The Man You Love Or The Man Who Loves You?

Sometimes, in our relentless efforts to find the
person we love we fail to recognize and appreciate
the people who love us. We miss out on so many
beautiful things and simply because we allow
ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfish
concerns. Go for the man of deeds and not for the
man of words for you will find rewarding happiness
not with the man you love but the man who loves
you more. The best lovers are those capable of
loving from a distance far enough to allow the
person to grow, but never too far to feel the love
deep within your being. TO LET GO OF
SOMEONE DOESN'T MEAN YOU HAVE TO
STOP LOVING, IT ONLY MEANS THAT YOU
ALLOW THAT PERSON TO FIND HIS OWN
HAPPINESS WITHOUT EXPECTING HIM TO
COME BACK. Letting go is not just setting the
other person free, but it is also setting yourself free
from all bitterness, hatred, and anger that keep in
your heart. Do not let the bitterness rare you away
your strength and weaken your faith, and never
allow pain to dishearten you, but rather let you
grow with wisdom in bearing it. You may find
peace in just loving someone from a distance not
expecting anything in return. But be careful, for
this can sustain life but can never give enough
room for us to grow. We can all survive with just
beautiful memories of the past but real peace and
happiness come only with open acceptance of
what reality is today. There comes a time in our
lives when we chance upon someone so nice and
beautiful and we just find ourselves getting so
intensely attracted to that person.

This feeling soon become a part of our everyday
lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and
actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to
realize that this person feels nothing more for us
than just a friendship.

We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and
be closer but in the end our efforts are still
unrewarded and we end up being sorry for
ourselves.

You don't have to forget someone you love. What
you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of
reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself.

Believe me, you would be better off giving that
dedication and love to someone more deserving.
Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible and
let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to
your feelings but to reason as well. Always
remember that if you lose someone today, it
means that someone better is coming tomorrow: If
you lose love that doesn't mean that you failed in
love. Cry if you have to, but make it sure that the
tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness that
the past has left with you. Let go of yesterday and
love will find its way back to you. And when it
does, pray that it may be the love that will stay
and last a lifetime.

There are two ways to live your life. One is as
though nothing is a miracle. The other is though
everything is a miracle.

>>i got this from one of the blog entries of desiree on myspace.. sad but true.. :c

Updates. Updates.

haller!? wazzup wazzup?? ang tagal ko hindi nakagawa ng entry.. (duh!? ganun naman palagi eh..) anyway,, sobrang dami ng pangyayaring naganap this past few weeks.. hindi ko na alam saan magsisimula..

--> i passed my second sem!? yahoo!? at last,, my sleepless nights are over.. ang lakas talaga ng panalangin.. biruin mong pumasa pa ako?? hahahaha.. hay naku!? thanks talaga PAPA GOD!?

--> after ilang dekada ay nakanood naren uli me ng movie.. "the pacifier".. birthday po ni bebeng yun kaya libre!? cool movie.. astig!? bwehehe..

--> my work na uli me.. sa "mcdonald's" naman me this time.. kasama ko si memey at macmac kaya excited ako mag-work.. ang kaso nga lang.. one of the reasons kaya busy ako lately is nag--aayos me ng requirements.. grabeh di pa ko nagsisimula magtrabaho laki na agad ng gastos ko.. (amph!?) pero okei lang yan.. babawiin ko yan.. bwahahaha..

--> graduation ng PCU ngayon.. (ano naman??) hehehe..

-->MISS KO NA SI STAN!? (sino naman yun??)

--> si ate les at kuya dave nasa puerto galera ngayon!? (boiset yun!? iniwan trabaho nya sakin..) hihihihi..

-->si POPE kasalukuyang nililibing ngayon.. walang mapanood na matino dahil laman ng tv si pope eh.. hmpf!?

--> gutom na ko at gusto ko ng sylvannas!? (leche!? walang masabi!?)

--> lapit na ko mag-driving lesson c/o kuya shad!? inaantay ko nalang permit ko.. wu-hoooo!?

hay naku!? wala akong matinong masabi noh?? sayang yung iba nakalimutan ko na eh.. sayang.. pero okei lang.. nga pala nagpa-henna kami ni pox kaso mejo faded na sya ngayon.. (pox=ariel).. dito muna.. wala ako sa sarili ngayon eh.. ang init-init,, walang malamig na tubig,, ubos na yung pillows sa tindahan,, at worst of all ubos na pera ko!? waaaah!? pano na yung mediator books ko?? sige dito nalang talaga muna.. bye!?

