Paradigm Shift.

Think of a Paradigm Shift as a change from one way of thinking to another. It's a revolution, a transformation, a sort of metamorphosis. It just does not happen, but rather it is driven by agents of change. [http://www.taketheleap.com/define.html]

A paradigm is our perception of reality, our view of the world. It is our interpretation of events based on previous teaching we have received. If our paradigm is based only on our input from the media of conventional newspapers, magazines, radio, television, Hollywood films, public education etc., may God help us, for we will only see things the way they, the elite and wealthy rulers of this world who control these sources of information, want us to see things! This is often the opposite of the Truth. A paradigm shift means to have a sudden change in perception, a sudden change in point of view, of how you see things. [http://deeptruths.com/paradigm_shift.html]

So what about "paradigm shift"? [WOW! Big word!] Lately I've been having a lot of realizations about my future. It's just a matter of two months before I turn 25 and yet I feel like I've been on the same "episodes" of my life.. Routinary. Cycle. Paulit-ulit? Unli? Something like that. [Quarter-life crisis? Di naman siguro.. But it can be. Haha!] I know this has been my "forever rant" -- to have CHANGE in my current life, any change for that matter; career/job, hobbies, school stuff, etc. Basta, anything that will change something, be it temporary or permanent, I'll jump into it. BUT of course, I need to weigh certain pros and cons before making a decision, and I need to consider a lot of factors that will affect my decision; time management, salary [Haha!], "financial damage", outcomes, sacrifices, etc.

Paradigm shift, as to my understanding, is a change not on the current situation but rather more on the change of perception on why certain things happen. Change of perception -- this has been a challenge for me for the past two years [Grabe, ang tagal!] -- that certain things happened and turned out to be NOT IN MY FAVOR. ANG SAKIT! Tagos sa buto! [*Angel Locsin tone* in the movie "Unofficially Yours." Bwahaha!] There were nights I kept wishing that it didn't / never happened, I even blamed myself why it happened, or why I let it happen.. But as time goes, I've come to accept that those things happened, IT JUST HAPPENED, and there's nothing more that I can do but just these three things -- ACCEPTANCE, FORGIVENESS, AND LIVE. True enough that it's easier said than done.. but that's the beauty of it.. "challenging" as it may seem, it is possible to overcome the bad with the good, rather than let yourself be consumed by evil. Change of perception. Paradigm shift. 

A friend once told me that "there can't be any change in your life unless you allow change. Parang ang dating nya eh "Walang magbabago kung wala kang babaguhin." Change is not a gust of wind [YEEEEEES! Guma-gust of wind pa! Ano nakain ko?] that will come your way and then.. poof! Changed person ka na! You also have to have effort to bring about change in your life, if your open to it, then you'll be positive on what change can bring you. Certain sacrifices must be made, it the outcomes will be for the better, why not do it, right? As hard as it is to let go of the things na nakasanayan na natin, we need to do it so that change can occur.Set your priorities well. Allow change. Paradigm shift.

Lastly, dahil sa gustong-gusto ko ng "changes" sa buhay ko, I take charge of  how to run my life. I have MY plans set already and then that's just the time that I'll turn to God to bless and guide me as I execute MY plan. I 've had my fair share of having control in my life, but it turns out I'm not so good at it.; I keep stumbling, mistake after mistake. And that's when it hit me.. I NEED TO BACK DOWN AND SURRENDER. So I guess now is the time to stop putting puzzle pieces that don't fit on the blank spaces. Let go. Let God. Paradigm shift.

So, this ends here. Au revoir! ^_____^

I'm still.. and will always be excited on God's awesome plan for me. BRING IT! :)

Go And Sin No More.

The perfect song for this year's Youth Camp with the theme "Breaking Sin". The message is simple but has a great impact, especially to the ones who can relate to it. [I think almost everyone can.] It's about Repentance, Redemption, and everything in between. If you're not familiar with the song, you can search for it via YouTube. :)

GO AND SIN NO MORE
by: Rebecca St. James

I've sinned, come on my knees
For I'm not worthy of Your love
How could You die for me
Such grace can only come from God

Oh Lord, You search and You know me
You see me inside out
God, You alone can forgive me
Erase my fear and my doubt
Father, You pick me up
I feel like a child in Your arms
I don't deserve this love,
but I hear Your voice, Lord Jesus

CHORUS:
Go and sin no more
He said "I will not condemn you,
I'll forgive and I'll forget it all
Go and sin no more
My child, let me remind you it
is I who'll lead and guide you as you go"

You are my purpose - You are the reason that I live
I want to be like You - Help me to love and to forgive
God, let me not be distracted
Lord, help me focus on You
Keep sin from ruling my life, Lord - make me holy and pure
Father, You pick me up - I feel like a child in Your arms
I don't deserve this love but, I hear Your voice Lord, Jesus

CHORUS:
Go and sin no more
He said "I will not condemn you,
I'll forgive and I'll forget it all
Go and sin no more
My child, let me remind you it
is I who'll lead and guide you as you go"

Wipe, wipe away
Take, take away
Break, break away
Fill my life, make it right
Father, help me, Father, help me go

CHORUS:
He said "I will not condemn you, no
Go and sin no more
My child let me remind you it is I
who'll lead and guide you as you go"

I've sinned, come on my knees, how could You die for me
You search my heart - know my thoughts
See me inside out and all throughout me
You alone can forgive me
You always pick me up - like a child in Your arms
I could stay with Your forever here

And the saga continues.. Let's put on the armor and together be the army of God. :)

Yes, She Doesn't Mind.

