last august 12 was the most sincere and honest conversation i've had with him. he cried, i cried, a lot. it wasn't an easy thing to do, knowing that the truth really hurts. but im thankful for all that's been said and done that day. it really opened my heart to finally just accept the fact and to let it go.
we've decided to start it all over, and just let time decide on how things will work out. it may or may not be in my favor, but who cares? at least we've tried to fix where we've started, and that is on being the best of friends. after all, i know (and i now believe) that God has a better plan that what i've already pictured in my mind. surrendering all the pain that i'm feeling to Him gave me hope. not the kind of hope that someday we'll be back together, but hope that tomorrow will be better than today. He has wiped my tears for me to see a bright tomorrow, used people (or even dogs) around me to give me happiness, used me (and my experience) to help out other people, and lastly gave me an opportunity to become more closer to my mom. (the best!)
this indeed gave me the lesson that i have to learn the hard (and painful by the way) way. but then, the important thing is, i've learned, and i'm changing (a work still in progress). all these wouldn't be possible without God's help, with the power hug of my mom, the distractions of my dad, the ignorance of my sisters (meaning they didn't know, not unitl now i guess), the understanding of my one true bestfriend, and the super wet kisses of draco (my sister's pet yorkie).
so for all those who's struggling right now, don't be afraid to cry. let it all out until it hurts no more. turn to God for help, and everything else will follow. there's hope for brigther days. :)
we've decided to start it all over, and just let time decide on how things will work out. it may or may not be in my favor, but who cares? at least we've tried to fix where we've started, and that is on being the best of friends. after all, i know (and i now believe) that God has a better plan that what i've already pictured in my mind. surrendering all the pain that i'm feeling to Him gave me hope. not the kind of hope that someday we'll be back together, but hope that tomorrow will be better than today. He has wiped my tears for me to see a bright tomorrow, used people (or even dogs) around me to give me happiness, used me (and my experience) to help out other people, and lastly gave me an opportunity to become more closer to my mom. (the best!)
this indeed gave me the lesson that i have to learn the hard (and painful by the way) way. but then, the important thing is, i've learned, and i'm changing (a work still in progress). all these wouldn't be possible without God's help, with the power hug of my mom, the distractions of my dad, the ignorance of my sisters (meaning they didn't know, not unitl now i guess), the understanding of my one true bestfriend, and the super wet kisses of draco (my sister's pet yorkie).
so for all those who's struggling right now, don't be afraid to cry. let it all out until it hurts no more. turn to God for help, and everything else will follow. there's hope for brigther days. :)
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