Halluu blog world. It's been so long [As if there are constant readers of this blog.] since my last post, I think. Anyway, I'm back, and I changed my URL. Why? Because I can! And because I forgot my old URL. Haha! I don't know, the past two months we're kinda hectic and I didn't get the chance to really write it down.. And my new URL.. MELAIKINDABLOGS. As in Melai kinda blogs. Gets? I'm not a real blogger [If according to the definition of the social-cyberworld] but I am fond of writing my random blahs and constant rants and occasional 'E'-pisodes. Anyway..
UPDATES. UPDATES. UPDATES.
REPENT. RECEIVE. REDEEMED.
I just got back from Youth Camp. It was indeed a very fulfilling activity since a lot participated and a lot were blessed and touched by the Holy Spirit. [A whooping 106 campers and 29 counselors and staff] Words aren't enough to describe it. I was just amazed on how God [again] worked throughout the camp. ANG GALING! Ü Of course, I was also happy because He again used me to share His words to those young people. New faces, new found friends, better & deeper friendships, resolved issues, renewed life, clean heart, FUN, FUN and FUN. Truly one memorable camp. :)
SETTING THINGS STRAIGHT.
For the two weeks I've been contemplating on things and about the "future". I did a lot of thinking, arguing with myself, justifying things with my biased self, etc. BUT, as what people always say, right decisions are not always the happy ones. So even if it breaks my heart, I have to make those decisions [even if I'm half-hearted.] in order to set things straight and be right. These have burdened me for the past months, and now, by doing this, I can't really say that the burden is lifted out on me, but I know that everything will be right again, one by one. [I just hope that the people that I've hurt along the way would come to understand me in time. After all, this isn't just or me. It's for the benefit of all. I think?]
KEEPING IT TOGETHER.
So yeah. I am once again back to square one. But I know this time I'll manage to keep it together, I just have to keep myself super busy to avoid "idle moments". It'll be the whole coping up process again. Reliving the hurt and pain again. And going through it again for the Nth time. Gaaaaaaah! I don't know anymore what to think or how to feel. I guess I'll just let myself rest for now. And just watch how things will go from here. And hoping that all will go well..
UPDATES. UPDATES. UPDATES.
REPENT. RECEIVE. REDEEMED.
I just got back from Youth Camp. It was indeed a very fulfilling activity since a lot participated and a lot were blessed and touched by the Holy Spirit. [A whooping 106 campers and 29 counselors and staff] Words aren't enough to describe it. I was just amazed on how God [again] worked throughout the camp. ANG GALING! Ü Of course, I was also happy because He again used me to share His words to those young people. New faces, new found friends, better & deeper friendships, resolved issues, renewed life, clean heart, FUN, FUN and FUN. Truly one memorable camp. :)
SETTING THINGS STRAIGHT.
For the two weeks I've been contemplating on things and about the "future". I did a lot of thinking, arguing with myself, justifying things with my biased self, etc. BUT, as what people always say, right decisions are not always the happy ones. So even if it breaks my heart, I have to make those decisions [even if I'm half-hearted.] in order to set things straight and be right. These have burdened me for the past months, and now, by doing this, I can't really say that the burden is lifted out on me, but I know that everything will be right again, one by one. [I just hope that the people that I've hurt along the way would come to understand me in time. After all, this isn't just or me. It's for the benefit of all. I think?]
KEEPING IT TOGETHER.
So yeah. I am once again back to square one. But I know this time I'll manage to keep it together, I just have to keep myself super busy to avoid "idle moments". It'll be the whole coping up process again. Reliving the hurt and pain again. And going through it again for the Nth time. Gaaaaaaah! I don't know anymore what to think or how to feel. I guess I'll just let myself rest for now. And just watch how things will go from here. And hoping that all will go well..
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