Umiyak Si Jill. :((

hey hey hey! hay nakuu. andami ata "dramedy" moments ngayong araw. nangawit 'cheeks' ko eh. anu umpisahan ko na? GO!

una, sa taxation namin. everytime nalang na time na ng tax yung room namin parang nagiging temple ng Buhddist, lahat may kanya-kanyang panalangin na sana hindi matawag sa recitation / memorization of the book word per word. hay! sinu ba naman hindi mangangatog sa nerbyos nyan diba? first subject pa yan so kapag hindi ka nakapag-aral ng gabi, wala ka na! ASA! lahat kami, nakayuko, basa kamay, at tensyonado. random kasi ang pagtawag sa students. (hindi ala roleta ni kuya mikas. hehe!) ah basta. nakakabaliw lang dahil up until now hindi pa rin ako natatawag, meaning to say, tuloy ang kalbaryo sa pagmememorize! tsk! UBOS NA STABILO KO! :D

pangalawa, sa entrep namin. masaya kasi we had this activity wherein you would make a collage about yourself from magazine cut-outs. enjoy talaga dahil, aba! FORTE ko ata mag-gu-gu-gupit sa back issues ng candy mag noh! so weniwey, ayun, pakikayan, mapalalaki or bakla, kering-keri! hahaha. tapos lahat ng "artwork" namin dinikit sa board, then lahat kami pinakuha ng isa na hindi samin, then we would explain it to the whole class. yung pinili kong work is kay IVEE, and yung pumili ng akin is si SON. (syempre kaming magbabarkada ang nagpilian diba?) sayang kasi wala akong dalang cam kanina kaya hindi ko napicturan work ko. (next blog ko nalang promise!) tapos nakakatawa kasi yung pag-eexplain ngmga boys walang kwenta, pero yung sa mga girls naman akala mo DEBUT eh. haha. mala-18 candles ang pagdedeliver ng explanation. tulad nalang ni son, seriously, na-touch ako sa pagkaka-explain nya nung work ko. (next blog nalang. basta masaya, nakkaiyak. :D)

pangatlo, at panghuli. nung feasibility study namin. si JILL! umiyak. :C dahil jan sa "sex toys" na yan! hahaha. ganito kasi yun, groupings kami kanina para mag-brainstorm ng ideas na gagawin namin for our PFS. tapos biglang sumigaw si jill "sex toys" daw. eh kami mga loko-loko binara sya. "weh!" "epal!" "libog mo!" "wag ka dito Christians kami!" (hirit ko yan!) at samu't-sari pa. tapos biglang tumahimik si jill, patuloy parin kami sa pagtawa. LALO NA SI MARGA! nataatwa sya sakin dahil sa tawa ko. (alam naman naten siguro lahat paano ako tumawa diba?) tapos ayaw nya tumigil, hindi rin ako makatigil. tapos ayun tumahimik si jill. nung nag-consult na kami kay ma'am, hinid sumama si jill, tapos syempre hinanap sya ni ma'am, ayun tas nasermonan pa na kung may problema daw sa groupmates, this early palang mag-palit na raw. eh mejo napalakas ata ang announcement at narinig ng whole class. syempre ang 'cabuyao group' (kami yun!) tawa-tawa lang pero mejo napahiya. tas ayun, nung dismissal na, umiyak si jill paglapit sa kanya ni mar-b. kasi daw she felt na sya daw pinariringgan ni ma'am. (aaaaww.) chaka siguro napikon ng onti samin, chaka siguro PMS, chaka siguro may hang-over ng away nila ni kyle. (grabeh! dami ko naisip na dahilan kung bakit ka umiyak.) so ayun. JILL JONSON soreee na. pls.? sige na maganda naman bangs mo eh! *peace*

ayan! isang makulay na araw nanaman sa UST ang lumipas. sa dami ng mga pangyayari, guess what? walang nagtext sakin ni isa! as in wala! kahit advisory ng sun cell wala! hay! napaisip tuloy ako, wag na nga kaya ako mag-globe at mag-cellphone. hihihi. :p

so paano? dito nalang muna ha? babayuu!

Tama Na.. Let Me Move On..

