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I really wanted to write something but I just can't. :( Maybe its these days wherein I have a lot to say, but I can't comprehend everything that's happening lately, so when I sit down and think, I get exhausted. And then I just don't want to blog anymore.

Hhhhhhmm.. Days pass by soooo fast! Its the 'ber' months already.. :s Anyway, having said that, I had a random thought..

"Its how you step-up to keep up with the fast-changing world."

Yeah. Random. Till here.

Not Where You Should Be.

Then it happened in the spring, at the time when kings go out to battle, that David sent Joab and his servants with him and all Israel, and they destroyed the sons of Ammon and besieged Rabbah. But David stayed at Jerusalem.

Now when evening came David arose from his bed and walked around on the roof of the king's house, and from the roof he saw a woman bathing; and the woman was very beautiful in appearance. So David sent and inquired about the woman. And one said, "Is this not Bathsheba, the daughter of Eliam, The wife of Uriah the Hittite?" David sent messengers and took her, and when she came to him, he lay with her; and when she had purified herself from her uncleanness, she returned to her house.

- 2 Samuel 11:1-4

David learned the hard way that idleness can bring dangerous temptation. Kings traditionally led their armies into battle. The Bible doesn't tell us why David chose to stay home when he should have been leading his army. For whatever reason, he sent someone else in his place, and he remained at home with little to do. If only he had been where he should have been, doing his job, he would not have come across Bathsheba and committed the sin that would tear apart both their families. David, a man who loved God with all his heart, ended up doing something he would regret for the rest of his life.

You can learn from David's tragic mistake. No matter how strong you think your faith is, you are vulnerable just as David was. If David could commit a horrible sin, so could you. If you find yourself drifting away from the things you know you should be doing -- Bible study, worship, prayer -- understand that you are in great danger. You will fill your time by doing something. As you neglect your Christian life, you'll be tempted to fill the gaps with activity that could bring you enormous heartache. Far better to be where you're supposed to be than to sit idle, an easy target for temptation. Begin today to do the things you know you should be doing. It will save you from regret in the future.

--- Henry & Richard Blackaby

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For weeks I have been "lukewarm" with my everyday devotion. It seems that the message doesn't really get into me, or I just couldn't relate to it. Not until now.

I have this feeling that things in my life are not where they should be right now. [Or maybe I'm just impatient or that I couldn't find contentment on my current situation?]

The title says it all. I think I am not where I should be. Lost. I've decided to take a different route on my faith journey because I felt the need to go out of my comfort zone for me to grow spiritually. That was a big decision I had to do at that time. I've prayed for it, and now here I am. Still Lost, but still standing. I'm in a position wherein I don't know what to do next. But I know that He is just there, guiding me.

Pray for me. I don't have a clue what I'm going through.

Tinatamad na ba ko?

Since August pala dalawa pa lang nagagawa kong blog post. Mukhang lately tinatamad na yata ako mag-update ah? Or masyado lang mabilis ang mga pangyayari, hindi ko na alam paano ko sisimulan isulat? Hehehe.

WORK RANTS.
Nakakasawa na. Paulit-ulit na yung ginagawa. Wala ka namang end goal or end product para ma-quantify mo yung productivity mo. In short, mas nararamdaman ko na yung pagod dahil sa boring na trabaho at ka-trabaho. Kung hindi lang talaga malaki sweldo dito, aalis na ko eh. Pero kahit anu pang sabihin ko, kailangan ko tong trabaho na to. Mapapalo ako sa pwet ng nanay at tatay ko kapag nawalan ako ng trabaho. naging batas na yata sa bahay namin yun na bawal maging "B-U-M" eh. Ayun. May mga kaibigan naman ako dito [Mga 4 siguro sila] pero kahit konti, alam ko namang totoo sila sakin. [At kasing edad ko silang lahat.. Halos.. Maliban sa isa.] At araw-araw sila yung napagsasabihan ko ng "rants" ko sa buhay. Sa pagiging isang "irrelevant" phone operator. Haaaay.

BUME-BAKING LIFE. KUMA-CAR TOWN. TUMI-TWITTER. TUMA-TUMBLR.
Ito ang mga bagay na ginagawa ko para hindi ma-stress [O kaya minsan ito rin yung mga bagay na nagbibigay ng stress sakin. Haha!] at nag-e-enjoy naman ako. Wala naman akong ibang option since tapos ko na halos lahat ng TV series na pina-DL ko kay Louis. Basta, sobrang active ng accounts ko lately. Hahaha. At dahil yun sa B-O-R-E-D ako dito.

ANTUKIN.
Sino bang hindi? Lagi na lang akong inaantok. [Or tinatamad. Minsan sabay sila diba?] Kahit na matagal naman yung tulog ko, inaantok parin ako. Lalo na siguro kung kulang sa tulog. Habang tina-type ko tong post na to, inaantok ako. Kaya nga sobrang random nalang ng pinagsasasabi ko eh. May ma-i-blog lang. ZZzzZZzz..

