3rd - "Dance. Drink. Die."

Still Sleepy. 5th day of my Zombie mode. 0_o

I was late for my class and miss almost half of the morning session. I still manage to jot down some notes though. We had lunch at Max's, and my classmates were pretending that it was my "Birthday Treat". [Asa!] It was also the first time that my "crush" from the class talked to me. [After that, he wasn't my crush anymore, close na kami eh! Haha! Ü] The afternoon session was a lot of fun. Our assignments were the entries for the in-class contest that has 2 categories. I don't want to go through the details but it was fun. Also, 4 of our professors were the judges so it was S-C-A-R-Y! And so that's it. Ü

After that I went home to prepare for my Pre-Birthday Bash with my friends from Starbucks. Of course, it was raining, but that didin't stop us from having a hard rockin' party that night. LAX was SUPERB! ♥ Non-stop dancing with my little black dress on. We definiely had a great time. I missed clubbing so much.. The way people dress up, the shimmering eyeshadows, the bling-blings, the loud RnB music, the flashing lights, the bumping-grinding-flirting on the dance floor.. [Not me! Ü] I MISSED EVERYTHING! It nice to just look around every once in a while. Ü

I really can't stand SanMig Strong Ice. But we have no other choice that night so I have to bear with them. Aside from the fact that I don't like it that much, It also doesn't go well with a Vodka Cruiser. 5 SM + 2 Vodka Cruiser = Sober. It was a major headache! X_X [But it was fun. The last time I was THIS drunk... Hmm... Can't remember! Hahaha! Ü] Shot till we drop!

I got home safe. But the ride home was unexplainable. I asked the driver to turn off the aircon and put the windows down for a while because I might blow up. Luckily, I didn't. As I entered the house, that's when I did it. And then I PASSED OUT. X_X

This is how you party! Happy Birthday Melai! ♥

"Patrones on the rocks and I'm ready for some shots! Let's go! Ü"

2 days to go.. ♥

4th - "Usher.. Uhhhsaaaah!"

Petiks Friday at the office. Again. A lot of people are already greeting me a "Happy Birthday". [Pfft! How can it be happy when I HAVE TO FREAKING WORK ON MY BIRTHDAY! Birthday Leave not granted.]

THIS IS IT! Its Usher's concert here in Manila, and I don't have tickets. :( I feel really really REALLY sad because I won't get to see him perform. To think that I have come to know this concert 3 months before hand, and I did plan to buy a GOLD ticket. [Yeah, that's how much I want to see him perform!] Well, I got over it actually. But then I can't help myself say 'Saaaayaaaang' and then imagine his abs! Hahaha! I also get to see his playlist for the concert, and most of my beloved Usher break-up songs aren't on the list. Oh well. I was in MOA around 9pm [To print my assingments.] and I was really really tempted to go to the concert grounds just to "hear" him perform, but just as I was walking, i turned around and decided not to. It would really break my heart [Even more.] by being there and not actually "being there". Big diferrence. Anyway, I'm just hoping that he'll be back here in Manila.. He will be back.. Please come back? [And take your shirt off if you do! Hahaha! Ü] And I swear I'll be there.. WHATEVER IT TAKES! Ü

So, there. My July 9th was just spent daydreaming about Usher's washboard abs. Ü

"I'm your girl. And you're my man. Promise to love you the best I can. ♥"

3 days to go.. ♥

5th - "Photography Is Not An Easy Task. :("

Boring day at the office. Hapontukin. Zzzzz..

I just watched the second half of the first season of Glee. Oo na, ngayon lang. Loser, I know. But anyway, at least I get to watch it continuously. And I really enjoyed it. The episodes always have a good ending. Touching. ^___^

Anyway..

