Late Night Rants 2.

WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS? Nagmahal lang ako, pero ganito ang kapalit? Ouch! Sana pala nakipaglokohan lang ako, di siguro ganito kasakit. Pero buti nalang din hindi. At least, alam kong nagbago na ko.

I don't know what to think anymore. In fact, I don't want to think anymore. Of you, of us, of the things around us, everything! I can't stand being disappointed over and over and over again.

I have proven myself that you are not worth my tears, my heartaches, my smiles, my laughter, my time, my effort, my love.. But you know what? This doesn't make me feel any better. So, once again I prove myself wrong.

Ok na 'to.. Sa ngayon. Bye!

Late Night Rants.

Ano January? Matatapos ka na pero ganito pa rin ako, miserable parin. Saya mo ah! Salamat!

Nung Friday, nacheck ako ng mga Predictions ng mga Zodiac Signs for the year 2011, sabi ang Cancer, Aries at Pisces daw swerte sa first quater ng taon. AH TALAGA? Swerte ba 'to? Tama nga ang mga tao, HULA lang yang mga yan, DI TOTOO!

Ayoko nang marining ang 'three-words-eight-letters' na yan. Hindi na ko naniniwala sa totoong laman ng mga salitang yan. Shet!

Alam ko bakit ako minamalas lately.. Malapit na kasi mag-February eh. February and October ang mga buwan na para akong pinaparusahan ng kung sino man. Lahat ng BV nangyayari ng mga buwan na yan. Lalo na yang Valentine's shit na yan! In your face! Hindi na ko magkakaron ng Valentine's chorvah kahit kailan, sumpa na sakin yan. Bakit ba kasi may ganyang tradisyon pang nalalaman. Che!

Napapagod na ko. Hanggang ngayon umiiyak parin ako. Nahihirapan. Nakakatulog ng umiiyak. Miserable. Sana naman kahit paano gumaan na 'tong kaartehan kong 'to. Hindi na nakakatuwa eh. Tama nga sila, hindi mo mapipilit ang sarili mo maging masaya. NEVER! Haaaaay. :((

Last Rant: May bago akong laban na kailangang harapin. Mas mabigat 'to sa lahat! Magbabago buhay ko 'pag nagkataon. :(

Dito muna. Paalam.

Water Runs Dry.

We don’t even talk anymore and we don’t even know what we argue about. Don’t even say I love you no more ’cause saying how we feel is no longer allowed. Some people will work things out and some just don’t know how to change.

Let’s not wait till the water runs dry. We might watch our whole lives pass us by. Let’s don’t wait till the water runs dry. We’ll make the biggest mistake of our lives, don’t do it baby.

Now they can see the tears in our eyes but we deny the pain that lies deep in our hearts. Well maybe that’s a pain we can’t hide ’cause everybody knows that we’re both torn apart. Why do we hurt each other? Why do we push love away?

Let’s not wait till the water runs dry. We might watch our whole lives pass us by. Let’s don’t wait till the water runs dry. We’ll make the biggest mistake of our lives, don’t do it baby.

I Give Up.

Dear Brain,

I'm sorry for being a pessimist, thinking of the worst in everything. [But sometimes I try not to.] I'm sorry that I always over analyze things, thus lead to making conclusions and assumptions based on my mere opinion. I'm sorry that because of me, and my 'emotional burden', you are not functioning well. I'm sorry that all I think about right now is myself, thus, I'm becoming too close-minded to see the bigger picture. I'm sorry that I became idealistic of what SHOULD be instead of what IS.

If you can, please ALWAYS think twice.. or thrice.. on how to go about certain situations. Don't let my emotions get the best of your judgment. Avoid being biased, and always have an open mind on things. Always place others interest before mine. Always TRY to do the right thing, whatever it takes, whatever the sacrifices. For the things that I cannot comprehend at the moment.. I give up.

PS: Try to think of 'happy thoughts' as well. Life is short, so live it to the fullest!


Dear Heart,

I'm sorry I didn't guard you well enough. I'm sorry I easily give in to what my mind tells me, to where my emotions lead me. I'm sorry for causing you pain, too much for you to bear. I'm sorry for not taking good care of you. I'm sorry that you're suffering too much now.

Please let me sleep. I know how badly I want to love and be loved back, but if its not the right time, then let these feelings sleep. I don't want you to be worn-out further; so save what is still left of you. You'll be complete again.. in time. For now.. I give up.


Dear God,

I'm sorry I tend to ignore what you're trying to tell me at times. I'm sorry if I have done others wrong. I'm sorry for being self-righteous and cold-hearted. I'm sorry that I am only looking after myself. I'm sorry for putting my focus on my problems instead of the other blessings that you continue to give me and the people around me.

I know [and I strongly believe] that you have your own reasons why things happen. I just pray that in time, I'd be able to understand it all and learn to accept it with all my heart. I will not ask for things to go my way but rather Your will be done. It is you who knows everything and Your plans are perfect.

Lord, I'm asking that you renew me once again. Give me a new heart, a refreshed mind, and a stronger body. Be with me as I go through this. Guide me on the right path. Lead me with your word. Fill my heart with hope once again.

I give up Lord.. all of these, I lift it up to you.

Yesterday.

I just can't believe you're gone, still waiting for morning to come. Wanna see if the sun will rise even without you by my side. When we have so much in store tell me what is it I'm reaching for. When we're through building memories I'll hold yesterday in my heart..

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made. They can take the music that we never played
All the broken dreams take everything, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday. They can take the future that we'll never know. They can take the places that we said we would go. All the broken dreams take everything, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday.

You always used to say I should be thankful for every day. Heaven knows what the future holds or at least how the story goes, but I never believed them till now. I know I'll see you again, I'm sure it's not selfish to ask for more. One more night, one more day, one more smile on your face but they can't take yesterday..

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made. They can take the music that we never played
All the broken dreams take everything, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday. They can take the future that we'll never know. They can take the places that we said we would go. All the broken dreams take everything, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday.

I thought our days would last forever, but it wasn't our destiny.
'Cause in my mind we had so much time, but I was so wrong.
Now I can believe that I can still find the strength in the moments we made,
I'm looking back on yesterday..

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made. They can take the music that we never played
All the broken dreams take everything, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday. They can take the future that we'll never know. They can take the places that we said we would go. All the broken dreams take everything, just take it away, but they can never have yesterday.