"said it was over and im slowly dealing but deep inside there's this awful pain im feeling.. i wonder when it will end when can love start again.. told myself that you probably need some time and maybe then you would come to change your mind but.. now i know i was wrong guess i gotta be strong.. i gotta move on.. though in time things will heal in my heartbut right now im just falling apart..if i knew that you still love me, i could.. undo the pain i caused and i would take it all away so you'd stay, but its too late for that coz your not coming back .."

emotera nanaman ba ako? i hate it when i'm like this at times. sabi nga ni frank "masaya maging malungkot." pero syempre nakakapagod din maging malungkot. it seems that you've got the whole world at your back. i mean, oo na sige na LOVELIFE nanaman ito. ang babaw noh? eh wala eh, ayan talaga ang kahinaan ko. kumbaga sa superman, kryptonite ko yon. kaazar!

i've decided once and for all (and for good) na i'm gonna move on. because of certain reasons na he hasn't given me enough reasons to stay, i don't know what will happen (if there will be something happening), and medyo nakakapagod narin maghintay when the world is already giving you the reasons to just let it all go and move on. haaay! (naiinis talaga ko sa sarili ko kapag ganito ako kaarte! sorry. post-menstrual syndrome lang po! :D)

i've made a tactic/strategy kung paano ko gagawin ang nasabing "move on/let go". i've made a journal, entitled "forget him in 30 days (or less)". and journal na ito ay pinakatatago-tago ko talaga. bawal may makakita, mamaya mali ang mga teorya ko dun magkamali pa yung makabasa nun. weniwey, bout that journal, so ayun, the goal is to syempre let go within 30 days. so why 30 days? wala! 1 month, and i think that's long enough na to forget your feelings for that someone. syempre ayoko din ng bitter ako sa kanya. kaya nga i'm always praying na "i-cleanse" yung heart ko kasi ayoko maging bitter. kahit na alam ko at nasa ugali kong bitter ako. haaay! chef! so ayun, dapat every day (from day 1 to day 30) dapat may progress ako. for example, nung day 1 ko i erased all my contacts of him, 2nd day i threw away all our pics together. basta mga ganung achechenes. pathetic? oo! sobra! wala eh. i have to deal with this once and for all. ayoko na ng may ganitong "hanging" feeling between us coz i don't want this to interfere with my schoolworks especially my project feasibility study. so i have to sort out things, between me, between us. so ayun! basta chorvah na ang ibang details. alam ko namang itong blog entry na ito ay magiging "public property" kaya i'm keeping somethings nalang for my privacy. hehehe! :D

hay ewan. sorry, stressful the week that was kaya ito ang isa sa mga outlet ko. ang aking blog. (wala pa syang name.) at least when i go to church tomorrow, light-headed na ko at maiintindihan ko ang sermon. hehehe. wala munang mga rain clouds sa utak ko.

so ayun till here muna. pag may problema ulit ako kita-kits. babayuu! :D

All For Chasha.

INSTRUCTIONS:
Use the 1st letter of your name to answer each of the following.
They MUST be real places, names, things.
NOTHING made up! If you can't think of anything, skip it.
Try to use different answers if the person infront of you had the same 1st initial.
And remember - you CAN'T use your name for the boy/girl name question.

Your Name:
Pochay (dapat Melissa / Melai.. etong si Cha Pochay ginamit eh..)

Famous Artist/Band/Musician:
P. Diddy (yuck! ghetto..)

A song:
Pump it Up!

4 letter word:
Pest

Animal:
Parrot

TV Show:
Priends? (haha.. teka isip ako..) Prince of Tennis (pero hindi ako nakakanuod nun..)

Country:
PHILPPINES (mabuhay!)

Boy Name:
Patrick


Girl Name:
Portia

Occupation:
Physician

Celebrity:
Prince William (celeb yan!)

Food:
Pasta

Something found in your kitchen:
Pansandok (hahaha!) Pots of course..

Reason for Being Late:
” Putting make-up and accessories..”

***

Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird habits/things/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end, you need to choose 5 people to be tagged and list their names. No tag backs.

