I Give Up.

Dear Brain,

I'm sorry for being a pessimist, thinking of the worst in everything. [But sometimes I try not to.] I'm sorry that I always over analyze things, thus lead to making conclusions and assumptions based on my mere opinion. I'm sorry that because of me, and my 'emotional burden', you are not functioning well. I'm sorry that all I think about right now is myself, thus, I'm becoming too close-minded to see the bigger picture. I'm sorry that I became idealistic of what SHOULD be instead of what IS.

If you can, please ALWAYS think twice.. or thrice.. on how to go about certain situations. Don't let my emotions get the best of your judgment. Avoid being biased, and always have an open mind on things. Always place others interest before mine. Always TRY to do the right thing, whatever it takes, whatever the sacrifices. For the things that I cannot comprehend at the moment.. I give up.

PS: Try to think of 'happy thoughts' as well. Life is short, so live it to the fullest!


Dear Heart,

I'm sorry I didn't guard you well enough. I'm sorry I easily give in to what my mind tells me, to where my emotions lead me. I'm sorry for causing you pain, too much for you to bear. I'm sorry for not taking good care of you. I'm sorry that you're suffering too much now.

Please let me sleep. I know how badly I want to love and be loved back, but if its not the right time, then let these feelings sleep. I don't want you to be worn-out further; so save what is still left of you. You'll be complete again.. in time. For now.. I give up.


Dear God,

I'm sorry I tend to ignore what you're trying to tell me at times. I'm sorry if I have done others wrong. I'm sorry for being self-righteous and cold-hearted. I'm sorry that I am only looking after myself. I'm sorry for putting my focus on my problems instead of the other blessings that you continue to give me and the people around me.

I know [and I strongly believe] that you have your own reasons why things happen. I just pray that in time, I'd be able to understand it all and learn to accept it with all my heart. I will not ask for things to go my way but rather Your will be done. It is you who knows everything and Your plans are perfect.

Lord, I'm asking that you renew me once again. Give me a new heart, a refreshed mind, and a stronger body. Be with me as I go through this. Guide me on the right path. Lead me with your word. Fill my heart with hope once again.

I give up Lord.. all of these, I lift it up to you.