Prayer.

Take this pain away, I can no longer take it. I SWEAR! One more day with it, I think my heart will explode. Seriously, THIS. IS. TOO. MUCH. TO. BEAR. What did I ever do to deserve this? This question's been on my mind for a while now. And I haven't found the answer yet. Maybe this, maybe that, but who really knows? All I know is that you have a purpose why these things are happening now.

I'm sorry for being impatient. My agony is killing me. Yes, I am afraid of not knowing what lies ahead. I can't think straight because I am clouded by my emotions. But please, help me on this one. I am weak. And I easily give in to my weakness, thus making me more vulnerable than I already am.

I'm sorry that I make decision when I'm mad. I let my anger take hold of me. I don't like myself when I'm like this. Make it stop. Don't let me do things that I know I will later regret. Help me set things right, even for myself. Guide me through my decisions. Help me remember that that the RIGHT decision isn't always the HAPPY decision. Make me understand that things happens for a reason, and circumstances are meant to give us a lesson.

Fill me with love once again, so I can give love to other as well. Forgive my from my shortcomings, so that I can forgive myself as well, and free me from this guilt. Everything is in your hands now. I surrender you this fight. I CAN'T DO IT ANYMORE. =((