1. I’m almost 16 years old when I had my period.
2. I have a “HAPPY FEET” (yeah!)
3. I have a mole on the corner of my lips. (madaldal.)
4. I have fear of heights.
5. I love writing and receiving letters!
6. I just tasted Mrs. fields cookies 2 days ago. (sa tanan ng buhay ko.)
7. When I was in grade 4 I wrote my mom a letter saying “mommy, lutuan mo ko ng bacon, di pa ko nakaktikim nun sa tanan ng buhay ko.”
8. I like looking in the mirror while crying. (SCQ workshop ito!)
9. I’m VERY boyish during my childhood days.
10. I had my very first boyfriend when I was in grade 4. (ang bata-bata ang landi-landi.)
11. I can be a bitch when I want to, with whoever I want to.
12. I easily fall in love. (aaaawww..)
13. I’m addicted to ‘whitening’ products. (block&white. silka. likas. lahat yan na-try ko na.)
14. I started “blooming” when I was in 3rd year highschool. (rebond. make-up. pluck. shave. lahat na.)
15. I have lots of “best friends” and “better friends”. (weird yan noh! best nga dapat isa lang diba?)

I'm tagging:
1. Jill
2. Irish
3. Ate Les
4. Regina Erica
5. Miko

4 In The Morning. :(

bat ganun? june na ah? bat mejo gloomy ako lately? well well well. ina-atake ata aku ng "senti mode" ko. (sisihin nyo ang DREAMSOUNDS) ayun. pati mejo parang ang gulo-gulo ng utak ko lately. hindi ko na alam kung tama pa ba mga ginagawa ko or hindi na. (hindi tama means i'm stepping on to someone or something.) all i know is that it feels so right at the moment.

first things first. sorry talaga sa sinabi ko syo ha? (you know who you are.) don't worry i have a letter and i'll try na makarating sayo yun. that explains everything. and that will be my final word.

second sayo naman. (ibang tao na toh! alam nya kung sino sya.) oo galit ako sayo. pero hindi ko masabi sayo kasi i don't wanna add up to your problems na and i know kasi na magiging okei din naman tayo IN TIME! kasi ang nakakainis sayo is you are pushing me away. i'm willing to help you naman with what you're going through kaya lang you're shutting me up! bwiset ka! alam mong sobrang concerned ako sayo. and whatever it is na problem mo alam mong labas ako jan? so why put all you're "stress" on me. chong! friend ako, hindi sponge na sasalo sa lahat ng ibubuhos mo. (pero ganun ang friends diba?) hay naku! sana one day you'll realize that you're being unfair. yun lang talaga yung dahilan bat ako galit sayo kaya wag ka na mag-conclude ng kung anu-ano dahil ang lalayo ng mga pinagsasabi mo!

at ang huli sayo. (iba nanaman uli!) kahit na alam mong "stressed out and lost in space" ako ngayon, hindi ka na nakikisabay. oo corny ka, pero sometimes kailangan ko rin pala ng onting kakornihan sa buhay ko para sumaya ng onti noh? kung meron lang akong "hirit counter" na naka-built in sa cellphone ko, siguro maya't maya ang patak nun. anlakas mo eh ha? lahat may connect! hahaha. pero salamat salamat salamat ANNE CURTIS!! (di nyo gets? impossible!) share ko lang, may kanta sya sakin, revised nga lang yung lyrics.

"hindi ko alam, kung bakit ba ganito? ang hirap mong 'contackin' hindi pa sinasagot. hindi mo ba alam, ako'y nilalamok. pero tumatawag para marinig ang boses mo.. mahal kita mahal kita hindi ito bola, sagutin mo lang ang cellphone mo ako'y nasa langit na. mahal kita mahal kita hindi ito joketime, sagutin mo na yung cellphone mo, ok lang?"

funny kasi first time ko binasa yung text yung song na "ewan" agad pumasok sa utak ko, tas yun pala talaga yun. akalain mo nga naman. grabeh! dinaig pa ang mga taong malapit! yeah boi!

okai change topic.

sobrang i'm looking forward na talaga sa pagbalik sa school. i miss 3BA6 so much. (kahit mga peste't malilib*g kayong lahat!) hehehe. they really make college fun! weee. naiiyak na yang mga yan. pati excited na ko sa dancesquad kasi syempre seniors na kami nila labs pati ni besfren! haay! WELCOME JUNIORS! yeah boi! pati, i miss those torture trainings na may accompanied sermons ni dad. hahaha. aaawww.

change topic.

i luuurve gwen stefani lately. okei ang music nya. not too girly girly, not too ghetto, sakto lang. hehehe. and her latest video 4 in the morning? she's really pretty there. as in! sa lahat naman yata pretty sya. and i really luuurve the song. so before i bid my goodbye.. here's 4 in the morning by gwen stefani.. enjoi!!

