Lines.

adventure packed ang naging araw ko ngayon. masaya, kwela, nakakainit ng ulo, exciting, nakakakaba, nakakapagod at nakakaubos ng pera.

first time ko ngayong bibili ng ticket para sa isang concert/event (kasi lagi akong "complimentary" ticket eh c/o my sources! c;) at it was truly a memorable one! 9am asa araneta na kami ng mga blockmates ko dahil expected namin na maraming tao, pero pagdating dun, aba! soooooper sa dami naman! parang rally sa edsa! holy smokes! pero sa dahil desidido na kami manood fight na! 2 hours na kami nakapila, biglang sabi ng guard sold out na raw tickets kaya transfer nalang kami sa ibang gate. dun nagsimula maghisterical ang grupo. parang mga asong inagawan ng buto. eh di mega-running kami to the other side of the dome para makabili ng tickets, pagdating dun sooooper gulo ng pila. mga taga UP pa majority. akala mo talaga mga rally-ista murahan dito, murahan dun. sakit sa bangs! at yung isang guy hindi napigilan ang temper at inaway na yung guard. eh yung kups na guard napikon na kaya ayun! instant show! sapakan sila dun. palakpak lang kami sa gilid. then came the "biker boys" to the rescue, mega awat ang mga mokong. (biker boys=mga guards din ng araneta, may helmet at naka cycling shorts) tapos ang nagyari dinisolve nanaman for the second time around once more ang pila namin. aba! lokong toh! bumababa na welfare namin kakapila! so this time ginawa namin ang plan B. major singit! singit na kami sa kabilang ticket outlet, patayan sa baho ang crowd na yun, hindi ko kinaya at lumabas ako. luckily, may dumaan na taga NU at nag-offer ng ticket, eh di binili ko na. 40 pesos para sa gen ad, di na masama un! eh di 13 na LANG problema naming ticket. yung mga boys nakikipagpatayan sa pila, mga girls nanghahanting ng scalper. so another 3 hours kaming ganun! awa ni papa GOD nakabili na kaming lahat ng ticket, nung papasok na kami, ang saya ng feeling. parang ayaw ko ipapunit sa guard yung ticket ko. pero ayun na. tapos asa loob na kami. ansaya! syempre panalo UST, pero di ko feel! mas gusto ko UP! at FEU. at UE. end of story 1.

after the competition punta kami gateway. (first time ko kaya humalik ako sa lupa!) soooobrang gusto ko na mag-CR kaya yun ang una naming ginawa. pagdating dun, taka ako ang daming nakapilang girls. LINTEK! PILA NANAMAN! at sosyal ang CR sa gateway, may bayad. 10 pesos! pero i really need to go kaya di na ko nagkuripot. ayos naman ang 10 pesos, sulit! instant ayos! after nun, kain na kami. pagdating sa food court LINTEK! PILA NANAMAN! ayoko na! pero dahil gutom na gutom na ko pinilit ko nang pumila. after kumain lumibot lang kami sa buong area ng araneta. bonding moments! hehehe. tapos nung napagod na umuwi na kami. end of story 2.

pumunta na kami sa mrt station para umuwi, at pagbili pa lang ng cards LINTEK! PILA NANAMAN! hay buhay! umikot na araw ko sa pila. pero dahil kailangan nang umuwi pila parin kami. at pag-akyat sa sakayan nung train, ANLUFET! andaming tao. kala mo may extension nung competition dahil makikita mo sa mga hawak na banners ang 8 schools ng UAAP! bwiset talaga! 9pm na nun ah? pero wala na kong magagawa, pila kung pila.

pag-uwi ko, nag-internet na ko agad (buti walang pila dahil di nag-iinternet si ate kat!) tapos nag-post ng entry. tapos naalala ko TESTIMONY OF FAITH ko bukas. waaaah! kaya sige babay muna because duty calls. till here.