Its been 3 days since I started doing my last assignment for my Photog Class and haven't got enough sleep. [And I have pimples as a proof of that!] Luckily I have a very very VERY dependable friend to help me out [Kahit may migraine. Thanks Cuz! ♥] and very very VERY patient models [Thank You Kuya Jet and Virma! ♥] that's why I'm able to do it "almost" succesfully. Ü I'm having fun taking photos for my assignments but I'm lazy to have my effort go all the way. I mean, when there's a need to change lenses to have better perspective of the photo, I would rather move around and use my "foot zoom" than to change lenses. Its silly kasi lumalabas ang pagkatamad ko, partida gusto ko na yung ginagawa ko. Hahaha! But anyway, I'm hoping to be "masipag" at it, in time. Ü For now, learning the basics and putting it into practice is what matters to me most. Naks! Ü

Tired. Sleepy. Exhausted. But loving every minute of it. ♥

Haven't got anything else to say. Till here.

4 days to go.. ♥

6th - "End Of The Line."

I am sleepy. Since I got here at the office, can't help but think of my bed and cuddle up in my pillows. Yes, I am THAT sleepy.

IT'S RAINING! I guess that's a sign that MY birthday is coming up. Well, I do hope it won't rain that hard on my birthday. [Not that I have any plans though.] Shucks! 5 more days and I'll be 23 already. :s

Randome Song Syndrome - "End of the Line" by Honeyz. I don't know when it began but I keep on singing it and humming the parts that I can't remember. I googled the lyrics and.. POOF! Isa na lang nasabi ko.. "SAKTO!" Ü

Kwento ko pa ba? Wag na! Hahaha! Ü Basta, kung pwede lang mag-associate ng isang kanta sa bawat pangyayari sa buhay, ito na yun malamang para sa episode ng buhay ko "lately". Hahaha! Joooke! Hindi ako emo. Basta. Ü

I can't find anything else to say so I'll just have to cut this short. Napansin ko lang kasi na kapag gabi dun gumaganda araw ko eh. yung tipong wala na ko sa office. Hahaha! Ü Basta, dito nalang muna.

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All alone I wait for you, as darkness fills this room; I don't know why you ain't called. Little things you used to do, they're no longer part of you; seems you left them all behind. Well I can't believe what I'm going through, this thing it just ain't right. Your selfish ways, how you carry on; some things you just can't hide.

If you want me to go, then say it. If you want me to stay, then show it. Don't be afraid to break this heart of mine. Now's the time, if I'm right, then we've come to the end of the line.

Seems like I can't do you right; all I do or say is wrong. All the smallest thing criticized. I deserve some damn respect; nothing more and nothing less. Don't pretend everything's fine. Don't hold it back if it's in your heart; stand up and be a man. Can't read your mind, so just say it aloud. I'm trying to understand.

If you want me to go, then say it. If you want me to stay, then show it. Don't be afraid to break this heart of mine. Now's the time, if I'm right, then we've come to the end of the line.

Even though you've been doing me wrong I still care. Do you think that by treating me cruel that somehow I'll disappear? I love you too much just to walk away. Don't make me hate you; you've got to be straight.

If you want me to go, then say it. If you want me to stay, then show it. Don't be afraid to break this heart of mine. Now's the time, if I'm right, then we've come to the end of the line.

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5 days to go.. ♥

7th - "Ignoring Method - A Way To Move On?"

IGNORING METHOD - Or often called SILENT TREATMENT [an aloof refusal to speak to someone you know]

What Are You Saying By Not Saying Anything At All

Probably at one time or another you have been either on the giving or receiving end of a silent treatment, otherwise known as the cold shoulder. What you probably didn’t realize is that the silent treatment is a form of ostracism. When someone is ostracized it affects the part of their brain called the anterior cingulate cortex. Do you know what the anterior cingulate cortex does?

The anterior cingulate cortex is the part of the brain that detects pain. When you give someone the silent treatment you are causing that person physical pain. Simply by ignoring someone else’s existence you can inflict pain on them. This is what the ever popular “time out” with a child is so effective. The child feels ostracized, therefore is feeling pain even though no physical pain was inflicted on them, and therefor they want to behave so they don’t have to feel that way again.

The silent treatment can be a very destructive behavior when it involves personal relationships. Let’s say with a husband and wife for instance. The silent treatment breeds bitterness on both ends and it borders on emotional abuse… I’m not making that up to be dramatic. That’s what “they” say.

