends marriages and other family relationships off-course.

* Anger reduces our social skills, compromising other relationships, too.

* Anger means lost business, because it destroys relationships.

* Anger also means losing business that you could have won in a more gracious mood.

* Anger leads to increased stress (ironic, since stress often increases anger).

We make mistakes when we are angry, because anger makes it harder to process information.
People are beginning to wake up to the dangers of anger and the need for anger management skills and strategies. Many people find anger easy to control. Yes, they do get angry. Everybody does. But some people find anger easier to manage than others. More people need to develop anger management skills.

Develop your anger management skills
For those who have a tough time controlling their anger, an anger management plan might help. Think of this as your emotional control class, and try these self-help anger management tips:

ANGER MANAGEMENT TIP #1
Ask yourself this question: "Will the object of my anger matter ten years from now?" Chances are, you will see things from a calmer perspective.

ANGER MANAGEMENT TIP #2
Ask yourself: "What is the worst consequence of the object of my anger?" If someone cut in front of you at the book store check-out, you will probably find that three minutes is not such a big deal.

ANGER MANAGEMENT TIP #3
Imagine yourself doing the same thing. Come on, admit that you sometimes cut in front of another driver, too ... sometimes by accident. Do you get angry at yourself?

ANGER MANAGEMENT TIP #4
Ask yourself this question: "Did that person do this to me on purpose?" In many cases, you will see that they were just careless or in a rush, and really did not mean you any harm.

ANGER MANAGEMENT TIP #5
Try counting to ten before saying anything. This may not address the anger directly, but it can minimize the damage you will do while angry.

ANGER MANAGEMENT TIP #6
Try some "new and improved" variations of counting to ten. For instance, try counting to ten with a deep slow breathe in between each number. Deep breathing -- from your diaphragm -- helps people relax.

ANGER MANAGEMENT TIP #7
Or try pacing your numbers as you count. The old "one-steamboat-two-steamboat, etc." trick seems kind of lame to me. Steamboats are not the best devices to reduce your steam. How about "One-chocolate-ice-cream-two-chocolate-ice-cream", or use something else that you find either pleasant or humorous.

ANGER MANAGEMENT TIP #8
Visualize a relaxing experience. Close your eyes, and travel there in your mind. Make it your stress-free oasis.

One thing I do not recommend is "venting" your anger. Sure, a couple swift blows to your pillow might make you feel better (better, at least, than the same blows to the door!), but research shows that "venting" anger only increases it. In fact, speaking or acting with any emotion simply rehearses, practices and builds that emotion.

If these tips do not help and you still feel you lack sufficient anger management skills, you might need some professional help, either in the form of a therapist specializing in anger management or a coach with a strong background in psychology.

Panunumpa ng Kawani ng Gobyerno.

During the Flag Ceremony (Every first Monday of the month.) kanina, while reciting the "Panunumpa", nagkaroon ng "Awkward Murmuring" dahil masaydo yatang mahaba yung sinabing verse nung leader kaya nahirapan yung mga employees na i-recite. Kaya ayan, after ng Ceremony ay namigay ng copy ng "Panunumpa" for the employees to familiarize themselves, para daw next time wala nang awkward murmurs. Hahaha.

I find it ironic somehow whenever I recite this "Panunumpa". Ewan. Kasi minsan matatawa ka nalang dahil kung sino yung may pinakamalakas na boses habang nagrerecite, yun yung pinaka-guily sa lahat. Hahaha.

Share ko na nga lang sa inyo.

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PANUNUMPA NG KAWANI NG GOBYERNO. [Rev. February 2008]

Ako'y kawani ng gobyerno
Tungkulin ko ang maglingkod ng tapat at mahusay.
Dahil dito,
Ako'y papasok ng maaga at magtatrabaho nang lampas sa takdang oras kung kinakailangan; [Check sa second part. Guilty sa first art. Haha!]
Magsisilbi ako nang magalang at mabilis sa lahat ng nangangailangan; [Check!]
Pangangalagaan ko ang mga gamit, kasangkapan, at iba pang pag-aari ng pamahalaan; [Paano mo aalagaan ang sira na? Hahaha.]
Magiging pantay at makatarungan ang pakikitungo ko sa mga lumalapit sa aming tanggapan; [Minsan hindi rin, dapat mas considerate ka sa mga mas nakakababa, hindi yung lagi mong pinapaboran yung nakatataas.]
Magsasalita ako laban sa katiwalian at pagsasamantala; [Check! Though wala pa namang ganun dito.]
Hindi ko gagamitin ang aking panunungkulan sa sarili kong kapakanan; [Except nalang kung legal ang perks ng pagiging government employee, tulad ng discounts on tickets sa E.K.]
Hindi ako hihingi o tatanggap ng suhol; [Check! Though hindi pa ko nakakakita ng mga "under the table" incidents dito sa office.]
Sisikapin kong madagdagan ang aking talino at kakayahan upang ang antas ng paglilingkod sa bayan ay patuloy na maitaas; [Kung alam ko lang kung paano to, ginawa ko na.]
Sapagkat ako'y isang kawani ng gobyerno
At tungkulin ko ang maglingkod nang tapat at mahusay
Sa bayan ko at sa panahong ito
Ako at ang aking mga kapwa kawani
Ay kailangan, tungo sa isang maunlad
Masagana at mapayapang Pilipinas
Sa harap ninyong lahat, ako'y taos-pusong nanunumpa.