Drama Much.

why is this sudden feeling of sadness in me? recently i have been having the time of my teenage life, but now this? why the sudden change? what's come over me? why am i feeling this way? so many questions but the answers seem hard to find. i'm so confused. i'm trying my best to clear out my mind but all of those things keep rushing back to me. you may be wondering by now what the heck am i talking about. well honestly, i don't really know! every night, i can't help but cry myself to sleep. why? because of the things that has been happening to me lately. i can no longer pretend that everything is okay when the fact is it's not! well if you're thinking that this has got to do with my so-called love life, you're right! but it's not just about it. lately i've been hanging with my new "circle of friends" and i'm definitely enjoying it. it's so easy to be myself whenever i'm aroud them, i don't need to pretend or anything, i just have to be myself. i can comfortably talk to them about aything anytime i want. then my other friend told me that i've changed, that i no longer join them and that i've been a little cold to them. honestly, i'm not aware of what she's saying! what does she want me to do? hang with the group of "couples" and look like the odd one out? duh! i don't think so! of course i myself need a "sense of belonging". that's why lately i've been avoiding them, but not totally! that's one of my dilemmas! another is of course my "father"! i don't really know what's going on inside his head that makes him want to shout all the time. andropose? i don't think so! it's just that whenever he asks for a favor it would be in a VERY VERY annoying manner. and then he would go ballistic and shout if someone does wrong! "what a man, sarap tadyakan!" anyway, i think he would not change his attitude that's why we really have to have lots of PATIENCE and UNDERSTANDING! (how am i gonna do that?)

and the thing that really bugs me lately is of course my so-called love life! oh i mean like life. it's just that, this time it's different. i've never felt this way since "raefel" pa! i know i should never expect something, but what if his actions are telling it? but he makes it clear that we're just friends! and whenever i don't feel like talking to him, it will really bother him! i just can't get it out of my head (kylie minouge?). everytime i'm alone, all that i think about is him, us, and everything else. gosh! i feel so desperate! why? just why the heck am i like this? why is it affecting me this way? i know i sound STUPID to you, but this is me. sometimes i can be like this. (and in times like this i really don't like myself.) i don't want to fall for him cause i know that it will not be that easy, but then why am i like this? a night would never pass without me thinking about him. grrrrrr! well then, i think i should end this crap. it's going nowhere. till here.

Going Crazy.

ever since the day you went away and left me lonely and cold
my life just hasn't been the same ohh baby
when I looked into your eyes the moment that I let you go
i just broke down

baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice
coz the feeling that I feel within
no other man would ever make me feel so right
its nice to smile when I get your phone call at night
but I'd rather have you here with me, right next to me
i miss the way you hold me tight

i gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
i never thought that I could ever love a man so much
i gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
for you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything

thats right baby I'm going crazy
i need to be your lady
i've been thinking lately
that you and me, yes we can make it
just ride with me, roll with me I'm in love with you baby

break it down now I'll tell you what I feel
from the moment that I met you its been so damn real
my heart seems to skip another beat
every time we speak, I can't believe I feel so weak
tell me that you really need me and you want me and you miss me
and you love me I'm your lady
i'll be around waiting for you I'll put it down be the woman for you

i'm falling so deep for you crazy over for you
i`m calling, calling out to you what am I going to do?
it's true, no fronting
its you and no other i can no longer go on without you
i'll just break down

i gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
i never thought that I could ever love a man so much
i gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
for you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything

thats right baby I'm going crazy
i need to be your lady
i've been thinking lately
that you and me, yes we can make it
just ride with me, roll with me I'm in love with you baby

Am I "In-Like"?

waaaaah! at last tapos na ang prelims/katay week namin! todo sa tibok yung utak ko. ang hirap ng mga exams. DEBIT MINUS CREDIT EQUALS KUPIT! nakakainis talaga yang accounting na yan. 64/100 lang ako. bad trip. pero ayos lang, bawi nalang. yun nalang naman magagawa ko eh.

tapos na ang prelims at tapos narin ang "bakasyon grande" ko sa mcdo. balik work nanaman, pero this time mas okei na. nakakaiwas na sa chismis. at wala nang nangaaway sakin kasi may mga kakampi nako. hehehe. (LOVE YOU SHUSHEYN!). kailangan ko narin ulit magduty ng magduty dahil naghihingalo na yung atm ko. 2 thaw nalang laman nya. paktay ako kay ina!

nakapunta na ko SM SAN LAZARO. hehehe. naging tambayan namin yun nung prelim week. ansaya as in. ngayon ko lang naka-bonding yung mga blockmates ko ng ganun. supe saya talaga. ang mas masaya pa dun, hindi ka naglalabas ng pera pero nakakakain ka at nakakanood ng sine at nakakalaro sa quantum. hahahaha. (SALAMAT PAPA JAY!)

ever heard the line "i think i'm in-"like"? hindi pa oo! syempre original ako eh! eh kasi i think i'm in-like talaga. matinding crush lang naman. nakakainis yung feeling, hindi naman ako dapat magselos pero nagseselos ako. (baklang-bakla eh noh?) basta ganun. hindi sya cute or pogi. basta may "something" sa ugali nya na nagustuhan ko. kaya nga crush eh diba? hahaha.

oh sige dito nalang! byebye muna for now.