P.S.

1.) JORDAN CAÑADA binati kita nung birthday mo ha?? april 1!?

2.) bili naman kayo ng beagle samin.. maawa na kayo sa bahay namin para ng mini-cartimar!?

3.) hannah.. abang-abang ka lang jan sa kwento ko ha??

4.) jamie bondoc!? hindi ko boypren si ej noh?? cute lang talaga kami sa pic na yun!?

5.) andrea at karlyn.. kamusta ka naman??

6.) ariel!? bili tayo yakisoba sa trident.. hahaha..

Anong Pecha Na?

anong pecha na ba?? ngayon na lang uli ako nakapag-post ng entry.. well.. new look blog ko noh?? eh kasi wala lang.. na-inggit ako kay ate kat eh.. nyahahaha.. at for sure mga 3 days later magpapalay-out na rin si ate les dahil maiinggit sakin.. bwahahaha..

anong pecha na ba?? summer na diba.. or summer na nga ba?? di ko pa makondisyon utak ko kung summer na o hindi pa eh.. la pa kong balak magpakasaya and "have fun under the sun" dahil di ko pa nakukuha grades ko.. (pesteng mga prof!? prolonging the agony!?) tapos la na ring allowance kaya napapisip ako na.. "summer na nga.. wala na kong pera eh.." hay naku!?

anong pecha na ba?? bakit ngayon lang uli ako nakapag-post ng entry?? ano na ba nangyari sa mundo ko?? hay ewan!? sobrang naging busy dahil sunod-sunod na projects,, quizzes at syempre yung finals.. grabeh mata ko.. EYEMALETA na.. di na eyebags eh.. pang eyebags squared.. peste!? tapos ano pa ba ginawa ko?? sobrang nagtipid ako kasi nga para may pera ako ngayong bakasyon kaya di muna ako nagrerent ng pc.. (lam nyo kasi pc sa bahay namin 6 years bago mag-load ng page..) uhm.. ano pa ba?? wala naman masyado.. ganito parin naman ako.. lately nga lang nagiging bookworm dahil sa kakabasa nung mga books na binili ko nung christmas.. (at last may time na ko para basahin lahat yun..) actually yung book collection ko nasa 45 na pero mga 17 pa lang yata nababasa ko..) what else?? si papa stan?? nah!? baka maglit si bebeng.. dapat daw crush lang.. (crush lang naman talaga ah beng?? hehehe..)

anong pecha na ba?? tignan nyo nga at walang aral na makabuluhan ang mapupulot dito.. busy pa ko sa paglay-out nitong blog eh.. chaka ginagawan ko pa ng paraan pano palitan yung kulay ng entry.. peste kasi eh.. GREEN?? haller!? kelan bumagay ang pink at black sa green?? keeeeeellllaaannn??

oh sige dito muna ha?? tawag na ko ng nanay ko.. kakain na daw.. yung mga aso.. till here.. bye!? c;

You'll Be Safe Here...

haller peepz!? musta na kayong lahat?? ang tagal-tagal-infinity ko nang di nakapag-update ng blog ko ah?? goshness!? anyways,, eh kasi super busy as in ngayon.. sunod-sunod exams kaya sunod-sunod din na araw ang pagrereview at sunod-sunod na puyatan kaya eto.. sunod-sunod na paglaki ng "eyebags".. (ampfness.. parang ariel..) pero after seeing the results of those exams nawawala naman pagod ko.. eh kasi i really have to do good this finals eh.. pano ba naman mga grades ko nasakluban ng langit.. hay ewan ko ba!? cha-inis!?

may sasabihin pala ako sa inyo.. kala niyo ba purket single ako walang "kilig moments" nung valentines?? aba!? meron noh?? si "cholo el gwapito from architechture".. siya.. siya.. siya lang naman nagbigay nang saysay nung araw na yun!? nag-shake hands kami.. nilapitan niya ko nung nagcampaign sya sa room namen.. dun sya sa tapat ko nagsasalita ng mga platforms ng party nila!? tapos inaasar ako ng mga blockmates namen.. kakahiya nga sa kanya eh.. buti nalang ka-party niya si ate paula at yun.. medyo napagtakpan ang kalantutan ko.. bwehehe.. chaka nag-bonding kai ng highschool friends ko ah?? ang dami naming nagkita-kita nun!? at ang saya-saya noh??