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So ayan, isa lang yan sa mga nirerecite kapag may Flag Ceremony dito sa office. [Minus the side comments. Haha.]

Obviously I'm bored here at work kaya kung anu-ano nanaman sinasabi ko. Oh well..

Men I adore.. I'll be waiting for you..

Lazy Wednesday Everyone!

Cooler weather. Not much work. PMS-ing. Browsing the net for N hours now. And then I found this site [teaser-trailer] and started searching.

There's so many movies that will be realeased later this year that I'd really like to watch. But these two will be my priority. Whatever it takes! ♥

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EAGLE OF THE NINTH




Genre: Drama/Adventure/Action
Directed by: Kevin Macdonald
Starring: Channing Tatum, Jamie Bell, Donald Sutherland, Mark Strong
Release Date:TBA 2010

Plot:
“In 140 AD, twenty years after the unexplained disappearance of the entire Ninth Legion in the mountains of Scotland, young centurion Marcus Aquila (Channing Tatum) arrives from Rome to solve the mystery and restore the reputation of his father (Donald Sutherland), the commander of the Ninth. Accompanied only by his British slave Esca (Jamie Bell), Marcus sets out across Hadrian’s Wall into the uncharted highlands of Caledonia – to confront its savage tribes, make peace with his father’s memory, and retrieve the lost legion’s golden emblem, the Eagle of the Ninth.”

Hollywood is like obsessed with The Ninth Legion… The Eagle of the Ninth is just one more movie on this theme! And it will have to compete with Neil Marshall’s Centurion which is likely to be released sometime in the second half of 2010! But the Eagle of the Ninth movie can boast Channing Tattum in its cast. ♥

SOURCE: http://www.teaser-trailer.com

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CHARLIE ST. CLOUD

Genre: Drama/Romance
Directed by: Burr Steers
Starring: Zac Efron, Amanda Crew, Donal Logue, Charlie Tahan, Kim Basinger, Ray Liotta
Release Date: July 30, 2010

Plot:
“Charlie St. Cloud (Zac Efron) is a young man overcome by grief at the death of his younger brother. So much so that he takes a job as caretaker of the cemetery in which his brother is buried. Charlie has a special lasting bond with his brother though, as he can see him. Charlie meets up with his brother (Sam) each night to play catch and talk. Then, a girl comes into Charlie’s life and he must choose between keeping a promise he made to Sam, or going after the girl he loves”

The movie Charlie St Cloud is definitely a tear jerking story, but Zac Efron’s performance will make it worth seeing! ♥

SOURCE: http://www.teaser-trailer.com

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Channing and Zac, I'll be waiting for you on the Big Screen. Thank You for making my day brighter! ♥♥♥♥♥

When It Rains, It Pours. :)

HELLO JUNE! we welcome you with colorful umbrellas! :)

for some people, they say that when it rains, it tends to have a gloomy atmosphere around people and drain out all their positivity, hence the term "Eenrgy Sucker". for the others, they welcome rain with arms wide open simply because after a loooong hot weather, here it is. there's rain. there's hope. i for one , am glad that it rained. why? because along with the rain came peace. peace within myself and towards other people [whom i recently had a "misunderstanding" with]. it wasn't a hard rain, its just a DRIZZLE [as what i can recall from my earth science lessons], tipong "sakto lang." hindi malakas na bumabaha at matraffic na. hindi rin super bilis na nagpasingaw lang. konting patak, konting lamig, sakto. perfect! :)

ang drama, pati ulan dinadamay sa drama. ganun talaga! :)

and of course, hindi lang sa labas umuulan, sa loob din ng opisina. umuulan ng ***A! hahaha. yun lang! i get to buy another "astigmaporma" for Keri. :)

i've got to cut this short, bigla akong na-excite mag-out. hahaha. till here. :)

Happy Drizzling Monday Everyone! :)