If You'd Still Go I'll Understand..

"go think about it cause we only have one shot at destiny, all i'm asking is it possible for you and me.."

haller peepz! another rainy day. wala nanaman kaming pasok. urat na urat nako kakaaral ng theology at accounting ng sabay. and worse "AYAW MATUYO NG MGA SINAMPAY KO DAHIL SA ULAN! AMPHF!"

habang tumatagal narerealize ko na mahirap pala talaga ang "college life". oo mas masaya sya sa highschool, pero doble naman ang sakit sa ulo ng mga school works. kapag dumadating yung time na hirap na hirap nako napapasigaw nalang ako eh. "DING! ANG BATOOOOO!"

nakakamiss mag-update ng blog. di tulad dati halos araw-araw akong may post. ngayon? asa ka pa! tumalon ka na pag-updated yung blog ko! (haha!) pero maraming salamat sa mga taong (mga fans!) patuloy na tumatangkilik ng mga olats kong post. "inspirasyon" ko kayong lahat para mas gumawa ng mas makabuluhang entry! (WOO-HOO! THANK YOU ARANETA!)

oh ano? gusto nyo na bang malaman yung mga nangyari nung mga nakaraang araw? KISS MUNA! haha. oh sige eto na.

FRIDAY

i woke up at 5am kasi may surprise party kami for our friend sa QC. 7am call time, since galing pa ko ng paco lugi nanaman ako. ayun, okei naman ang naganap na "breakfast party", naiyak sya. (ako rin naiyak kasi ako nag-organize nun eh, sakin tuloy yung stress!) after nun nag-inuman sila (sila lang di ako nakisali!) kasi 1pm pa naman class namin eh. so ang kinalabasan, pumasok silang "basag". tawa ng tawa kahit walang nakakatawa. PATHETIC!
SATURDAY

NO CLASSES! pero parang may pasok din kasi pumunta ako ng recto para mag-pa-edit ng MTV namin (shala!) 12 pm ako umalis ng bahay at 9pm nako nakabalik, meaning ang isang buong araw ko ay nalustay sa harap ng monitor. hmpf!

SUNDAY

(habang nag-be-breakfast)

kuya noel: kamusta na kayo ni dalo?
pochay: ha? anong kami? wala namang kami ah?
kuya titus: ah talaga wala?
pochay: wala noh! nuh ba kayo! dalo oh..
pochay: ikaw kuya noel kamusta na kayo?

(kuya noel biglang napayuko)

kuya titus: wala! kakakiskis ng dalawang stick nasobrahan yung spark! binuhusan tuloy ng tubig, ayun nawala!
pochay: hahahahahahahahahaha.

natawa lang ako sa sinabi ni kuya titus pero napaisip ako. joke ba yun o may realidad sa likod ng mga salitang yun? hmmm. naisip ko kasi ganun ganun nalang ba yun? biglaan nalang kung mawala? maganda na yung nasimulan tapos di-maganda yung pagtatapos? di naman yata pwede yun!

maraming mag-"juwa" ngayon na akala mo pari nalang ang kulang ay kasal na sila. yung mga ganung tipo talaga yung gusto kong buhusan ng tubig eh para magising sa katotohanan! kainis! P.D.A. pa! parang yung mag-"juwa" na katabi ko ngayon sa computer shop! eche! pak shirt!

nakita ko yung lumang autograph book ko kanina, nabasa ko yung mga definition dun ng "love". ito mga sample:

"love is like a rosary that is full of mystery."
"love is blind."
"love is 100% headache."
"love is a four-letter word."
"love makes the world go round."
"love is like a bubblegum that sticks to your heart."

sa lahat ng 'toh WALANG TOTOO eh! mga ignoranteng bata talaga! dapat ang love ihahambing mo sa ASO! aso as in DOG! bakit kamo? kasi ang as tatahi-tahimik lang yan pero di mo lang alam mahal ka rin nyan! (weh! korni na!)

kaya ikaw kuya noel, mahal ka rin nun! ASO sya diba? at syempre mahal na mahal ng mga aso ang "BUTO" diba? kaya no doubt about it! mahal ka nun! "go think about it cause you only have one shot at destiny, all you have to ask, is it possible for YOU and HER..."

nakanangtuts! akalain mong sayo pala matutuun ang post ko ngayon? haha. sige dito nalang muna peepz! review pa ko for prelims. (masipag na bata!) ciao! c;