Surrender.

6 months has gone since 2011 started, and yet I'm still here, stuck in the very same situation of not knowing where to go. "It's how you step up to the fast-changing world." I remember saying this line to a friend way [waaaaaay] back. And now, come to think of it, how do I step up from this fast-changing world? This is how, I'm gonna back down. Why? Because I'm just too damn tired to fight for what I want. At least now I've come to realize that what I want is not what destiny/life/God/etc. wants for me. This is not the road that I should be taking. [Or so it seems.] I dream of having a stable job, a masteral degree, the 'close-to-perfect' lovelife, through-thick-and-thin friendships, start investing on my own house, etc. and I've been working so hard to achieve all that.. But, its just not happening. [At least some of it doesn't.] I'm still not promoted on my job, I haven't enrolled yet to Graduate School, eeerrmm..., etc. So now, I'm just gonna wave that white flag, scream my heart out "EH DI IKAW NA!!! IKAW NA MAGPATAKBO NG BUHAY KO!!!"

Truth be told, we're only human and we, one way or another, go through this phase in our life when we just give up and surrender everything. I just hope that this time, I'd FULLY surrender everything to Him. Let Him take over my life, and help me accept wherever He leads me, whether its what I want or not. May He give me a new direction to a happier life that I know and I'm very sure of He wants for me. May I fully give my trust to Him and renew my faith in Him and continue to believe that there will be a brighter tomorrow for me, for you, and for all of us.




P.S. Oh yeah! Its my birthday today. Blah. :|