IV-ISRAEL MISHU SO MUCH!?

enough of these gurlet stuffs and let me be serious for a while.. lam niyo kasi peepz lately medyo maraming kaganapan sa "circle of friends" ko sa school.. and most of them puro nakakalungkot.. first si dust,, nag-break na sila ng gf niya dahil sa sobrang selosan.. (pati ba naman ako na seatmate pinagselosan?? pathetic!?) tapos same din with darene,, break na sila ni joseph kasi di na sila sabay ng takbo ng utak.. madalas di na sila nagkakasundo.. then there's tetel.. wala naren sila nung ka-on niya.. dahil yata "wala lang".. basta yun na yun!? at ang pinaka malala.. si jason.. si jason my bro!? our bro!? aalis na papuntang hongkong.. for good na yun.. wala kaming magawa.. nung paglipat niya sa ateneo nagawan pa namin ng paraan para pigilan pero ung ngayon?? ano ba laban namin?? blockmate lang kami eh.. si kim nga na gf walang magawa eh.. di pa nga yata niya alam eh.. hay naku!? hindi pa jan tapos yan.. yung mga professors namen.. they're making our lives hell.. yes!? tama basa niyo.. ayaw man naming isipin pero ganun na nga.. kainis talaga!? minsan nga habang nagtatawanan kami.. bigla nalang kaming matatahimik.. (mga buang eh noh??) eh pano maiisip namin yung mga problema.. actually it's not such a big deal.. pinagdadaanan naman toh eh right?? pero hindi naman siguro dapat sabay-sabay diba?? hay ewan.. cha-inis!?

minsan tuloy napapaisip ako.. "been there,, done that,, and i've survived.." at nagiging proud ako sa sarili ko because i can be strong for them.. syempre sino ba lalapitan nila kung di ako na nanggaling na sa ganung situation diba?? pero naninibago ako.. medyo hindi na kami ganun ka-wild dahil sa dami ng iniisip.. nabawasan na kakulitan.. lahat natuto nang magseryoso ng tuluyan.. AYOKO NG GANITONG FEELING!? parang bato eh!? ayoko kasing nakikita silang hindi masyadong masaya kasi sila lang nagpapasaya sakin eh.. i remember nung ako yung ganyan.. they're trying everything para maging okei ako at mapatawa ako.. at least sila marami silang tulong-tulong nun.. eh pano ngayon?? sabay-sabay na sila bumagsak?? sila na nagtayo sakin nun.. kaya ko ba??

well,, i have no choice.. i have to be strong for them.. it may take a while bago bumalik yung dati pero okei lang.. kaya pa naman eh.. sana..

>>berx ko.. para sa inyo tong kantang toh..

You'll be safe here
Rivermaya

Nobody knows
Just why we're here
Could it be fate
Or random circumstance
At the right place
At the right time
Two roads intertwine

And if the universe conspired
To meld our lives
To make us
Fuel and fire
Then know
Where ever you will be
So too shall i be

Chorus:

Close your eyes
Dry your tears
'coz when nothing seems clear
You'll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Weary heart
You'll be safe here

Remember how we laughed
Until we cried
At the most stupid things
Like we were so high
But love was all that we were on
We belong

And though the world would
Never understand
This unlikely union
And why it still stands
Someday we will be set free.
Pray and believe

Chorus:

When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here
When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here

Save your eyes
From your tears
When everything's unclear
You'll be safe here

From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Wounded heart

When the light disappears
And when this world's insincere
You'll be safe here

When nobody hears you scream
I'll scream with you
You'll be safe here

In my arms
Through the long cold night
Sleep tight
You'll be safe here

When no one understands
I'll believe
You'll be safe,
You'll be safe
You'll be safe here
Put your heart in my hands
You'll be safe here

so paano dito muna ha?? sorry sa pagiging emotional.. till here.. bye!? c;

Ano Na Ba Ang Latest?

wow!? OMG!? how time flies talaga noh?? it's been err.. days?? weeks?? since i last wrote an entry here ah?? well actually tinatamad na ko mag-blog eh.. kaya last entry ko na toh!? ayoko na mag-blog!?

syempre joke lang diba?? bwehehe.. ang aking mga nakaraang linggo ay nagmistulang teleserye.. minsan masaya pero kadalasan malungkot at may pinoproblema.. pero okei lang.. kaya naman eh.. (aja!?) anyway.. magsisimula na ba ko mag-kwento?? sige simulan niyo na rin magbasa.. c;