New URL. And yes, SHE DOESN'T MIND! She. Doesn't Freaking. Mind. Ü

I first thought of 'shedoesntmind' for my new URL, but since its so common and any other girl can think of it to be their blog's URL, it wasn't available for use. And so I used my beloved first name and came up with 'melissadoesntmind'.

Why I don't mind?

First of all, I am a bit of a worry-wart. An OC planner. A workaholic mulit-tasker. [Yep, I'm that busy bee.] And I am very VERY tired already. With all the things I've been doing lately, I think I lost track of what's really important, my priorities are lost. I keep on looking at the future, but the sad truth is, my present is a mess. A really big mess. So during one of my devotions, I came across with these quote:

"In principle, we want God's wisdom. In practice, we follow our own."

It made me think for a while, and realized that it was right. That I always tend to ask for God's wisdom and knowledge when I need it, especially when making a decision, but in the end, I follow my own discernment, and trust that God will make it work in my favor. Gaaaaah! Control freak. Kainis!

But now, I have a new mantra. I won't mind. It doesn't mean that I won't care, its just that I wouldn't stress myself with the things around me to go my way. Or I would take it nicely and whole-heartedly if my desires wouldn't be given to me. [YET!] And I will try to live one day at a time. Ü I won't mind if my boss continues to reprimand me whenever/wherever she wants. I won't mind if my professors gave a lot of "last-minute" papers due next week. I won't mind if some of my friends may seem distant at times. I won't mind if people continue to lie, cheat, steal, etc.

But I will mind my judgments towards other people; my choice of words and my tone of voice when I talk to other people; my my heart to find forgiveness to others, and to myself as well.

That's all. Couldn't think of a better conclusion for this entry. I hope you don't mind. Gaaah! Get it? Ü

Scrubs. (All Over Again.)

And because I'm super bored everyday at work, and because the "resource" is available (and accessible), and because I CAN.. I'm currently watching Scrubs, from Season 1! Ü I've seen it before 'till Season 5, I think. And now, watching it again.. Mas gets ko na yung jokes at sarcasm nila. Hahaha! Ü SO mas natatawa na ko.

That's it. Ktnxbye.

Of Love, Friendships, Closures, And Everything In Between.

Huling hirit sa February.. Game?

LOVE.

All the while I thought that as you grow old, you also get to be wiser when it comes to love. But it seems that I'm the otherwise. Tama ba? Hindi ba masyado na yata akong matanda para sa mga paulit-ulit na hinanaing tungkol sa pag-ibig? In fairness, I think I'm having enough. (Present tense, still ongoing.)

Yesterday, I saw a friend's tweet -- "Dear maturity, choosy ka?" I forgot the next line, but it goes something like pili lang yata yung binibigyan ni maturity ng 'maturity'. Get it? Natawa ako at first, pero naisip ko, ako mismo sa sarili kulang nito minsan. Haha! Minsan lang sumpungin ng maturity. Olats.

LOVE + LIES = AWAY NA 'TO!!

I just don't get it. Why do you have to lie if you're not hiding something from someone? Or better yet, why lie if you don't have to? I'm not being self-righteous, I've had my fair share of lying to someone about something, but what I don't get is why lie about something that's already out in the open?

Sample ba? Ganito.

Sample #1 : Kunyari si Person A nakita ni Person B may ka-HHWWPSSP sa isang mall, eh parang kagabi lang magka-text pa sila at binalak mag-Vday date at kung maka-arriba si Person A single na single ang datingan, so ayun na nga. Nakita ni Person B si Person A, na BOOM BOOM BOOM niya, and when asked about it, todo deny pa si Person A. "FRIEND" lang daw yung ka-HHWWPSSP niya. Ibang klase! Caught 'red handed' na, nagdedeny pa. Wala namang kaso kay Person B, kaya nga nakakapagtaka bakit kailangan pa i-deny ni Person A. Kalerks!

Sample #2 : "It's Complicated" ang peg ni girl at boy. Nagkataon na inatake ng 'curiosity' si boy at sa kagagawan niyang yun may nakita siyang mga bagay na sana di nalang niya nakita. Matagal na nangyari yung mga nakita niya, pero ang ipinagtaka lang niya ay nung mga panahong 'yon, iba ang kwento ni girl. Salisi yata. Ok lang sana kay boy eh, kaya lang di maiiwasan na masabaw siya. "Hindi siya nagsinunggaling, hindi niya lang nasabi yung totoo." -- Paulit-ulit sa utak ni boy yan. At si girl, kebs ang. Deadma. Patay malisya. Ang tanong, may dapat bang gawin ang kung sino man para maayos nila yun? At anong ugat nitong 'problema' na 'to? LIE! Tsk.