PATULOY NA PAGSUNOG NG KAHAPON.
Hindi na ko matapos-tapos sa kakaligpit ng mga 'gamit' ko sa kwarto. [Partida, sa kwarto pa lang yun.] May pagka-'sentimental' kasi ako when it comes to 'stuffs' kaya minsan mahirap talaga magtapon nalang ng basta-basta, pero ngayon.. HINDI NA! Hahaha. Hindi na makahinga yung kwarto namin sa dami ng 'abubot' [As what Mom calls it.] naming magkakapatid kaya nga ako na ang nangunguna sa pagtatapon. Wala nang 'second thoughts'. Basta pag di na kailangan.. TAPON! At yung mga bagay na wala nang halaga sa kasalukuyan.. TAPON! Hahaha. Sarap ng feeling! After ko maglinis, biglang naging maaliwalas ang mga gamit ko [Although madami parin sila.] at lumuwag ang space ko sa study table namin. Ayun lang. Kayo din. Try nyo magligpit ng mga gamit nyo. Tapos sunugin nyo yung hindi na kailangan. Tapos tumawa din kayo ng parang kontrabida. Mwahahaha! Ü

STAMPED PASSPORT.
Since I got my passport, I couldn't help but wonder where will my nxt destination will be. Of course mas mahirap magpaalam kay Mom since ibang usapan na 'to, ibang bansa na 'to eh. And I haven't got any credit card kaya mahirap din magbook online sakaling may maabutan akong seat sale. Haaaay. I badly want to go to SG or HKG sana [Suntok sa buwan] within the year. Ü Or if not, sige kahit early next year. Ü Kasi naman, tong mga kapatid ko, ayaw ma-excite maigi, puro plano lang. Tsk! Sa mga ganitong pagkakataon gusto ko sana ako nalang yung panganay na anak! Hehehe. Ü Basta, matatatakan din yung passport ko. Ü

I WILL TRY TO BE SOBER.
Yan ang isa sa mga random thoughts ko kaninang idle time ko dito sa office. Lately nga hindi na ko nakakainom, at hindi ko rin hinahanap to. Madalas din na kapag may inuman ay konti lang din naman yung naiinom ko and the rest, puro kain at kwento na lang. Ü SIguro kaya ko naman gawin 'to eh. [Hindi nalang ako aattend ng party kapag may SOBERCLUB, that I can't resist!] And there's no harm in trying naman diba? Makikisama at makikitawa nalang ako sa mga inuman sessions, and of course magpipicture! Hahaha. Kaya ko 'to! Ako pa! Pag ginusto kong tumigil nagagawa ko eh! Hahaha. Ü [Para din hindi na lumaki ang 'bilbil' ko at makabalik na ko sa pagbubuhat! Ü

So.. Dito nalang muna. Naubusan na ko ng sasabihin. Sumakit na ulo ko. Sa susunod ulit. Ü

PANDA LOVIN'!

The "Panda Head" made my day! ♥

Here's the story:

Car Show. World Trade Center.

Naglalakad kami ni Kuya Jason, then I saw a Van of DFM Mini Auto. Nakita ko agad yung ulo ng panda, tapos may kuya na nagsusuot na ng costume. [Nasa sapatos pa lang sya.] Tapos sabi ko "Kuya! Ang cute ng panda! Gusto ko picturan!" Pero dahil nagdadalawang isip ako, pabalik-balik ako dun sa van. At nung hindi na ko nakatiis, ginamitan ko na ng 'charms' si kuya. "Kuya, Pwede po bang picturan yung panda?" Tapos dapat magsusuot sya ng complete costume pero sabi ko kahit ulo nalang. So nagpose sya. Tapos tinodo ko na ang 'charms' ko. "Kuya, pwede ko ba hiramin?" Tapos pinahiram ni kuya! Taaaadaaaah! Ü


And after that, binigyan pa nya kami ni Kuya Jason ng freebie. O-ha! Ü

Fun Times for Fridays! Ü Happy Weekend! Ü

Talamahi is ♥♥♥ !! [PhotoBlog]

** THE COMPLETE CAST.
[L-R: Arnold, Ariel, Jeff, Sanoelk, Louis, Mikel, Virma, Abhie, Clark, Bamba, Kat, and Me.

** C-O-U-T-U-R-E!! Ü

** Out of 400++, this is the ONLY photo of me. As in! If it weren't for Bamba, I wouldn't have anything at all.

** Counseling Session for Ariel and his rehabilitation. Haha! Ü

** Leveling! Ü

** We just have to have a photo in every corner of the resort. Ü

** Oh how we love that 'frame' with the orange background. I think its a bed without a mattress, but who cares? WE LOVE IT! ♥

** Photo before we leave Talamahi. [Minus Mikel.]

** This will be forever in my heart. ♥ I LOVE YOU BENNYs! Ü

© Talamahi. San Diego, Lian, Batangas
July 31 - August 1, 2010