---------- SA SCHOOL ----------

hay.. pre-com week kaya mejo na-relax kami ng onti.. onti langtalaga as in.. kasi wala ngang mga class.. wala rin naman kaming tulog.. last thursday (feb. 04) nasa ARKDIA malate kami.. dun ginanap yung party ng pre-com eh.. astig sobra kasi biggest delegation yata block namin.. tapos almost lahat ng nanalo sa games blockmates ko.. (ako nga na-kiss ko si marc abaya eh!? bwehehe!?) 6 cycle mind at sandwich guest artists.. tapos may mga di kilalang bands but they're really good as in.. tapos after nung tugtugan sayawan na.. grabeh!? mga "born to party" talaga.. tapos hindi pa dun natapos ang gabi.. bar-hopping pa at syempre.. whappak!? alam nyo na yun.. hehehe.. pero ito ang panira ng masayang bonding moment..

8:00 am kinabukasan tumawag blockmate kong si gee.. "melai.. bihis ka na.. uniform ah.. may pasok daw tao.. may quiz sa typing.." ako naman si gaga bangon agad.. BOISET na yan.. aga aga nakaka-urat agad!? wala nga akong uniform eh.. kaya ayun.. alas ocho ng umaga naglaba ako ng uniform.. kainis talaga!? ampfness!?

---------- SA BAHAY ----------

ang bahay namin ganap na "DOG HOUSE" na.. ung beagle naming si "marley" nanganak na poh.. 7 puppies.. so bali we have 14 dogs around the house.. actually they have 5 people roaming around their dog house.. akalain mo nga naman?? kami pa ang mukhang borders dito sa bahay na toh?? stig noh?? mga aso lang yan ha?? with matters regarding my dad and i naman.. ayoko nalang magsalita.. advice nalang.. wag nalang kayo makipag-away sa mga parents nyo.. walang kahihinatnang mabuti.. talo lang din kayo sa huli.. ;c

---------- SA FINANCIAL STATUS ---------

WALA NA KONG PERA!? ZERO BALANCE NA TALAGA!?

---------- SA LOVELIFE ---------

hoy peepz!? alam nyo bang i've faced my fears na.. i'm over him na.. yah i'm talking bout raefel here.. kasi last saturday was mayland's debut.. nagpunta kami dun sa party nya then right after derecho kami sa house ni raefel kasi party din nya.. nakakapagtaka nga kasi nung niyaya nila ko.. i quickly said.. "tara na!?" lahat sila even ako nagulintang.. was it really me?? eh di yun na nga nandun na kami.. we ride sa car ni aaron.. tapos pagbaba namin.. i was the last one to get off the car.. nawindang si raefel na kasama ako.. tinawanan ko lang sya tapos ayun bati ng happy birthday.. at di pa natapos yun dun.. pagpasok namin ng house nila andun na agad mom and dad nya.. syempre binati namin.. tapos nung kumakain na katapat ko si "desiree" sa table.. ala lang.. okei lang.. nag-smile pa nga ko eh.. kala nya siguro tatarayan ko sya.. (sorry po ala ako sa mood mang-away eh..) so aun.. mga 3 am na yata ako naka-uwi at thank GOD di ako pinagalitan ni dad.. text nga sila sakin lahat na "proud kami sayo lai!?" (ako din berx proud sa sarili ko..) walang pretentions na naganap nung madaling araw na yun.. eh napakaingay ko nga eh.. ewan!? siguro nga wala na.. siguro na let go ko na lahat.. siguro?? SIGURADO YUN DUDE!? coolness!? c;

eh alam nyo bang may balla' baby na namang nakaaligid sa bratinellang si melai?? i won't mention names muna pero i think some of you kilala na sya eh.. basta ayun!? bahala sya umaligid jan.. kaya nya ba ko ligawan?? new and improved na yata toh!? (parang vitamins??) ah basta.. ala lang.. share lang!?

---------- SA BOOK COLLECTION ----------

MAGDONATE NAMAN KAYO NG SHOPAHOLIC!? (calling the attention of miss kathy and lesley.. please proceed at the upper side of the double deck.. bwehehe..) oi it's growing bigger na poh.. dami nang "gurlet books".. may balak ka humiram ariel?? c; so paano peepz?? dito muna.. antok na ko eh.. aga pa kami tom.. nytie!? mwah!? c;