I have lied and I have been lied to. Kaya nga I know the feeling on both ends eh. I'm still wondering, if you really love a person, why do you have to lie to him/her? Para di siya masaktan? Eh diba pareho lang naman kung sakali?Inevitable ba talaga ang pagsisinungaling? Siguro nga. Mabuti nalang marami paring mga tao ang mapagpasensya, mahinahon, at malawak ang pag-unawa. Sa inyong lahat, saludo ako! Ü


"Don't tell me you're sorry, 'cause you're not. And baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught. But you put on quite a show, really had me going. But now it's time to go, curtain's finally closing. That was quite a show, very entertaining. But it's over no, go on and take a bow."


FRIENDSHIPS.

Lately, I've been re-assessing the friendships I've made the past years. I'm not the type of person kasi na kung makipag-kaibigan akala mo Facebook. (Maisingit lang ang kabitteran sa FB. Haha!) Tipong friend of a friend, iffriend mo na? Sometimes, it works, pero for me, more of an 'acquaintance' pa lang yun. I'm more into the 'depth of friendship' kasi. (Kaya nga nabuo ang kataga na 'Test of friendship' eh.) Hahaha!

For me, friendships are a lot like relationships (Minus the intimacy of course.) -- they need to make an effort for it to be stronger and stand the test of time. Bwahaha! KAARTEHAN! Simple lang, kung paano kayo sa mga jowa niya, ganun dapat kayo sa mga kaibigan niyo. Nakakainis na nga maiwan sa ere ng bf/gf/fling/chorvah/girlaloo/boylaloo mo, ano pa yung 'kaibigan' mo talaga diba? I really REALLY value the friendships that I have with a ton of people. (I have lots of 'best friends' and 'better friends'. Haha! Meron din 'best friends turned lovers turned strangers'. Hahaha! That's another story!)

I just don't like it when a 'friend' of yours suddenly shuts you off (?) just because he/she/it (Haha!) is doing well. Naaaaamaaaaan! Fair-weathered friends ba yung term dun? Basta. But that's just me and that's my prerogative. (It's Britney bitch!) Marami na nga akong na-encounter na 'jerk', hanggang sa pakikipag-kaibigan ba naman meron parin? OA! "Natural na nature lang ng mga kaibigan ang di magparamdam. Malay mo may pinagdadaanan na sila na di mo alam, o ayaw ka nalang nila guluhin dahil baka may pinagdadaanan ka din." Something like that. Nasermonan pa ko ng mabuti kong kaibigan dahil sa isang 'childish act' na nagawa ko recently. Yeah, I was quick to assume that a certain person and I were no longer friends.. just because. (Haha! No explanation. Or di ko lang ma-explain ng maayos. Kung baga.. nag-AWOL. Ganun! Eh pikon na pikon ako sa ganun eh, seryoso!) But at the end of the day, things were clarified.. If I'm to put it in words, it would be this simple.. "Steady lang."

Naku! Kaya kayo, kilalanin mabuti ang mga kinakaibigan. Mahirap na. Haha! Di purket masaya kasama yun na yun. :p Mas maganda yung kahit hindi masaya ay kasama mo parin. BOOM BOOM BOOM! Ü


"Do you cling to your pride and sing 'I will survive'? Do you lash out and say 'How dare you leave this way'? Do you hold on in vain as they just slip away.."


CLOSURES.

Is it really important? Does it matter? Or is it just an excuse to get another shot at something/someone? While closure eliminates ambiguity, it also stirs up confusion. Ha? labo ba? It's like (Conyo ampf!) not leaving someone "hanging" or to tie up loose ends; but when closure is attained, it doesn't end there. A lot of "What if's" and "Should have been's" will be drawn, thus leaving you more confused than ever. (Hindi na makuntento. Isip ng isip, parang babae! Haha!)

But on the contrary, closure sets limitation. Kung may closure na, malamang nalinaw na ang mga dapat linawin, at napagkasunduan na ang dapat na "lagay" ng kung sino man. TRANSPARENT. No more gray area.

Walang kwenta. Haha! Naisip ko lang kasi bigla. And kung bakit ba ko nakakaramdam ng "need for closure" eh feeling ko wala namang dapat i-close. Gets? Labo! Erase. Erase. Erase.

Basta, pag humirit ako ng "Kailangan ko ng closure." pakisilip nalang yung zipper ko, baka nakabukas lang pala, umaarte pa ko. :p


"Well I guess I'm trying to be nonchalant about it. And I'm going to extremes to prove I'm fine without you. But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind; underneath a disguise of a smile, gradually I'm dying inside.."


EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN.

** Nape Tattoo
** Pet Shih Tzu
** Blackberry Torch 9800
** First sem almost over.. Getting ready for the whole acad year..
** And many more to come..

And in everything.. there is constant change.

My motto for 2012 : "This year is all about change."

And I strongly believe that this year will bring out a lot of changes in me, for me, and by me.

BRING IT! \m/



** (Kalat-kalat na kaisipan, pinilit isulat lahat sa iisang entry. Ito ang resulta. Bow.)