*minsan ko nang pinangarap maging VJ sa myx!*

Waking up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had its say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts when I think
When I let it sink in
It's all over me
I'm lying here in the dark
I'm watching you sleep, it hurts a lot
& all I know is
You've got to give me everything
Nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

[CHORUS]
I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' in everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don't want to lose the love I've found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don't let me down
It's not fair how you are
I can't be complete, can you give me more?
& all I know is
You got to give me everything
& nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

[CHORUS]
I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' in everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

Oh please, you know what I need
Save all your love up for me
We can't escape the love
Give me everything that you have

& all I know is
You got to give me everything
& nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

[CHORUS]
I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' in everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

(Give you everything)
(Give you all of me)

Wait For You.

yeah yeah yeah boi!! JUNE is here!! *clap clap* "i'm so excited and i just can't hide it..." weeee.. unang araw palang ng june at lalamyerda na agad aku.. "kamusta naman un diba?" *tonong jairus po* hehehe.. it's roni's (my unica hija sa UST..) birthday bash / reunion ng 2-EMID. ansaya saya ngayon pa lang kasi ngayon ko nalang sila uli makikita eh. basta la-la-la happy happy happy!!

isa lang sumira sa araw ko eh. "kailangan pa ba i-memorize yan?" sinu pa? eh di si dakilang FATHER. ewan. araw ata ng pagsigaw nya. eh hindi ako makasigaw eh. (may beke po.) kaya lahat ng talak nya pumapasok sa ulo ko at umiikot dun. hay buhay. why oh why?

but anyway, wala akong paki! JUNE is JUNE!

so kamusta naman ang aking buhay lately? eto parang CINDERELLA. mejo revised version nga lang. nagiging prinsesa ako tuwing alas-12 ng gabi. at tuwing alas-12 ng gabi ako pwede lumabas. at wala akong glass slippers at "prince charming". i have 2 sisters (not evil.) and imbes na nanay ang kontra-bida, sa akin tatay. i have no fairy godmother, but i have GOD. (naks!) at ang istorya ko?? hindi nagsimula sa "once upon a time" at tiyak kong hindi magtatapos sa "and she / they will live happily ever after."

ayoko na maging masyadong bitter kay dad. tama na yung iiyak nalang ako once in a while ng patago. ayaw nila kasi dito sa bahay ng nakakakita ng umiiyak. (lalo na si mom.) kaya its either sa ilalim ng unan, sa terrace, sa kulungan ni twinkle (malaki yun.), or sa CR (habang naliligo) aku umiiyak. nung umuulan nung isang gabi, lumabas ako ng bahay ng walang nakakaalam, naligo ako sa ulan at umiyak. (totoo!) masaya yung feeling na yun. in frank's term nga "masaya maging malungkot." (apir bebe!) so ayun. mejo natatawa nga ako kasi kulang nalang eh sumayaw ako ng ala-USHER at background music ang "BURN". with matching apoy effects on the side. yeah boi!

ganyan talaga ko pag inatake ng ka-senti-han. like the other day. i asked bits to forward some "bitter" quotes. (bakit naman bitter?) ayun. andami sobra sinend. pumutok ata fone ko eh. (joke!) at ayun na-fo-forward ako sa kung kani-kanino. at ang mga reply. "huy. anu prob?" "musta ka? ok ka lang?" "anu nangyari?" haaay. peepz! OVER-ACTING kayo! =p hehehe.

so anyways.. kanina habang wala ako dito umepal si ate les at nag-you tube. may bago syang hinanap na kanta. aba! intro palang at nag-pantig tenga ko. and the title. yes! WAIT FOR YOU by ELLIOT YAMIN. one of the contestants sa American Idol last year daw. so ayun. ansaya nung kanta. kaya eto.. para sa mga bigo, iniwan, nag-e-emo, at nag-iinarte sa buhay na mga lalaki (at pwede din sa babae.) para sa inyo toh.. CHILLAX!!

with that i bid you goodbye..

WAIT FOR YOU by Elliot Yamin

[Verse 1]

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

[Bridge]

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

[Verse 2]

It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

[Bridge]

Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

[Bridge]

So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afriad of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do

[Chorus]

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting.