Hope For The New Year..

So yeah, its 2 hours before 2011 comes. And I'm doing this 'I-need-to-have-a-year-end-post' post. I don't want 'Thank you' notes or 'Highlights of 2010' kind of post because its what most people do. And of course, I've already thanked people and blogged about the "highlights" of my year.

Anyway, I wanted this to be short and simple.

Since last week, I haven't been resting well, and that's not because of the parties, night-outs, etc. that I've been going to. Sleep is far different from rest, if you know what I mean. Its just that I've never been so bothered about something like this before. Since I've heard THAT news, I can't help but be scared. Scared? Yeah, scared. It's the first time that I feel unsure of what can happen the day after. [Excuse my grammar. Kalat lang thoughts ko.] I know for a fact that tomorrow is always uncertain, but to feel scared about it? That's new for me.

Maybe, once again, I am being tested by my faith. I know that I've been AWOL with my 'meetings' with God, so maybe He's calling my attention. Maybe, because things are going so well with my life, I often forget to talk to him. So, yeah. Maybe He's just reminding me of something, or He wants me to learn something from this... eeeerrrmmm... test?

When I'm not in control of things, there's one thing left to do.. HOPE. Hope that things would turn out for the better. Hope that everything will fall perfectly into place. Hope that people would be patient enough to wait for their prayers to be answered. Hope that there would be a brighter day for all of us. Hope that our eyes be dried from tears. Hope that people will not stop from hoping.

2 hours from now, we'll be facing a new year. New beginnings. New challenges. New experiences. New opportunities. New everything! And with all of these, let us keep our head high, hope that what we prayed for will be answered one by one, and never stop believing. :)

Happy New Year Everyone! God Bless Us All! :)

There's A Rainbow Always After The Rain..

Falling out, falling in
Nothing's sure in this world no, no
Breaking out, breaking in
Never knowing what lies ahead
We can really never tell it all no, no, no
Say goodbye, say hello
To a lover or friend
Sometimes we never could understand
Why some things begin then just end
We can really never tell it all no, no, no

But oh, can't you see
That no matter what happens
Life goes on and on
So baby, please smile
'Coz I'm always around you
And ill make you see how beautiful
Life is for you and me

Take a little time baby
See the butterflies color's
Listen to the birds that were sent
To sing for me and you
Can you feel me
This is such a wonderful place to be
Even if there is pain now
Everything would be all right
For as long as the world still turns
There will be night and day
Can you hear me
There's a rainbow always after the rain


Hitting high, hitting low
Win or lose you should go, yeah yeah
Getting warm, getting cold
Weather could be so good or bad
But baby this is life now don't get mad no, no, no

'Coz oh, cant you see
That no matter what happens
Life goes on and on
So baby, please smile
'Coz I'm always around you
And ill make you see how beautiful
Life is for you and me

Take a little time baby
See the butterflies' colors
Listen to the birds that were sent
To sing for me and you
Can you feel me
This is such a wonderful place to be
Even if there is pain now
Everything would be all right
For as long as the world still turns
There will be night and day
Can you hear me
There's a rainbow always after the rain

Life's full of challenges
Not all the time we get what we want
But don't despair my dear 'coz I know now
You'll take each trial and you'll make it through the storm
'Coz you're strong my faith in you is clear
So ill say once again this worlds wonderful and
Let us celebrate life that's so beautiful, so beautiful

Take a little time baby
See the butterflies' colors
Listen to the birds that were sent
To sing for me and you
Can you feel me
This is such a wonderful place to be
Even if there is pain now
Everything would be all right
For as long as the world still turns
There will be night and day
Can you hear me
There's a rainbow always after the rain

The Tough It Gets Going..

I'm in a position where I can't think of what to do anymore. Yeah, it's a bit serious this time. I really don't want / think I need to go through the details of the current situation, but it's kinda BIG.

I believe that things always happen for a reason. I also believe that no matter how hard the situation may seem, it will be all right in time. But sometimes, its hard to keep believing when your problem is pushing you hard down to the ground.

I know that in times like this, all I have to do is pray.. And believe that God will work things out in his perfect timing.. And wait patiently.. Yeah. Easier said than done. But I do hope I'll be able to make it through this is in one piece. Strength. Patience. Endurance. Lord help me.

:((


"I love you so much.. And I'll keep on loving you till forever.. This is just one battle we have to fight together.."

Updating..

♪♫ On the third day of Christmas, my true love sent to me.. Three french hens, two turtle doves, and a partridge and a pear tree. ♫♪

Yeah. So much for intro.

Haven't blog for a while now. Not that I'm busy.. I'm just.. preoccupied. And I kind of lost the eagerness to write about my everyday blahs, after all boundary na naman ako sa blog posts for the year eh. [Check out my posts for the previous years.] So yeah.

I actually have nothing to write in particular.. I also don't know why i entitled this post "Updating.."; is there anything to update? =))

Here's some updates: [Even though you don't give a crap about it.]

★ The Dance Workshop at our church that we we're planning since October is finally over. 4 Saturdays of grooving, jazz-kicking, arms-twitching, and facial expressions -- and a dance recital to top it all off! It was all worth it. I was happy for the kids because I know they all learned a lot. I am also fulfilled that I get to dance again. :) And knowing that it is all for the Lord, all the hard work was definitely worth it! :)

★ My sister and I got into a 'silent war' because of some stupid shoes. [Yes! That's how far a apir of shoes can get..] We keep on ignoring each other for the past three weeks. But it was just last Saturday that she talked to me first.. As she was wrapping her Christmas gifts for her friends, she asked "May puncher ka ba?". "Wala eh..". Then I excitedly told her "May bago akong tattoo!" Then I showed it to her. And the rest.. went well. Back to normal I guess.

You had me at "May puncher ka ba?" --- wanted to tweet this particular line, but I hesitated because she might get pissed again, I don't want to push my luck! :)

★ And yes! I do have a new tattoo. I wouldn't call it 'new' 'cause I just expanded the one I already have at my lower back. Same theme -- flowers on waves of water. Though it's not yet done, I have to go back for another session. I didn't let 2010 pass without me having a tattoo.. That's four years in a row! :)

Another rock n' rolling Christmas gift from my punk rockin' Kuya Shad! :) [No photo for now. Kapag natapos na.]

★ I have an upcoming business [PhotoBooth] and I'm really excited about it. But of course I need to study the 'feasibility' of the project first before I go on. [Although I already bought some stuff for the business. Excited?] And also, I need to buy a new laptop so that I won't bother Louis to borrow his. Haha! =))

★ I'm done with my Christmas shopping. Yep! As busy as I am, I got it done.. too early I guess. :) But hey, it just took me one Saturday to get ALL done, and I mean ALL! [Well, except for my parents 'cause I'll be buying them a new phone for Christmas. I'm waiting for some mooolaah!]

★ I recently [Just now.] downloaded all the albums of N*SYNC. I kind of miss them and their music. Well, I know that they're not that good compared to what we have now. But hearing them all over again brings back so much memories. 'I Drive Myself Crazy' was the first song that a 'boy' ever dedicated to me. ♥♥♥ And I liked Justin Timberlake after they released their 'Celebrity' album in 2001. [And on the music video of 'Gone'] Haaaaaaaay. ^___^

So that's it for now. Tata! ♥

Be Joyful Inspite Of.. Despite Of..

WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU MONDAY? You keep hitting me blow by blow. I'm not used to it! :|

My day started out well. Woke up earlier than the usual, arriving 15 mins early to work, ate breakfast with the usual people, then off to my desk to start my day.

Midday. I was chatting with a friend, talking 'bout.. eeerr... things. I don't want to go through all of the details but it just makes me sad that I am once again the reason for his.. eeerr... state? I can't find the right term. It is in these situations that I feel bothered. The one that I would have to choose between someone's feelings or my own feelings. And even if I choose myself over him, I still feel a little bit guilty/bothered. [See? I'm not that bitchy!] To simplify: Olats.

Sisterly War. Kept nagging me thru text about her clothes that I used for the weekend and the wedge that I have 'broken'. I really really hate it when she does that because:
1) I hate arguing over text. It's very.... Unsisterly. [Is there such a word? Haha!] Plus, I don't know what to reply because there's nothing I can say that will make her not mad at me.
2) Hindi ko ma-English kaya Tagalog nalang for this one.. Kapag siya yung gumagamit ng damit/gamit ko ng walang paalam, kahit gagamitin ko yun the next day, or kapag siya ang may nasisirang gamit ko.. WALA SIYANG NARIRINIG SAKIN. [Even sa text.]

At dahil dito uminit talaga ulo ko at kumunot noo ko. Sa inis ko, I ended up saying the lowest of all reasons.. "EH DI BABAYARAN KO PARA MAKABILI KA NG BAGO AT WAG NANG MAG-AWAY!" [Kahit na hindi naman ako talaga yung nakasira. Kainis eh!] Sabay reply "Di ko naman pinapabayaran eh, pinapaayos ko lang." Sauce. Hindi nga ako sumira, ako pa aayos? Bibili nalang ako ng bago nang matapos na.

See? See how low this argument is? I HATE IT! I'M HATING MYSELF RIGHT NOW!

Lunchtime. Someone PMed me. Telling me that a group of 'gossipers' we're talking about how snobbish I am, and that I wasn't smiling at them when they pass by. The heck with those people! They're VERY old to play Gossip Girl with me. They've already spread the rumors to their entire department, so now I am named '..yung hindi namamansin.' Pffft! This is what I hate the most! GOSSIP! People talking behind your back, with only one thing in mind.. to put you down. And it saddens me because its all they ever do. Instead of working hard and minding their own business, they tend to talk about other people's flaws/mistakes/misfortunes/etc. Para na nilang ulam yun araw-araw. Kainis! Matatanda na, ang tatabil pa ng dila! :p

Afternoon. Raining HARD. Earlier, I greeted a "friend" thru FB. Then, I checked back at her page and she entirely replied to all those who've greeted her, except for one.. ME! If I was just crazy enough, I would have posted the screen shot here. BUT, nvm. I know that after I blog about this, the feeling would just shake off. Going back, so yeah! She left me out! I don't know what her problem is; with me, with the content of my greeting [It's just a simple Happy Birthday btw] or some other stuff that may be "too personal". [A lot is 'too personal' these days!] I can't say that I don't care, because I do! I just wanna know why.. But then again, if she doesn't feel like it, I won't push it.

So yeah. Pretty amazing things for a Monday huh? Need I ask for more?

After almost being done with this entry.. [And having 3 glasses of Über cold water] I remembered something from the sermon yesterday.. that HAPPINESS is BECAUSE OF, while JOY/BEING JOYFUL is INSPITE OF and DESPITE OF. So even if this day gets any worse [Please.. Don't..] or if it will turn out quite the opposite [Crossing my fingers..] Still, I have to be thankful and be joyful for this day.. Inspite of.. Despite of.. ^____^

I. Thank. You. Bow.

Just before I hit 'Publish', the perfume that I ordered [DKNY Be Delicious] just arrived! Yey! ^___^ [Bawi one point!]

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Wish I could do a rewind. ◄◄