"said it was over and im slowly dealing but deep inside there's this awful pain im feeling.. i wonder when it will end when can love start again.. told myself that you probably need some time and maybe then you would come to change your mind but.. now i know i was wrong guess i gotta be strong.. i gotta move on.. though in time things will heal in my heartbut right now im just falling apart..if i knew that you still love me, i could.. undo the pain i caused and i would take it all away so you'd stay, but its too late for that coz your not coming back .."
emotera nanaman ba ako? i hate it when i'm like this at times. sabi nga ni frank "masaya maging malungkot." pero syempre nakakapagod din maging malungkot. it seems that you've got the whole world at your back. i mean, oo na sige na LOVELIFE nanaman ito. ang babaw noh? eh wala eh, ayan talaga ang kahinaan ko. kumbaga sa superman, kryptonite ko yon. kaazar!
i've decided once and for all (and for good) na i'm gonna move on. because of certain reasons na he hasn't given me enough reasons to stay, i don't know what will happen (if there will be something happening), and medyo nakakapagod narin maghintay when the world is already giving you the reasons to just let it all go and move on. haaay! (naiinis talaga ko sa sarili ko kapag ganito ako kaarte! sorry. post-menstrual syndrome lang po! :D)
i've made a tactic/strategy kung paano ko gagawin ang nasabing "move on/let go". i've made a journal, entitled "forget him in 30 days (or less)". and journal na ito ay pinakatatago-tago ko talaga. bawal may makakita, mamaya mali ang mga teorya ko dun magkamali pa yung makabasa nun. weniwey, bout that journal, so ayun, the goal is to syempre let go within 30 days. so why 30 days? wala! 1 month, and i think that's long enough na to forget your feelings for that someone. syempre ayoko din ng bitter ako sa kanya. kaya nga i'm always praying na "i-cleanse" yung heart ko kasi ayoko maging bitter. kahit na alam ko at nasa ugali kong bitter ako. haaay! chef! so ayun, dapat every day (from day 1 to day 30) dapat may progress ako. for example, nung day 1 ko i erased all my contacts of him, 2nd day i threw away all our pics together. basta mga ganung achechenes. pathetic? oo! sobra! wala eh. i have to deal with this once and for all. ayoko na ng may ganitong "hanging" feeling between us coz i don't want this to interfere with my schoolworks especially my project feasibility study. so i have to sort out things, between me, between us. so ayun! basta chorvah na ang ibang details. alam ko namang itong blog entry na ito ay magiging "public property" kaya i'm keeping somethings nalang for my privacy. hehehe! :D
hay ewan. sorry, stressful the week that was kaya ito ang isa sa mga outlet ko. ang aking blog. (wala pa syang name.) at least when i go to church tomorrow, light-headed na ko at maiintindihan ko ang sermon. hehehe. wala munang mga rain clouds sa utak ko.
so ayun till here muna. pag may problema ulit ako kita-kits. babayuu! :D
emotera nanaman ba ako? i hate it when i'm like this at times. sabi nga ni frank "masaya maging malungkot." pero syempre nakakapagod din maging malungkot. it seems that you've got the whole world at your back. i mean, oo na sige na LOVELIFE nanaman ito. ang babaw noh? eh wala eh, ayan talaga ang kahinaan ko. kumbaga sa superman, kryptonite ko yon. kaazar!
i've decided once and for all (and for good) na i'm gonna move on. because of certain reasons na he hasn't given me enough reasons to stay, i don't know what will happen (if there will be something happening), and medyo nakakapagod narin maghintay when the world is already giving you the reasons to just let it all go and move on. haaay! (naiinis talaga ko sa sarili ko kapag ganito ako kaarte! sorry. post-menstrual syndrome lang po! :D)
i've made a tactic/strategy kung paano ko gagawin ang nasabing "move on/let go". i've made a journal, entitled "forget him in 30 days (or less)". and journal na ito ay pinakatatago-tago ko talaga. bawal may makakita, mamaya mali ang mga teorya ko dun magkamali pa yung makabasa nun. weniwey, bout that journal, so ayun, the goal is to syempre let go within 30 days. so why 30 days? wala! 1 month, and i think that's long enough na to forget your feelings for that someone. syempre ayoko din ng bitter ako sa kanya. kaya nga i'm always praying na "i-cleanse" yung heart ko kasi ayoko maging bitter. kahit na alam ko at nasa ugali kong bitter ako. haaay! chef! so ayun, dapat every day (from day 1 to day 30) dapat may progress ako. for example, nung day 1 ko i erased all my contacts of him, 2nd day i threw away all our pics together. basta mga ganung achechenes. pathetic? oo! sobra! wala eh. i have to deal with this once and for all. ayoko na ng may ganitong "hanging" feeling between us coz i don't want this to interfere with my schoolworks especially my project feasibility study. so i have to sort out things, between me, between us. so ayun! basta chorvah na ang ibang details. alam ko namang itong blog entry na ito ay magiging "public property" kaya i'm keeping somethings nalang for my privacy. hehehe! :D
hay ewan. sorry, stressful the week that was kaya ito ang isa sa mga outlet ko. ang aking blog. (wala pa syang name.) at least when i go to church tomorrow, light-headed na ko at maiintindihan ko ang sermon. hehehe. wala munang mga rain clouds sa utak ko.
so ayun till here muna. pag may problema ulit ako kita-kits. babayuu! :D
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