Cooling Off And Ostracizing Are Two Very Different Things

Let’s not confuse the silent treatment with something known as “the cooling off period”. The cooling off period is where one person is so angry or disgusted by the other person that they just cannot deal with the situation in that state need time to calm down before they begin to speak to this person. That’s fine and actually that’s probably better than sitting and screaming at each other.

There is a big difference between taking some time to cool down and outright ignoring the existence of the other person. The silent treatment would be more along the lines of you doing something that pisses someone off, they clue you in on it (or not), and then they don’t speak to you, acknowledge you or even make eye contact with you for sometimes days. No good.

To me, this is a form of torture. Nothing positive comes from this type of behavior. What makes more sense…blowing up about something, cooling off a little and then talking about how to resolve it OR not blowing up about something, staying completely pissed and not doing anything to help resolve the situation? If you said the latter… you’re a dick.

When someone is administering the silent treatment they are trying to show that they are dominant over you. The silent treatment (when it becomes a mutual one) is a power struggle in pain tolerance…whomever the winner is, cares less.

When You Are On The Receiving End Of The Silent Treatment

It’s interesting to me that research has shown that woman and men respond to the silent treatment very differently. Woman who are on the receiving end of the silent treatment seem to try anything in their power to win back their good grace with the ostracize where men…don’t. They just deal with it.

But what exactly are the men just dealing with and the woman trying to avoid? The emotional pain associated with being ostracized. Those who have been treated to the silent treatment have reported as sense of loss, of not belonging, of lower self-esteem and a feeling of unworthiness. All of these feelings are the result of someone just not acknowledging them or ignoring them. I find that pretty interesting.


Source: http://www.kensavage.com/archives/silent-treatment/


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Just WOW. I'm so much enlightened with what I've read. [And guilty as well. Ü]

I partly agree with what the article said, about the "cold shoulder" inflicting pain to another person. Yeah! It kind of hit me right here. [Sa dibdib. Haha! Ü] I didn't know how serious this is until after reading it. Well, all I can say is.. "NEED I SAY MORE?" Hahaha! Ü Yun na lahat yun eh, may maidadagdag pa ba ko?

Waaiitt! Just a thought.. Ignoring a person is different from ignoring a feeling, right? What if that person is the one who 'triggers' the feeling that you would like to 'ignore'? Will you also ignore him/her? I don't know. I guess every situation calls for different measures.

I admit, I have been doing this "Silent Treatment" for a long time now. Actually, it became my 'defense mechanism' whenever I am mad/pissed/annoyed with someone/something. I just don't want to talk to the person right then and there because I might say something that I'll regret. And also, I try to be calm and maintain composure [Which I am not successful at times.] when 'conflict' arises. I just don't like the thought of confrontations when both sides are 'hot-headed' and not thinking straight. I just wait till the feeling shrug off, then, medyo ok na ulit ako. "Ako na yung lumalayo sa gulo para wala nang gulo." And I don't think there's anything wrong with that.. Until now.

I realized that it's a lot harder when you the 'receiving end' of this "treatment". You don't know what's going on, but you sure know that something's wrong. You just have to go along with what's happening, after all, there's nothing you can do to fix it. It just feels sad to be ignored [Although I am ignoring a lot of people right now. Sorry!] and I think that this article is an eye-opener for me.

Madami pa sana ako gusto sabihin kaya lang hindi ko na maisip kung paano isusulat eh. Napa-Tagalog na nga ako sa kakaisip eh. Haha! Ü Anyway, these are just my opinions, and you don't have to agree with it. {Pero if you agree, ayos! Ü]

So I have to cut this short already, I haven't finished reading the notes for my assignment later. Till here. :)

PS: Kaya ikaw, alam na alam ko yang ginagawa mo.. Dahil ginagawa ko rin yan.. But don't worry, you need not justify it. People just vary on ways on coping up, or in this case, moving on. One thing though, I just thought you'd be different.. That's all..

PPS: Comment ka Aica ah? :)

6 days to go.. ♥